What's wrong...? :'(

[janusmaguszeal]

I'm not one hundred percent sure how to describe my problem. But hopefully someone out there will understand.

One of my sins that I've always struggled with has to do with sexual immorality. As some of you may know and/or agree with, such a sin hurts yourself more because it's the only sin that happens within your own flesh.
Now I know that God has forgiven me for one such incident. And I know that that sin, I had put in between me and God. And I could see God, the Spirit (in my mind's eye) on the other side of this little black sin on the floor and God reaching out and calling to me asking me to step over it. But I couldn't bring myself to do it. I don't quite why. ...But now, the sin has blinded me. I can no longer see my Lord. I can still hear Him and I can still feel His touch. But why can't I see Him? (Does any of that make sense? I hope so.) Is it because I am unfaithful? Do I lose my faith when the sin blinded me? Am I not blinded by that but maybe by anger? If so, why am I angry and what am I angry at and who must I forgive?
If I've lost you and you have no words of comfort or wisdom for me, I ask only that you pray for me, that I may be saved and healed, please.
Thank you.

``Steve

 

[missionary1]

I'm not one hundred percent sure how to describe my problem. But hopefully someone out there will understand.

One of my sins that I've always struggled with has to do with sexual immorality. As some of you may know and/or agree with, such a sin hurts yourself more because it's the only sin that happens within your own flesh.
Now I know that God has forgiven me for one such incident. And I know that that sin, I had put in between me and God. And I could see God, the Spirit (in my mind's eye) on the other side of this little black sin on the floor and God reaching out and calling to me asking me to step over it. But I couldn't bring myself to do it. I don't quite why. ...But now, the sin has blinded me. I can no longer see my Lord. I can still hear Him and I can still feel His touch. But why can't I see Him? (Does any of that make sense? I hope so.) Is it because I am unfaithful? Do I lose my faith when the sin blinded me? Am I not blinded by that but maybe by anger? If so, why am I angry and what am I angry at and who must I forgive?
If I've lost you and you have no words of comfort or wisdom for me, I ask only that you pray for me, that I may be saved and healed, please.
Thank you.

``Steve

Hello Steve,

When we turn from sin Satan must flee. When we re-visit sin and turn from it Satan will flee again...

Our Father is patient and we must be as well. Overcoming our flesh is not an easy process...

There can come a time when our Father will harden our heart because we refuse correction by continually turning away from the proddings of the Holy Spirit. We then are turned over to a reprobate mind where sin becomes acceptable and the Truth that we once received becomes the lie.

From what you say I don't think that this has happened to you yet.

We are going to make mistakes. As long as we give Mercy to others we will receive Mercy. As long as we forgive others we will be forgiven.

Many times we do not "feel" forgiven because we have not "forgiven others". If you have forgiven others our Father will forgive you. If not He won't.

Jesus confirms this in Matthew 6 (Amplified)

14 For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you.

15 But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.

Have you forgiven everyone in your past who has hurt you?

 

[janusmaguszeal]

Thanks for posting.
Actually, I can't really think of anyone or for anything that I haven't forgiven. I have been going through a fairly stressful time lately...I work in retail and it's near christmas...people are crazy! I did finally feel the relief that only God and grant. And I see Him once again. I came to realize, through the help of my best friend, how much I need God to even be breathing.

I don't know what else to say. It was just a small step, the first of many, that I just couldn't find in myself to take. My friend found that step in me and brought it out. It's good that God gave me such wonderful friends.

Thank you so much for helping.

God bless us!!!

 

[missionary1]

Thanks for posting.
Actually, I can't really think of anyone or for anything that I haven't forgiven. I have been going through a fairly stressful time lately...I work in retail and it's near christmas...people are crazy! I did finally feel the relief that only God and grant. And I see Him once again. I came to realize, through the help of my best friend, how much I need God to even be breathing.

I don't know what else to say. It was just a small step, the first of many, that I just couldn't find in myself to take. My friend found that step in me and brought it out. It's good that God gave me such wonderful friends.

Thank you so much for helping.

God bless us!!!

You have a wonderful friend...

I rejoice with you regarding your progress...Keep us updated...

God bless you

 

[janusmaguszeal]

Thanks for caring.

Oh, man, today was just nuts. Some completely new deal! I always seem to be on the run, if you want to see my latest thread it's called "Consumee"? under recovery-anxiety...or however it's spelled.

And thanks again.

 

[missionary1]

Thanks for caring.

Oh, man, today was just nuts. Some completely new deal! I always seem to be on the run, if you want to see my latest thread it's called "Consumee"? under recovery-anxiety...or however it's spelled.

And thanks again.

I will be over to check it out soon....