where is my mind!! need christian advice

[pedro90]

Hello Im Daniel and iv been experiencing somthing for almost a year now its a long story so let me start at the top.
bout a year ago i was eating dinner when i had a stomach spasm; me having had anxiety since i was young naturaly feared the worse and thought i was about to die, naturally i started praying, but i was so worried i even started worrying that if i do die if there really was God and heaven. What if im wrong? what if i believe the wrong things? after my mom calmed me down and even after my doctor confirmed it was nothing to be afraid of i guess the anxiety had triggerd sumthing.
after this was all over, over a period of a couple weeks i started to think and worry about many things concerning my beliefs. It literally went from me worrying about the end times, to me just having anixety over nothing!(but usally sumthing to do with death)
then about the week of thanksgiving i said "this is it i will no longer fear sumthing i cant stop and that as long as i have God in my life then i will not fear this." Well satan heard this as well, and as if by cue i started worrying about if there was really a God... again.I was afraid i might become a athiest. the day after i made this pledge i had a big panic attack which also caused more gastro intestinal problems and i went home. I was in a state of constant anxiety for about a week(the week of thanksgiving) until i got on the internet and found out about apologetics. and like magic my anxiety was gone.
However due to the fact that i think so critically all the time and have thousands of thoughts racing through my head i kept asking myself very very critical questions. and when i couldnt find the answer i got more doubt in my mind. it seems that because i think so much about everything when i find the answer to one perticular question, I have mental peace for a season untill i start wondering question that neither a christian nor athiest could ever answer.
I recently noticed that this way of thinking is not only in my faith but in other aspects of my life. example: i have studied martial arts for about 5 years and have grown to be pretty good. If i sparr(fight) with someone in practice i will have alot pride and belief in myself. but it will only last a while and then i will sometimes doubt my abillities as a fighter. Even though my abillities have proven themselves many times.
So i think that this is more of a problem with how i think and less of a problem with my biblical knowledge and facts, but im not sure. If anyone can shine some light on this mental battle i have been going through id really appreciate it i am tired of having constant doubt i just want a calm head.

 

[BlessEwe]

Welcome,

I feel what you are feeling is very normal, especially at the age of 17. We as christians have doubts, but how we deal with those doubts is important.
I tend to race ahead myself at times, and yes the panic can be overwhelming. So the key is to start our day turning our day over to God, putting on the armor of God and staying in today. Maybe do a online search on Staying in Today with God, and start your day with reading the scriptures they provide, and devotions. When you find yourself looking forward into tomarrow continue to remind yourself of what you read in the morning, and turn your worries over to God.
I lost both of my parents around your age, and when I had my firstborn baby, I freaked out with worry. I went up for prayer all of the time. but what it took was God touching my heart to trust Him. I still go there sometimes, but realize just how much time I wasted on the Never Happening.
Try reading more about the Disciples freaking out in the boat while Jesus slept during the storm. What you are feeling is very normal, you are searching for the truth of what you are feeling and God will show you.
Praying for You.
Perhaps post this in another section as well, like prayer request, ect.

 

[rainbojo]

pedro90. You are a very normal young man. Have you ever heard the saying, 'there is nothing to fear except fear itself?" There is a lot of info out there on panic attacks and such. Have you read, "Love is Letting Go of Fear" by Gerald Jambrosky (sp). Rainbojo

 

[pedro90]

but what about my questioner type mentality. Ill read sumthing insprirational and become happy and joyous and free of doubt. but it only last days to weeks then im bac to a state of doubt and unsure of myself. Is this normal? how do i get past this constant questioning?

 

[Ariel]

What I do is read my bible--I read until I get past the thoughts, the what ifs, etc..

The bible says, "Faith comes by hearing and hearing by the word of God," Romans 10:17. As I read, I am building my faith--and I am shutting out the voices of the world.

If I may suggest, a good place to start reading is in the book of John.