Where is everyone?

[JeanR]

It's been very quiet since the new year. Is everyone right?

Jean

 

[Missinyou]

That's what I've been wondering.... Where is everyone???

Almost lost it again tonight... Looking for stuff in our dresser and I ran across some stuff that reminded me of her. I've been doing pretty good the last few days though. No BIG break downs anyway. Still long to have someone to talk about the day at work, or something exciting that happened. I still catch myself, for a fleeting second, thinking that I can hardly wait to get home and tell Patsy about something. It's only for a split second though....and then reality sets in.

Missinyou

 

[JeanR]

I know what you mean. It is so hard coming home from work and he isn't there. We ate dinner together every night, and with our children grown, we were just us again. The other ache is sleeping alone. The bed is just so big and empty. I am having trouble sleeping and I know that is why. The other place I struggle with is our church. My church family is wonderful, but it is the building itself. Everywhere I am in church I can feel him and it hurts so bad.

We got through the holidays, though. My oldest daughter is struggling and has turned on us. She is bipolar and we have to wait until the cycle turns. Unfortunately, it is hard on the rest of us having to deal with our grief and then with Steph's behavior on top.

 

[Missinyou]

I know what you mean. It is so hard coming home from work and he isn't there. We ate dinner together every night, and with our children grown, we were just us again. The other ache is sleeping alone. The bed is just so big and empty. I am having trouble sleeping and I know that is why. The other place I struggle with is our church. My church family is wonderful, but it is the building itself. Everywhere I am in church I can feel him and it hurts so bad.

We got through the holidays, though. My oldest daughter is struggling and has turned on us. She is bipolar and we have to wait until the cycle turns. Unfortunately, it is hard on the rest of us having to deal with our grief and then with Steph's behavior on top.

JeanR,

I guess I was fortunate, if you want to call it that, but Patsy spent most of her sleeping time propped up on the couch because that was where she could breath the easiest. The year she spent in Seattle also prepared me for the time alone too, but then all I had to do was call her when I missed her, which was most of the time. This may seem funny but one of my problems is figuring out a way to only wash one side of the sheets on the bed... lol Thinking about just turning them around and trading pillows.... lol Only a man would come up with an idea like that... Of course I could just change sides of the bed...but after thirty years...I don't think that would work... Until a resolution...I just wash the whole set.

I think there will come a day when you will no longer look upon the feeling of him in church as a painful thing, but a feeling that he is there to give you comfort. To help you through each day. I know that it's only been a little over six months since I lost Patsy, but already I look at her picture, and instead of bursting into tears, I now find myself smiling over some old dumb thing we did, or just thinking about how much she loved this old, slightly overweight, bald, country boy...and wondering why. We did have some good times...and I really do miss her.

Enough of that.
God bless you and keep the chin up. Things will get better,
Missinyou

 

[ComesoonmyLORD]

Hang in there guys. What you're going through is all normal. It's part of the healing process. Just let God be the master potter and it'll all come together. Like you Missinyou, I've gotten to the point of when I see something or do something that reminds me of her, I smile. I too have wondered what she ever saw in this simple man, but whatever it was I'm glad she did. She strengthens me always now, she will always be there. I must admit that I'm glad I'm where am at today. With Christmas, the new year, the new job, etc. life has been a little stressful, but I feel I'm in a new era now and things are going good, praise be to Him! Keep the faith guys, we must always press on to the goal!

 

[Missinyou]

Hang in there guys. What you're going through is all normal. It's part of the healing process. Just let God be the master potter and it'll all come together. Like you Missinyou, I've gotten to the point of when I see something or do something that reminds me of her, I smile. I too have wondered what she ever saw in this simple man, but whatever it was I'm glad she did. She strengthens me always now, she will always be there. I must admit that I'm glad I'm where am at today. With Christmas, the new year, the new job, etc. life has been a little stressful, but I feel I'm in a new era now and things are going good, praise be to Him! Keep the faith guys, we must always press on to the goal!

How is the new job coming along...? Ready for a promotion yet??

 

[JeanR]

It's gotten pretty quiet. Is everyone ok?

 

[cajunhillbilly]

hello everyone. It has been awhile since I posted here. I still have issues with missing my Christy. She passed on in Nov, 2005. Even now I will think how much I want to share with her before the reality hits that she is not there. I will see a book by one of her favorite authiors and I think I should get it for her. It is hard even after a year or more.

 

[ContentInHim]

I'm OK!

Just being quiet for a change!

 

[Redemptionsong]

I've got a new job in Charlotte (My hometown) as a shipping and recieving clerk. We're moving to a small town north of Charlotte this weekend. The woman is charging me 250.00 a month rent. I've not been online much, due to all the running around.

 

[ComesoonmyLORD]

Everythings going very well with us. I know I haven't posted in awhile. I guess I've been very content with getting on my life. I've found a beautiful young lady that has become a huge part of our lives. In fact, we are getting married this Friday. She has been such a great source of strength. The kids and I haven't been this happy in a long long time.
I'll try and catch up with you guys more and get connected back to the family. Press On!

 

[Missinyou]

I am very happy for you ComesoonmyLord. I pray the Lord has many happy years together planned for you two. You were always such an inspiration on CF and I know your words gave support and comfort to many, myself included. I am going into my ninth month and doing much better. Just got through her birthday on the third of this month.. It was hard, but we made it.
Good luck and may the Lord guide and protect you always.
Missinyou

 

[cajunhillbilly]

Congrats. Now I hope God leads a nice lady my way. It has been so lonely without Christy

 

[ComesoonmyLORD]

Thanks guys. My children and I are really enjoying bright sunshine these days. One thing I've learned is this, God is good, all the time. My new wife and I felt from very early on that we were meant for each other, that our paths crossed as God's will. She is unbelievably supportive of my children and has the utmost respect for Ginger. All the things that I felt would make her uncomfortable, she has never flinched. She has constantly lifted me up and has been a glorious inspiration.
You know you guys have become my extended family. I love you all because of what we have been through and are going through together. Though I may not post as often, I'm still here, still praying for us all. Our journeys are too closely linked in time, God's time. One glorious day He will return for us, we will rise to meet Him in the skies, we will see the very face of our Lord and Savior, we will embrace our love one gone on before us. Until then I continue to say; We must Press On together and I continue to pray; Come Soon My Lord.

 

[JeanR]

I wish you all happiness, ComeSoonMyLord. Continue to be the joyful uplifting person you are.

We will continue to be a family, though. You are right when you say that we have traveled a journey together and have formed a bond that only we can fully appreciate.

With love,
Jean