(Sorry if this is in the wrong place. I didn't know where else to post it)
I came to this forum because I had a revelation one night and I knew that I needed to devote myself 100%, utterly and completely to God. I had come from a dark place with mental issues (depression, bipolar, eating disorder..) and and a past of abuse, I had hit bottom, and one night I got humbly slapped in the face by the holy spirit
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So, I was turning my life around completely. Becoming a whole new person. And I've had issues with staying on track before so I thought coming to a place like this, surrounded by Christians instead of the enablers I use to, would help me stay God focused, and also most importantly, I could learn from these people. I was new to everything...reading the bible, understanding the bible, praying, ect.
What I liked most was that there was chaplains here that help guide me and teach me. But every single time I went to them for help or to understand something, all I got was judged and told that I wasn't enough of a believer, or that I didn't really love Christ for not understanding something. Or because I couldn't immediately disregard everything (and person) in my life to please them. I can't believe someone who's suppose to be a reflection of Christs love and teaching, suppose to be leading people in the holy spirit, would say things with such a mean and hurtful attitude and judge them so brutally. I've seen them to it to other people too.
If the leaders can't even be Christ-like, living the bible, it pretty much makes me not even want to be here anymore.
I came to this forum because I had a revelation one night and I knew that I needed to devote myself 100%, utterly and completely to God. I had come from a dark place with mental issues (depression, bipolar, eating disorder..) and and a past of abuse, I had hit bottom, and one night I got humbly slapped in the face by the holy spirit

So, I was turning my life around completely. Becoming a whole new person. And I've had issues with staying on track before so I thought coming to a place like this, surrounded by Christians instead of the enablers I use to, would help me stay God focused, and also most importantly, I could learn from these people. I was new to everything...reading the bible, understanding the bible, praying, ect.
What I liked most was that there was chaplains here that help guide me and teach me. But every single time I went to them for help or to understand something, all I got was judged and told that I wasn't enough of a believer, or that I didn't really love Christ for not understanding something. Or because I couldn't immediately disregard everything (and person) in my life to please them. I can't believe someone who's suppose to be a reflection of Christs love and teaching, suppose to be leading people in the holy spirit, would say things with such a mean and hurtful attitude and judge them so brutally. I've seen them to it to other people too.
If the leaders can't even be Christ-like, living the bible, it pretty much makes me not even want to be here anymore.