So I'm not a horrible Catholic if I just don't agree with it.... and maybe just can never agree with it in my heart for whatever reason? I am seriously not even trying to tell God no I don't believe this, I just seriously don't understand it and I can't agree with it.
And geo I know you were kidding, but when I see statements around OBOB that are like "do this Catholic thing or go to hell" that really upsets me. I'm a sinner, I won't ever deny that, but when it comes to simply not being able to agree with my Church's faith, it hurts and it makes me sad and depressed. I don't like being told that I'm sinning and not understanding why I'm sinning.
Maybe it's harder since I'm not a cradle Catholic. My boyfriend at the time when I converted was one and he just accepted everything--- I can't do that and it upset me when he couldn't properly explain something to me about the faith. So yes I guess I'm still going through my conversion, even though I'm baptized and confirmed.
Catholic faith is alot harder than most other Christian faiths.