I failed horribly today. I wanted to do good because I knew I was facing a trial and I examined myself. I was waiting at a clothing store in line and all these negative thoughts ran through my mind, so I thought to myself this is temporary Jesus love is eternal. But it got up to a point where I coudln't take it and I cursed God within my head. I felt horrible and I still do but as look back I feel like the sower who endured for a while but when tribulations and trials came they didn't get to finish. What is the remedy for this? How do I get the good seed going here. I confess sins to ya'll.