Where is everyone?

[dellinw]

There seems to be very few posting on this forum since it went offline for a few days. It will be a year for me June13th, Fathers Day is the 15th and DH birthday is the 16th, I wish I could just skip over the entire week. Please keep me in your prayers.
Helen

 

[JeanR]

It has been very quiet. I have to admit I had the forum bookmarked and didn't realize that the address had changed. It took a little while for me to figure that out.

Helen, I will keep you in my prayers. Father's day and birthdays are so hard. Terry's birthday is in July. It's hard to believe that Terry has been gone for 19 months. In the beginning it was like time had slowed down, but now it seems so long ago. The first year was so hard, but the second is hard, too--just in a different way. Reality and its impact is hard to handle.

My daughter is expecting a baby boy in September. This is our first grandchild. His name will be Jonathan Terence and we will call him JT. Terry would have been a wonderful grandfather. He had a genuine love for children. I miss him so much.

 

[dellinw]

Jean, thanks for the kind words, this grief is a work in progress, seems like it will never get easier. Congratulations on the grandbaby. You are in for the treat of your life. It is so sad Terry won't be here to share this moment with you. I believe that they are here is spirit and sharing with us somehow. I have 8 grands now, the youngest is 5, and they do keep me busy. No matter how busy, I still have this void in my life and I suppose it will always be here. I am trying to remember the good times and forget about the sick time. Its so strange but everyday or so, a good memory will just pop up. It will be a year for me next Friday, so I am dreading the whole week. I am giving it my all to start living in the "now" and looking to the future and not dwelling on the past. I am even praying that God will open my heart to "love again" . I know it will not be the same, but I am so tired of living alone. Please keep me in your prayers.
Helen