Why do I have to go to hell?

[MatthewHNguyen]

Will I die today?
What will happen if I die? Does God really love me as he says? Or is he this wrathful, judging god who is condemning? If so, why did he make me? Just so that I would die forever in hell?
Why don't you make me love people more? I figure that if I could love people more, I would actually do something. That I would actually stop wasting my life away and do what really matters: loving people, caring for people, helping the poor, the broken, the lost, the abandoned.
Why God? Why am I still the same? Why do I not anguish over the lost? Why don't I care? I keep asking and asking and praying and praying, but you're never there. You never gave me this love for people. Therefore, I'm going to burn in hell, because I never did anything in my life. You say that you're all about love and you're all about people coming as they are. But all I ever feel is condemnation and hatred and rejection. You say that whoever confesses Jesus is Lord will have eternal life. I have done that countless of times, but why don't I feel any different? Why do I still make the same mistakes? You say that it's not about works or good deeds, but it obviously is. Or else, why would Jesus divide the sheep and the goats and send one side to hell? Why would you make us recount our lives to you on the day of judgment when we have "accepted Christ?"
Obviously, that's not enough to you. You have lied when you said that it is only by grace that we are saved. Because we obviously need to have WORKS in order to prove that we are saved. Because what is faith without works? It's dead, you said.
So, I have asked over and over and over and over and over again if you can make me love people more. Because I hope that if I can love people more that I would do something to help them.. But I'm still the same. I'm still selfish, I'm still sluggish, and I'm still unloving.
And so, you're going to make me burn in Hell for eternity, because YOU didn't help me love people.
I cannot believe in such a hypocritical, judgmental, wrathful, unkind god.
My life was depressing with you. And still now when I try to live without you, you keep pestering and condemning me. STOP! Please..
Sometimes I wish I were never born to feel this pain and suffering.





If you're only going to post things like "Oh, but God loves you!"
Don't bother.

 

[Criada]

You know, there was an old song - by Don Fransisco I think - which said 'love is not a feeling, it's an act of the will'.
We can ask God to give us His love for the lost, the sick etc - but it isn't a case of feeling warm fuzzies, it's a case of acting. The feelings sometimes come later... and sometimes don't.
Jesus said that we should comfort the widow and orphan, visit the prisoner, feed the hungry, preach the gospel to the lost. Those are all things we can do whatever our 'feelings' are. Real love is getting on and doing it.
I'm not saying it's wrong to ask God to help us love, but we need to act as well.

(And yes, He does love you!)

 

[imbadatmakingusernames]

Yup, the Bible contradicts itself multiple times and has probably been mistranslated even more times. I don't know what to believe, so I just became an atheist/agnostic.

 

[HeSaveDave]

God sending people to hell is just giving people what they want. If you choose the world and a life without God, then that's what you'll get. If you've seen Christ then you've seen perfection and if you're "saved" then you've been regenerated. If Christ is your Savior then do not give up. You know how precious He is. Don't forget we have an enemy who loves to get you confused, alone, anxious, etc. There are actual answers to all the questions you asked. Talk to a pastor. Talk to another pastor. Or do what satan wants and give up. Your choice.

As to the bible contradicting itself, that's just wrong. If that's what you think then you simply don't understand it. Early in my Christian life I thought the same thing. Only after intense study and seeking knowledge with all my mind and heart did I finally begin to understand that scripture is deeper than I could have ever imagined. Even people who think they've studied the bible can't imagine how deep it gets.

 

[imbadatmakingusernames]

It was the verses of homosexuality that changed me. Why would someone who claims to be merciful, perfect, etc. send someone to Hell for something they had no control over? Maybe once someone explains this to me I might me convinced and follow Christianity.

The Bible clearly says Homosexuals will not go to Heaven.
I can't help that I'm a Homosexual, I have no control over it.
Someone please explain.

 

[singpeace]

Will I die today?
What will happen if I die? Does God really love me as he says? Or is he this wrathful, judging god who is condemning? If so, why did he make me? Just so that I would die forever in hell?
Why don't you make me love people more? I figure that if I could love people more, I would actually do something. That I would actually stop wasting my life away and do what really matters: loving people, caring for people, helping the poor, the broken, the lost, the abandoned.
Why God? Why am I still the same? Why do I not anguish over the lost? Why don't I care? I keep asking and asking and praying and praying, but you're never there. You never gave me this love for people. Therefore, I'm going to burn in hell, because I never did anything in my life. You say that you're all about love and you're all about people coming as they are. But all I ever feel is condemnation and hatred and rejection. You say that whoever confesses Jesus is Lord will have eternal life. I have done that countless of times, but why don't I feel any different? Why do I still make the same mistakes? You say that it's not about works or good deeds, but it obviously is. Or else, why would Jesus divide the sheep and the goats and send one side to hell? Why would you make us recount our lives to you on the day of judgment when we have "accepted Christ?"
Obviously, that's not enough to you. You have lied when you said that it is only by grace that we are saved. Because we obviously need to have WORKS in order to prove that we are saved. Because what is faith without works? It's dead, you said.
So, I have asked over and over and over and over and over again if you can make me love people more. Because I hope that if I can love people more that I would do something to help them.. But I'm still the same. I'm still selfish, I'm still sluggish, and I'm still unloving.
And so, you're going to make me burn in Hell for eternity, because YOU didn't help me love people.
I cannot believe in such a hypocritical, judgmental, wrathful, unkind god.
My life was depressing with you. And still now when I try to live without you, you keep pestering and condemning me. STOP! Please..
Sometimes I wish I were never born to feel this pain and suffering.





If you're only going to post things like "Oh, but God loves you!"
Don't bother.

My Child Matthew,

You may not understand me,
but I know everything about you.
Psalm 139:1

I know when you sit down and when you rise up.
Psalm 139:2

I am familiar with all your ways.
Psalm 139:3

Even the very hairs on your head are numbered.
Matthew 10:29-31

For you were made in my image.
Genesis 1:27

In me you live and move and have your being.
Acts 17:28

For you are my offspring.
Acts 17:28

I knew you even before you were conceived.
Jeremiah 1:4-5

I chose you when I planned creation.
Ephesians 1:11-12

You were not a mistake,
for all your days are written in my book.
Psalm 139:15-16

I determined the exact time of your birth
and where you would live.
Acts 17:26

You are fearfully and wonderfully made.
Psalm 139:14

I knit you together in your mother's womb.
Psalm 139:13

And brought you forth on the day you were born.
Psalm 71:6

I have been misrepresented
by those who don't know me.
John 8:41-44

I am not distant and angry,
but am the complete expression of love.
1 John 4:16

And it is my desire to lavish my love on you.
1 John 3:1

Simply because you are my child
and I am your Father.
1 John 3:1

I offer you more than your earthly father ever could.
Matthew 7:11

For I am the perfect father.
Matthew 5:48

Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand.
James 1:17

For I am your provider and I meet all your needs.
Matthew 6:31-33

My plan for your future has always been filled with hope.
Jeremiah 29:11

Because I love you with an everlasting love.
Jeremiah 31:3

My thoughts toward you are countless
as the sand on the seashore.
Psalms 139:17-18

And I rejoice over you with singing.
Zephaniah 3:17

I will never stop doing good to you.
Jeremiah 32:40

For you are my treasured possession.
Exodus 19:5

I desire to establish you
with all my heart and all my soul.
Jeremiah 32:41

And I want to show you great and marvelous things.
Jeremiah 33:3

If you seek me with all your heart,
you will find me.
Deuteronomy 4:29

Delight in me and I will give you
the desires of your heart.
Psalm 37:4

For it is I who gave you those desires.
Philippians 2:13

I am able to do more for you
than you could possibly imagine.
Ephesians 3:20

For I am your greatest encourager.
2 Thessalonians 2:16-17

I am also the Father who comforts you
in all your troubles.
2 Corinthians 1:3-4

When you are brokenhearted,
I am close to you.
Psalm 34:18

As a shepherd carries a lamb,
I have carried you close to my heart.
Isaiah 40:11

One day I will wipe away
every tear from your eyes.
Revelation 21:3-4

And I'll take away all the pain
you have suffered on this earth.
Revelation 21:3-4

I am your Father, and I love you
even as I love my son, Jesus.
John 17:23

For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed.
John 17:26

He is the exact representation of my being.
Hebrews 1:3

He came to demonstrate that I am for you,
not against you.
Romans 8:31

And to tell you that I am not counting your sins.
2 Corinthians 5:18-19

Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled.
2 Corinthians 5:18-19

His death was the ultimate expression
of my love for you.
1 John 4:10

I gave up everything I loved
that I might gain your love.
Romans 8:31-32

If you receive the gift of my son Jesus,
you receive me.
1 John 2:23

And nothing will ever separate you
from my love again.
Romans 8:38-39

Come home and I'll throw the biggest party
heaven has ever seen.
Luke 15:7

I have always been Father,
and will always be Father.
Ephesians 3:14-15

My question is…
Will you be my child?
John 1:12-13

I am waiting for you.
Luke 15:11-32

Love, Your Dad
Almighty God​

 

[miss-a]

Will I die today?
What will happen if I die? Does God really love me as he says? Or is he this wrathful, judging god who is condemning? If so, why did he make me? Just so that I would die forever in hell?
Why don't you make me love people more? I figure that if I could love people more, I would actually do something. That I would actually stop wasting my life away and do what really matters: loving people, caring for people, helping the poor, the broken, the lost, the abandoned.
Why God? Why am I still the same? Why do I not anguish over the lost? Why don't I care? I keep asking and asking and praying and praying, but you're never there. You never gave me this love for people. Therefore, I'm going to burn in hell, because I never did anything in my life. You say that you're all about love and you're all about people coming as they are. But all I ever feel is condemnation and hatred and rejection. You say that whoever confesses Jesus is Lord will have eternal life. I have done that countless of times, but why don't I feel any different? Why do I still make the same mistakes? You say that it's not about works or good deeds, but it obviously is. Or else, why would Jesus divide the sheep and the goats and send one side to hell? Why would you make us recount our lives to you on the day of judgment when we have "accepted Christ?"
Obviously, that's not enough to you. You have lied when you said that it is only by grace that we are saved. Because we obviously need to have WORKS in order to prove that we are saved. Because what is faith without works? It's dead, you said.
So, I have asked over and over and over and over and over again if you can make me love people more. Because I hope that if I can love people more that I would do something to help them.. But I'm still the same. I'm still selfish, I'm still sluggish, and I'm still unloving.
And so, you're going to make me burn in Hell for eternity, because YOU didn't help me love people.
I cannot believe in such a hypocritical, judgmental, wrathful, unkind god.
My life was depressing with you. And still now when I try to live without you, you keep pestering and condemning me. STOP! Please..
Sometimes I wish I were never born to feel this pain and suffering.





If you're only going to post things like "Oh, but God loves you!"
Don't bother.

Dear one,

I am sorry that you are having such a time with this. Honestly, I think you have posted on the right forum, because it sounds to me like depression has your mind going in very painful circles. I remember when I was severely depressed it made it so difficult to hear God, and surprisingly easy to hear the enemy, so hard to remember God's truth, and so easy to repeat the devil's lies. Please do consider seeing a doctor and getting some recommendations on how to quell the depression. I had to be on meds for a while. It was one of the best things I ever did. In time, I could sift through the throughts and come back to the truth of God's love. You can do this too. But if your brain chemicals are working against you it makes it extremely difficult.

As for the sheep and the goats, someone has taught you wrongly. The thing we do that causes the separation is to make a decision about Jesus. Sheep are those who decided to belong to Him. Goats shunned the offer. In both this and the quote from James the works referred to are a result of being saved by grace through faith, not a means of being saved. It's saying that when we are saved there will--at some point--be evidence of that in how we act. BUT that point will not likely be for any of us during a period of time when we are severely depressed. It certainly was not for me, and I'll bet others here can attest to that.

I so hope that helps, and please do see a doc.

Blessings and prayers,
a

 

[miss-a]

Oh, and also, MatthewHNguyen,

It is VERY common when suffering from depression to not care about others. When serotonin is low the neurotransmissions that register the feeling of caring for others is compromised.

If this makes any sense, actually the fact that you care that you don't care is evidence that you do care. But with neurotransmitter problems due to possible low serotonin levels it feels to you as if you don't care.

 

[knw1991]

Will I die today?
What will happen if I die? Does God really love me as he says? Or is he this wrathful, judging god who is condemning? If so, why did he make me? Just so that I would die forever in hell?
Why don't you make me love people more? I figure that if I could love people more, I would actually do something. That I would actually stop wasting my life away and do what really matters: loving people, caring for people, helping the poor, the broken, the lost, the abandoned.
Why God? Why am I still the same? Why do I not anguish over the lost? Why don't I care? I keep asking and asking and praying and praying, but you're never there. You never gave me this love for people. Therefore, I'm going to burn in hell, because I never did anything in my life. You say that you're all about love and you're all about people coming as they are. But all I ever feel is condemnation and hatred and rejection. You say that whoever confesses Jesus is Lord will have eternal life. I have done that countless of times, but why don't I feel any different? Why do I still make the same mistakes? You say that it's not about works or good deeds, but it obviously is. Or else, why would Jesus divide the sheep and the goats and send one side to hell? Why would you make us recount our lives to you on the day of judgment when we have "accepted Christ?"
Obviously, that's not enough to you. You have lied when you said that it is only by grace that we are saved. Because we obviously need to have WORKS in order to prove that we are saved. Because what is faith without works? It's dead, you said.
So, I have asked over and over and over and over and over again if you can make me love people more. Because I hope that if I can love people more that I would do something to help them.. But I'm still the same. I'm still selfish, I'm still sluggish, and I'm still unloving.
And so, you're going to make me burn in Hell for eternity, because YOU didn't help me love people.
I cannot believe in such a hypocritical, judgmental, wrathful, unkind god.
My life was depressing with you. And still now when I try to live without you, you keep pestering and condemning me. STOP! Please..
Sometimes I wish I were never born to feel this pain and suffering.





If you're only going to post things like "Oh, but God loves you!"
Don't bother.

This is exactly how i felt 2 years ago. i still feel the same way. i'll be praying for you. the devil is condemning you and making you think God feels this way about you. it hurts i know it does.

 

[Noxot]

if God does not love us then who cares what God does with us. all is lost without love. might as well burn in hell if we can't taste the love of God. God is so hard to grasp, nothing makes sense because the light is so bright that it makes everything look like darkness but our expected end is God for he is our beginning.