[please read this post in its entirety and the prayer at the end, please]
Hi everyone.
I desperate for advice, God just will not answer my prayers. Here is the thing. I only have one friend (she has been my friend for over 15 years). No family (they turned on me when I was homeless). I have no job (the social services of the state is trying to help me with that cause of my disability). I have a major phobia of driving, I live in a rural unsafe neighborhood.
The only thing that I have is you guys here on the net (I thank GOD for every one of you guys everyday).
Here is the problem, my only friend and I used to be really close best friend until over a year ago. See she has this obsession (not a little crush but a major obsession) over a hollywood actor and it is doing nothing but growing. I used to think that he was attractive that was all until I found things out about him.
I shared this with her and it did nothing but caused us to argue. Well I started to just not say a word, but she kept on and on and on repeating herself until I answered her about this actor, and until I agreed with her. So I had to chose my answer WISELY either I tell the truth about how I feel about him and this only friend of mine will let me have it (yell at me for hours and say that I dont really feel that way when I do) OR I go along with her. So I chose to go along with her for a while. Then that lie just ate me up more and more. Why cause I dont like this actor he is not real to me, I want a real guy a guy who I can marry. I tried to open up to her about it. She just denies it and mopes around me (seeing how I have depression and I am stuck at home all day it does not help matters). She ignores me or acts fake and talks about superficial stuff. She acts bored around me when I am not talking GOOD about this actor ALL THE TIME (she is in her 30s like me).
All of this has been going on for sometime now. Her life is that actor, no kidding it is getting so bad that she will even pick out cloud shapes that has to do with him. She will not talk to a doctor about it, and she is in utter denial. The devil has her eating out of his hand, yes she is a Christian but sinking more and more into this world of this hollywood actor.
I cant take much more of it, I REALLY CAN"T. Bottom line she will ONLY like me and have fun around me IF I talk all-good about that actor and act as if I like him like she likes him.
When I pour my heart out she denies it and then tells me how she sees how I feel and it is not true. SHE WILL NOT LISTEN. I am to the point about taking my life, not kidding here, I cant take it, I have tried everything from dont let her get to me, going along with her. I HAVE NOTHING! It is so bad that when she comes home from work I have to lock the door to my room that I have been in all day.
She is the only mode of transpiration for me too. The Churches around here are not that warm any either.
I can not take much more of this. WHY IS GOD DOING THIS TO ME, I have begged him with all my heart and soul to help me from this, but He will not budge. I have been begging God about this for over a year now. I have tried everything.
I need your advice, PLEASE, I dont need tough love, I NEED KIND advice. Someone help me PLEASE, I am begging you, cant God speak through you all, someone PLEASE I need your help. I have no one out there but her and she is not really "there" anymore cause of this actor.
BOTTOM LINE I feel like a trapped bird in a very itty bitty tiny cage, I NEED GOD TO HELP ME cause I hate this "trapped feeling".
Please I am only seeking KIND, repeat KIND advice, I am so upset and very sensitive.
Thank you in advance, with all my heart. God bless you all.
(((((((((((((((BIG HUGS))))))))))))))))))))))
Jesus,
If you cant hear my cry or I am not listening to you correctly about this matter with my one and only friend could you please speak through someone, anyone here to show me the way out of this "cage" that I am trapped in, I NEED YOU JESUS you have helped me with A LOT of other things PLEASE help me though this. Somehow, please I am at the end here I cant see the light at the end of the tunnel with my only friend. JESUS HELP ME PLEASE, I WANT TO BE FREE. Someone anyone here on this site, Jesus speak through them PLEASE LORD. YOU are the only one who can help with this. PLEASE.
IN Your loving precious name I pray,
Amen
Hi everyone.
I desperate for advice, God just will not answer my prayers. Here is the thing. I only have one friend (she has been my friend for over 15 years). No family (they turned on me when I was homeless). I have no job (the social services of the state is trying to help me with that cause of my disability). I have a major phobia of driving, I live in a rural unsafe neighborhood.
The only thing that I have is you guys here on the net (I thank GOD for every one of you guys everyday).
Here is the problem, my only friend and I used to be really close best friend until over a year ago. See she has this obsession (not a little crush but a major obsession) over a hollywood actor and it is doing nothing but growing. I used to think that he was attractive that was all until I found things out about him.
I shared this with her and it did nothing but caused us to argue. Well I started to just not say a word, but she kept on and on and on repeating herself until I answered her about this actor, and until I agreed with her. So I had to chose my answer WISELY either I tell the truth about how I feel about him and this only friend of mine will let me have it (yell at me for hours and say that I dont really feel that way when I do) OR I go along with her. So I chose to go along with her for a while. Then that lie just ate me up more and more. Why cause I dont like this actor he is not real to me, I want a real guy a guy who I can marry. I tried to open up to her about it. She just denies it and mopes around me (seeing how I have depression and I am stuck at home all day it does not help matters). She ignores me or acts fake and talks about superficial stuff. She acts bored around me when I am not talking GOOD about this actor ALL THE TIME (she is in her 30s like me).
All of this has been going on for sometime now. Her life is that actor, no kidding it is getting so bad that she will even pick out cloud shapes that has to do with him. She will not talk to a doctor about it, and she is in utter denial. The devil has her eating out of his hand, yes she is a Christian but sinking more and more into this world of this hollywood actor.
I cant take much more of it, I REALLY CAN"T. Bottom line she will ONLY like me and have fun around me IF I talk all-good about that actor and act as if I like him like she likes him.
When I pour my heart out she denies it and then tells me how she sees how I feel and it is not true. SHE WILL NOT LISTEN. I am to the point about taking my life, not kidding here, I cant take it, I have tried everything from dont let her get to me, going along with her. I HAVE NOTHING! It is so bad that when she comes home from work I have to lock the door to my room that I have been in all day.
She is the only mode of transpiration for me too. The Churches around here are not that warm any either.
I can not take much more of this. WHY IS GOD DOING THIS TO ME, I have begged him with all my heart and soul to help me from this, but He will not budge. I have been begging God about this for over a year now. I have tried everything.
I need your advice, PLEASE, I dont need tough love, I NEED KIND advice. Someone help me PLEASE, I am begging you, cant God speak through you all, someone PLEASE I need your help. I have no one out there but her and she is not really "there" anymore cause of this actor.
BOTTOM LINE I feel like a trapped bird in a very itty bitty tiny cage, I NEED GOD TO HELP ME cause I hate this "trapped feeling".
Please I am only seeking KIND, repeat KIND advice, I am so upset and very sensitive.
Thank you in advance, with all my heart. God bless you all.
(((((((((((((((BIG HUGS))))))))))))))))))))))

If you cant hear my cry or I am not listening to you correctly about this matter with my one and only friend could you please speak through someone, anyone here to show me the way out of this "cage" that I am trapped in, I NEED YOU JESUS you have helped me with A LOT of other things PLEASE help me though this. Somehow, please I am at the end here I cant see the light at the end of the tunnel with my only friend. JESUS HELP ME PLEASE, I WANT TO BE FREE. Someone anyone here on this site, Jesus speak through them PLEASE LORD. YOU are the only one who can help with this. PLEASE.
IN Your loving precious name I pray,
Amen
