Why arent I strong enough?

[raz!]

I'm gay and I've been with my girlfriend for over two years and we are engaged. We live together and have worked very hard to get the life we have made together.

However, now my relationship with Christ is getting deeper I feel I need to turn my back on being gay and the gay lifestyle, but I'm not strong enough.

I love Christ and my partner knows I would choose Christ over anything or anyone, but she is also terrified that I am going to leave her and I can't bring myself to end it.

It's easy enough for people to say that if I love God its an easy choice, but its not!

I can't just say ''yeh..the bible says its wrong...see ya...''

what about our marriage?
what about our future plans?
what about our home?
what about everything we have together?
what about our past?
what about being in love?


Please dont attack me and throw bible verses at me. I know what the bible says. I would love it if someone in a similar situation to me could PM me please?

I really need someone to talk to.

 

[Criada]

It isn't easy, and there isn't really anything I or anyone else can say to make it easier.
Hurting someone you love is a horrible thing to feel you have to do. Ultimately it will be for her good as well as yours, but she is not going to see that now, and it is little comfort to you.
The only advice I can give is, if you are going to make the break, do it as quickly as possible.. the longer you vacilate the harder it will be for both of you.

Praying for you both, and here if you want to talk... I've been in a similar situation, though it was easier for me as we weren't living together and the relationship hadn't been going for as long as yours appears to have been. Still hurt like heck though... but now, although the pain is still there, I am glad I stuck with what God wanted.

 

[stickin2thword]

I can't help you with any practical advice or with personal experiences as I have no idea of what you are going through or how hard this must be for you .... I will pray that the right person comes in here and has the courage to share with you ... Just starting a thread demonstrates your loyalty to God and your willingness to find peace with this issue .... Be blessed

 

[Johnnz]

To lose any meaningful friend is always very painful. Part of us feels pained and incomplete. As a Christian we are committed to doing what we know is right, which also means the best for us. The best is not always that obvious immediately either.

Bless you for making the right choice.

John
NZ

 

[Lucis]

I just said a prayer for you. I am not going to tell any bible verses to attack you, but I will tell that the bible say that whatever we leave behind in this world for His sake, it will be given back to us in multitude, not only in heaven (when we finally get there), but also in this life. God knows our hearts, He has called us not to live with a heavy heart, but to a abundant life. He has promised that if we seek Him and His kingdom, then all the other things we need shall be given to us. God bless you.

 

[inhopes]

i am also going through the same thing, i just have no clue what to do i wish someone can help me/us

 

[myanchor]

I've been praying for Criada as she deals with her struggles. I'll add Raz and inhopes. I don't understand why you are the way you are, but I know that the Lord will bless you as you work through this.

A former pastor of mine who was indulging himself with guys in unsafe ways, and he was married with children, still was struggling the last time I talked with him before we moved here. He lead a study on sexual addictions. I wasn't one at the time but later fell into it. He believes it to be a part of sexual addictions. I dunno. I do know that a couple of the guys in the group had been abused as children, one by his dad.

And ladies I really can't blame you for thinking girls are better looking, smell better, are more interesting mentally, have nicer voices and the like. I share that feeling.

May the Lord Bless you and keep you safe in Him.

 

[yippieforskippee]

i recently got out of a relationship similar to yours. lived with a girl for 2 years and were making all the plans for our future too. it is extremely difficult especially when you genuinely care about them, love them, and want their best interest in the situation too. if you want to talk more about it at all you can email me. praying for you.