WHy are we wasting our time

[Lottedah]

Why are we wasting our time fighting over stupid issues and picking fights and ending fights and keeping fights going and always picking and belittling and being at each others throats when we have one common goal (I assume)
And that is to glorify jesus.. and teach people and heal people and pray for peoples needs and fix their brokeness.. and so on?

hmm? Because I am reading some of these arguments and they are making me sick.. I know all of us have our little secret struggles and sins.. lets start getting dirty and ugly on here and baring the truth so we can be what God ordained us to be-a healing support network.

 

[Lottedah]

Okay I will start.

I am a recovering bulimic. I went into recovery my junior yr of HS and didnt gain weight when I started eating.. because I was an anorexic bulimic which means you NEVER eat and if you did then you had to "get rid of it"
I was fully recovered when I moved out and was eating normally with no ill effects.. my body is fine in that respect but oddly enough I gained alot of weight that summer with a balanced diet of salads and diet cokes. This is seven months after my full recovery.

And when I look in the mirror I cry and I want to hurt myself for the mess my body is in.. I dont recognize myself and God doesnt answer me on it. And no diets, meds, exercise works. I have been through MAJOR deliverance of self hatred but it seems to be the little demon that pulls at me the most.
Anyone else ever go through this or something else?
cmon people lets start praying for one anothers healings and mean it and dedicate ourselves to a cause.

I am at a loss.. I have gotten prophecies "forget about your healing and it will happen" so I let loose and trusted God and nothing happened.. other say "god says take vitamins and it will happen" still nothing.. hey if any of you feel a burden to pray for me and tell me the truth of whats going on I would lOVE to know.. Oh and dont give me a false prophecy and say its unforgivenes.. I have been doing SO much forgiving my head hurts.
I want victory over whats wrong with me.. to be a normal weight any way possible and the bulimia and little nagging demons to leave me alone.
Alittle help?

 

[mle]

Lotteda

I appreciate your honesty and have compassion for your need.
Oh Lord God, our dear heavenly Father. We praise you and thank you for what you are doing in Lotteda's life. Lord you have brought her this far and what a mirracle you have done in her already! I pray that you Lord, would continue the good work you have started.
Lord, give Lotteda the peace that passes all understanding. Lord I pray she would fix her eyes on Jesus and not be moved by what she sees. Open the eyes of her understanding Lord that she would see what you are doing.
In the mighty name of Jesus
Amen

 

[secretdawn]

what are you asking for...do you want people to tell their needs and weaknesses?

 

[Lottedah]

Their sickness and whatever they need prayer for that they wouldnt be likely to say otherwise
Im tired of seeing the superficial on here and the arguments.. Gods telling me to be honest so I am.. and honesty is U-G-L-Y
Be ugly people.. and thanks for the prayers

 

[look]

James 5:16. Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much.

This thread is the right thing to do...

 

[secretdawn]

ok...here you go...i was a tramp...i slept around, got pregnant, engaged (4 years), had a baby, got saved, the guy and i didn't work out, i moved out, got scared, got drunk, slept with one guy, messed around with another...i can't seem to keep my grasp on God...i know my sleeping around days are over...i know they are, but everytime i get a little closer to God, I fall back...(two steps forward one step back)...i keep trying, then doubting then trying...i am stronger in my faith then ever, but i need guts...i need guts to stand against the world and my friends, and to bring my friend back to the faith with me...

 

[Lottedah]

Lord please give her major confidence and a stronghold in you.. I break all soul ties off of her that arent pleasingto you now in jesus name

See thats awesome.. I was a tramp too sweet.. I did a play I stripped in at sixteen..moved out to act.. started messing around with the idea of stripping for money.and suddenly lost my figure. I know God allowed it to keep me out of trouble and I thank him and praise him but Im like Lord whens the time up or whatever.have mercy help me..

We all struggle with our faith and looking to God as our rock..we all have secret bondages and thats why Im suggesting getting ugly... its time to be honest and heal each other because thats why we are here.

I would be HONORED if I could talk to you on yahoo or aim or email and pray with you and be a strength to you and get support from you.

Thats what I am aiming for with this post.. total ugly honesty, the kind of tears where snot mixes with it and u look like u were beaten up.. because when you expose the darknesses God can heal.

I was an unattainable "tramp" for the longest time.. like I controlled people with my looks and body-guys and girls.. I didnt have a lesbian spirit but I sure could run em.. Im not proud of it and I want the Lord to keep giving me humility.. I am totally ashamed of it and I want to be completely free of my pasts.. but I reaped what I sowed.

Thankyou Lord for people bravely coming forth..lets all just dump our guts out and pray and let God heal ok? If you feel its too ugly but you want help.. I dont judge past or present and im here
hugs!!!!!!!

 

[Lottedah]

LordI also ask for you to break any curses of fornication off those of us who came to you in repentence now in jesus name I break all and any generational curses off those who need to be freed..Go.. and I pray as we expose these strongholds and darknesses God that you set us free and deliver us through our prayers for each others healings and through your mercy..touch us all..we're greedy for more of you give us heavy anointings and peace.

oooh this is awesome!!!

 

[SpiritPsalmist]

I hate to sound like a goody-two-shoes but I don't struggle with any of that stuff. I"ve been saved and filled with the Holy Ghost since I was little. Homelife was far from Christian though, but I clung to the Lord with all I had in me. I never got into the drugs and promiscuity that many of my friends did.

I do struggle though, with weight. But I'm not bulimic or anarexec (obviously). I struggle way to much with financial issues and allowing the worry to overcome me sometimes. I struggle with feelings of not being wanted or liked or loved. God has done a lot in my life but those are the few things that I'm still learning to overcome.

 

[enoch son]

Here one. I have had preacher tell me that I can not speak in this church because I'm to anointed. If that not from the pit was is.

 

[SpiritPsalmist]

Here one. I have had preacher tell me that I can not speak in this church because I'm to anointed. If that not from the pit was is.

Meaning the people could not handle the way the Lord uses you????

 

[enoch son]

For some reason I think it's more like there ego. I think alot of pastor forget who the great shepherd is. I had a ministry tell me you can not speak because people would get heal and saved then you will leave and well have new believer up to the roof and it would be a mess! I give up!

 

[Lottedah]

Lord please help Quaffer see we respect her and love her and that im sure her family and friends with her love her too and I thank you she was a goody two shoes and was strong in you through her turmoils

Lord please put enochs son wherever he needs to be in whatever position you desire.. I find enochs son that some ministers let their ego govern them

About three months into my ministry I heard my dad was cursing me.. haha so I wrote him a letter rebuking him and telling him what I saw on him and I prayed and hoped he would reread his bible and all his fabulous ministry books I have learend so much from=-want to know his response. "I have been ordained twenty yrs and she has been called to it three months.. she doesnt know ANYTHING and she needs to shutup before she gets lepresy like the chick who complained about moses. He was literally warning my husband.. if I ever stuck up for myself ever again to him he was going to pray for leprosy on me.. well I warned him what I saw.. I saw diabetes and something hurting his kidneys or liver i dont remember.. now he is dealing with the health problems i warned him about.. so do not worry enochs son ... God knows who he calls to what.. I tried to tell my father with respect though the letter was hurtful to him it wasnt meant to be

Lord please help us all to trust you and knit us together as a support system.

 

[secretdawn]

Lord please give her major confidence and a stronghold in you.. I break all soul ties off of her that arent pleasingto you now in jesus name

See thats awesome.. I was a tramp too sweet.. I did a play I stripped in at sixteen..moved out to act.. started messing around with the idea of stripping for money.and suddenly lost my figure. I know God allowed it to keep me out of trouble and I thank him and praise him but Im like Lord whens the time up or whatever.have mercy help me..

We all struggle with our faith and looking to God as our rock..we all have secret bondages and thats why Im suggesting getting ugly... its time to be honest and heal each other because thats why we are here.

I would be HONORED if I could talk to you on yahoo or aim or email and pray with you and be a strength to you and get support from you.

Thats what I am aiming for with this post.. total ugly honesty, the kind of tears where snot mixes with it and u look like u were beaten up.. because when you expose the darknesses God can heal.

I was an unattainable "tramp" for the longest time.. like I controlled people with my looks and body-guys and girls.. I didnt have a lesbian spirit but I sure could run em.. Im not proud of it and I want the Lord to keep giving me humility.. I am totally ashamed of it and I want to be completely free of my pasts.. but I reaped what I sowed.

Thankyou Lord for people bravely coming forth..lets all just dump our guts out and pray and let God heal ok? If you feel its too ugly but you want help.. I dont judge past or present and im here
hugs!!!!!!!

i think once we get past the sin we should turn it for good...use our experience to talk to others like we were...
i am writing a play about sexually active teen girls (i love the theatre, maybe one day i can open a christian drama troupe!) and why they do the things they do and the emotional and physical consenquences of it.
things like that you know?

 

[Big Mouth Nana]

Okay I will start.

I am a recovering bulimic. I went into recovery my junior yr of HS and didnt gain weight when I started eating.. because I was an anorexic bulimic which means you NEVER eat and if you did then you had to "get rid of it"
I was fully recovered when I moved out and was eating normally with no ill effects.. my body is fine in that respect but oddly enough I gained alot of weight that summer with a balanced diet of salads and diet cokes. This is seven months after my full recovery.

And when I look in the mirror I cry and I want to hurt myself for the mess my body is in.. I dont recognize myself and God doesnt answer me on it. And no diets, meds, exercise works. I have been through MAJOR deliverance of self hatred but it seems to be the little demon that pulls at me the most.
Anyone else ever go through this or something else?
cmon people lets start praying for one anothers healings and mean it and dedicate ourselves to a cause.

I am at a loss.. I have gotten prophecies "forget about your healing and it will happen" so I let loose and trusted God and nothing happened.. other say "god says take vitamins and it will happen" still nothing.. hey if any of you feel a burden to pray for me and tell me the truth of whats going on I would lOVE to know.. Oh and dont give me a false prophecy and say its unforgivenes.. I have been doing SO much forgiving my head hurts.
I want victory over whats wrong with me.. to be a normal weight any way possible and the bulimia and little nagging demons to leave me alone.
Alittle help?

I am a recovering bulimic.

Well, now I hear the rest of the story. Why didn't you tell me this in our PM's. I heard about the over-weight, and the wanting to cut yourself, why not the bulimia? If you can't be honest with me, are you being totally honest with God?
The impressions that I got from your posts are...#1. You are putting God on a timetable to heal you, you want it right now. #2. You have given up on God doing this for you. #3 You have no patience. #4. You are so desperate for this, that you take the word of anyone for the solution, instead of relaxing in God, and letting Him do what He has to do. What if He never does it for you lottedah? I am a firm believer in healing, but it is apparent that God doesn't heal everyone in this life. I have found that Christians with problems, actually are stronger in Spirit, even though they never give up on God manifesting their healings.
The bible states that we all will have trials and tribulations in our lives, and TESTS. It is the same thing as the Israelites wondering around in the desert for 40 years. The longer you complain, the longer you will stay in the test, and a person could die while taking the "examination". The only way that I can fathom God healing you, is LET IT GO!!!! Do what He has called you to do in the ministry by helping and praying for others.
I had high blood pressure for over 10 years. I tried every solution that I could think of to get healed. I had hands layed on me. I prayed for myself, confessed the Word, by His stripes I am healed, etc. I was an emotional basket case. One day while listening to a Christian music tape, the Holy Ghost spoke to me, and said to go to my parents house, and lay hands on them and pray. While driving over there, the Lord spoke to me again, and said, what do you want me to do for you? Without even having an answer, He put the answer on the inside of me Himself..I want to be healed of high blood pressure. I have been healed of it for the past 5 years. It is perfect. What I am getting at, you are concentrating on the problems to much. We don't keep looking and dwelling on the problems, but Jesus. Satan likes it where he has you right now, looking at your problems, instead of the problem solver .

 

[Lottedah]

It was totally inappropriate to be this judgemental for starters. And secondly I dont think about it much until I went to go barf the other day and I havent for three yrs.
It is not complaining and I dont appreciate being told its complaining and I give EVERYTHING for my ministry.. Its called hurting. Waiting three yrs for anything is patience lady.. but this summer I got a taste of paradise (ie my healing and it stopped and I want to know why because im a type A personality perfectionist-
I get enough grief for asking my dad to pray for my healing once. If it were ALWAYS on my mind I wouldnt be bothering to pray for anyone, or heal anyone or deliver anyone.. but actually out of my day of taking emails and phone calls from people in need I think about my issue maybe an hour out of each day.. I have spoken it.. I was "healed" this summer and I lost it.. why I dont know. I am sick of being told to focus on jesus by those who have no idea where Im focusing or HOW im praying OR WHO Im praying for.. and if im being selfish for requesting ONE thing out of the hours of the day im awake im ministering.. and yea i have ALOT of people I minister to and attend to.. then I guess im selfish.. I mention it because thank God its my only major burden but its always with me.. ALWAYS because I see it. If you had seen your issue.. literally sitting in front of you physically you would want to regain that healing you had too.
And I havent given up but there sure isnt ANY other blessing in my life either. And I dont bother God or complain about that.. there is no sin in asking.
I appreciate your candor and your experience but you cant sit and judge me for asking
Even God has the gentlemanliness about him not to do that.
Lastly
You strap a fifty lb bowling ball to your stomach that wont go away despite what you do and tell me you dont think about it ever? okay? then we will talk about letting go and relaxing. I am uncomfortable all the time.. its a constant irritation its not even about my appearance anymore.

 

[Big Mouth Nana]

It was totally inappropriate to be this judgemental for starters. And secondly I dont think about it much until I went to go barf the other day and I havent for three yrs.
It is not complaining and I dont appreciate being told its complaining and I give EVERYTHING for my ministry.. Its called hurting. Waiting three yrs for anything is patience lady.. but this summer I got a taste of paradise (ie my healing and it stopped and I want to know why because im a type A personality perfectionist-
I get enough grief for asking my dad to pray for my healing once. If it were ALWAYS on my mind I wouldnt be bothering to pray for anyone, or heal anyone or deliver anyone.. but actually out of my day of taking emails and phone calls from people in need I think about my issue maybe an hour out of each day.. I have spoken it.. I was "healed" this summer and I lost it.. why I dont know. I am sick of being told to focus on jesus by those who have no idea where Im focusing or HOW im praying OR WHO Im praying for.. and if im being selfish for requesting ONE thing out of the hours of the day im awake im ministering.. and yea i have ALOT of people I minister to and attend to.. then I guess im selfish.. I mention it because thank God its my only major burden but its always with me.. ALWAYS because I see it. If you had seen your issue.. literally sitting in front of you physically you would want to regain that healing you had too.
And I havent given up but there sure isnt ANY other blessing in my life either. And I dont bother God or complain about that.. there is no sin in asking.
I appreciate your candor and your experience but you cant sit and judge me for asking
Even God has the gentlemanliness about him not to do that.
Lastly
You strap a fifty lb bowling ball to your stomach that wont go away despite what you do and tell me you dont think about it ever? okay? then we will talk about letting go and relaxing. I am uncomfortable all the time.. its a constant irritation its not even about my appearance anymore.

Have you tried going to the doctor? God did create doctors you know?

 

[Big Mouth Nana]

Waiting three yrs for anything is patience lady..

By whos standards, yours or Gods?

I want to know why because im a type A personality perfectionist

Interesting. No one is perfect, so better give that one up.

If you had seen your issue.. literally sitting in front of you physically you would want to regain that healing you had too.

I did. Every morning when I took my blood pressure.

And I havent given up but there sure isnt ANY other blessing in my life either. And I dont bother God or complain about that.. there is no sin in asking.

You are transparent lottedah by this statement, and others. Are you alive and breathing? Is Jesus Christ your Lord?. I call these major blessings myself. Also, you need help with your attitude. I wasn't being judgemental, just what I see from your posts.

 

[enoch son]

In His Grace; God does not agree with you on perffection James 1-17.