Yup. I was one of those gays for a long time... turned away from my gay life...
Worst years of my life.... During those years, God was the furthest that He has ever been from my life
So, you have no longer turned away. You are actively homosexual?
Well...... what can we reason with, then?
There are straights that have their worse years of their life as they become isolated by God, so he can have them to Himself for a season of transformation. Its painful even for straights when God does that. But, its not a simple matter of abstinence. Its a matter of VIRTUE being erected in the soul of the believer, so that morality becomes a relaxed and peaceful matter. Not one of dispair and lonliness. That is, if one is finding Christ in their life, and not simply a life of moral legalism.
Romans 8:17 niv
Now if we are children, then we are heirs—heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory.
Philippians 1:29 niv
For it has been granted to you on behalf of Christ not only to believe on him, but also to suffer for him."
Hebrews 2:18 niv
Because he himself suffered when he was tempted, he is able to help those who are being tempted."
Those are just empty words to you?
Is it because you put your sin above the desire to please Christ?
Jesus Christ is less real to you than your sin is? ......
That is why believers reject God's plan for their lives. For what they desire in their flesh is more real to them than Christ.
Yet, for those who persevere? Who refuse to quit?
1 Peter 1:6-8 (New International Version)
"In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed. Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy."
If our faith is not genuine? Faith is what we believe concerning God's Word. If its false? We will not have what it takes to be made able by grace to break trough and overcome the demonic forces that wants to keep all believers down and ineffectual.
Many lose this battle because what they prefer over true faith is distortions which makes them feel good about themselves in their self image. All done in the name of Christ.
2 Timothy 4:3 (New International Version)
"For the time will come when men will not put up with sound doctrine. Instead, to suit their own desires, they will gather around them a great number of teachers to say what their itching ears want to hear."
Many will not put up with (endure) sound doctrine.
Just like those with a self righteous judgemental mind set will find a church that offers legalism to follow, as to give license to judge others who are not naturally strict like they are.
There will also be certain churches raised up to pamper homosexuals who refuse to accept the challenge God has offered them in Christ.
Jesus said, the way to destruction is "broad and wide."
Its not for just one group of like minded people!
For every wide and varied natural preference that is to be found and is manifested in natural man.... there will be somewhere out there, a denomination created in order to appeal to that natural preference. It will be broad and wide..... thousands of denominations.
Some Gays find churches that tell them its OK to be gay.
Legalists find churches that tell them its righteous to judge others and look down their noses when another may have a drink, dance, or practice mixed bathing.
Others, want to believe that God loves them simply because they volunteer to do nice things for others. Yet, they neglect the constant growth needed in the knowledge of the Word as to achieve maturity in Christ. For, "He is the Word."
Doing nice sacrificial things for others imputes no knowledge... nothing but a sweet and gentle sense of self approval, for being a nice altruistic soul by nature.
Well.... so be it. That's the way it will be for many.
Matthew 7:13-15 (New International Version)
"Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it. "Watch out for false prophets. They come to you in sheep's clothing, but inwardly they are ferocious wolves."