Until my husband died, I couldn't understand how people get to the point of suicide. After he died, I wanted to die but mostly not to the point where I would have taken my life...I just wanted to stop living. I have zero doubt that living within God's presence can be anything less than perfect so I totally expect humanly death to be better than life.
As for suicide, I do understand how people get that low. If I didn't have my kids, there was a point where I might have considered it. I have had a "plan" though I don't know how close to implementing I have ever come. It would have been ruled an "accidental death" and it would have been successful. I am one of those people who most people would never even consider a suicide to a possibility.
I think that the trauma of my husband's death changed my brain chemistry forever....it doesn't take as much to knock me emotionally off-kilter. I don't know if it is just being alone or if there was some sort of permanent damage to how I experience life now. It is but by the grace of God ... literally ... that I face each day. I'd like to think that I wouldn't ever take my life, but I do know that can get emotionally so sad that the thought does shadow me from time to time.
It is important that people watch whom they reign hell & brimstone on. People like Dan thought he deserved hell and was unlovable to even God. "Repenting" isn't an option if you don't feel that you are worthy of anything good. Reminding people of their failures just solidifies these people's self image of having no value...here or anywhere.
As for suicide, I do understand how people get that low. If I didn't have my kids, there was a point where I might have considered it. I have had a "plan" though I don't know how close to implementing I have ever come. It would have been ruled an "accidental death" and it would have been successful. I am one of those people who most people would never even consider a suicide to a possibility.
I think that the trauma of my husband's death changed my brain chemistry forever....it doesn't take as much to knock me emotionally off-kilter. I don't know if it is just being alone or if there was some sort of permanent damage to how I experience life now. It is but by the grace of God ... literally ... that I face each day. I'd like to think that I wouldn't ever take my life, but I do know that can get emotionally so sad that the thought does shadow me from time to time.
It is important that people watch whom they reign hell & brimstone on. People like Dan thought he deserved hell and was unlovable to even God. "Repenting" isn't an option if you don't feel that you are worthy of anything good. Reminding people of their failures just solidifies these people's self image of having no value...here or anywhere.
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