What's on your mind?

[freedom1807]

I miss my lovely ex-boyfriend.He lives abroad. We are back to being best friends now. He was my first ever boyfriend and is such a kind, considerate gentleman. It was very very easy to fall in love with him. He is a wonderful man and I think of him often.

 

[Japxican]

I'm thinking about dinosaurs. All of a sudden, I want to study them and try to draw them.

(I know, I'm weird.)

 

[Im_A]

Well the nearly month long 'I don't know-ship' is over or so it seems. Time to get back on going out on dates.

 

[Tink]

I'm thinking that it is taking forever to attach the pictures of my bookshelf, but I don't want to shrink them or it will be pointless - you won't be able to see what books are on there.

I'm also thinking I hope I can stay up late enough to talk to my friend. I miss him!

 

[Marycita]

The sweet, wonderful, intelligent kindergartner I watch everyday, T.


Ugh...T is adopted..his two siblings A and K are also adopted...but A and K are actually siblings. A and T are in the program...The parents CLEARLY favor A and K over T. And T can tell...Whenever they come to pick A and T they hang around A, hugging him, talking about his day, admiring whatever it is he is doing atm, while to T, it's a simple, "come on, get your stuff". A sometimes has behavior problems...but if I try to talk to the parents about this, they just let it go. I swear, it's like I'm just telling myself. If T does anything however, it's a huge deal.

Both A and T had terrible infanthoods...Leaving them both with anxiety problems. T tends to pee his pants sometimes...and if and when he does, he's scolded harshly - and I've even seen him spanked because of it...(which makes me want to shout at the parents, NEWS FLASH, THAT'S MAKING IT WORSE!!!)

There are times T tries to hide when his parents come to get him. There has been times when T tells me, "I don't want to go home, I hate my dad". Today, their mother came to get them. As usual, she was all about A, and only telling T to get it together so they can go.

T doesn't move, instead he hangs his head, and when he looks up again, I can see tears slowly forming...and I can tell he's trying to fight it off. He puts his head in his arms on the table and I go over to him, try to see what's wrong, he simply tells me he doesn't want to go. Well, I can't do anything about that sigh, so I just give him a hug and tell him he has to go, but I can't wait to see him tomorrow.

Finally, he gets up, and walks after his mom and brother..and then looks back at me, with the tears still in his eyes..


UGH!!!!!! Why adopt a precious boy like him if you aren't going to give him the love he, especially, needs?!


Oh, I so wish I could take him home with me instead...

and I really just needed to get that out....

 

[Tink]

The sweet, wonderful, intelligent kindergartner I watch everyday, T.


Ugh...T is adopted..his two siblings A and K are also adopted...but A and K are actually siblings. A and T are in the program...The parents CLEARLY favor A and K over T. And T can tell...Whenever they come to pick A and T they hang around A, hugging him, talking about his day, admiring whatever it is he is doing atm, while to T, it's a simple, "come on, get your stuff". A sometimes has behavior problems...but if I try to talk to the parents about this, they just let it go. I swear, it's like I'm just telling myself. If T does anything however, it's a huge deal.

Both A and T had terrible infanthoods...Leaving them both with anxiety problems. T tends to pee his pants sometimes...and if and when he does, he's scolded harshly - and I've even seen him spanked because of it...(which makes me want to shout at the parents, NEWS FLASH, THAT'S MAKING IT WORSE!!!)

There are times T tries to hide when his parents come to get him. There has been times when T tells me, "I don't want to go home, I hate my dad". Today, their mother came to get them. As usual, she was all about A, and only telling T to get it together so they can go.

T doesn't move, instead he hangs his head, and when he looks up again, I can see tears slowly forming...and I can tell he's trying to fight it off. He puts his head in his arms on the table and I go over to him, try to see what's wrong, he simply tells me he doesn't want to go. Well, I can't do anything about that sigh, so I just give him a hug and tell him he has to go, but I can't wait to see him tomorrow.

Finally, he gets up, and walks after his mom and brother..and then looks back at me, with the tears still in his eyes..


UGH!!!!!! Why adopt a precious boy like him if you aren't going to give him the love he, especially, needs?!


Oh, I so wish I could take him home with me instead...

and I really just needed to get that out....

I want to punch those people in the face.

ETA: the mother and father. Not the poor children, obviously.

 

[toastface_grillah]

I heard about an on-campus job fair through the grapevine tonight. Hopefully I haven't aged too much since graduating college. Either way, a shave will do me some good.

 

[Nom De Guerre]

I want to punch those people in the face.

ETA: the mother and father. Not the poor children, obviously.

That.

 

[Omceer]

I need to find myself a girl again that is away from all the drama.

 

[Dzhessika]

The job interview I have in the morning I am fine now but I know my nerves are going to be running a muck in the morning and I just want to make a good impression .I know its something I could do I just want whats best I know even getting this interview was a god send its so hard here to even get one .

 

[Blank123]

The job interview I have in the morning I am fine now but I know my nerves are going to be running a muck in the morning and I just want to make a good impression .I know its something I could do I just want whats best I know even getting this interview was a god send its so hard here to even get one .

ooo job interview! I'll be praying for you - let me know how it goes!

 

[BRISH]

The sweet, wonderful, intelligent kindergartner I watch everyday, T.


Ugh...T is adopted..his two siblings A and K are also adopted...but A and K are actually siblings. A and T are in the program...The parents CLEARLY favor A and K over T. And T can tell...Whenever they come to pick A and T they hang around A, hugging him, talking about his day, admiring whatever it is he is doing atm, while to T, it's a simple, "come on, get your stuff". A sometimes has behavior problems...but if I try to talk to the parents about this, they just let it go. I swear, it's like I'm just telling myself. If T does anything however, it's a huge deal.

Both A and T had terrible infanthoods...Leaving them both with anxiety problems. T tends to pee his pants sometimes...and if and when he does, he's scolded harshly - and I've even seen him spanked because of it...(which makes me want to shout at the parents, NEWS FLASH, THAT'S MAKING IT WORSE!!!)

There are times T tries to hide when his parents come to get him. There has been times when T tells me, "I don't want to go home, I hate my dad". Today, their mother came to get them. As usual, she was all about A, and only telling T to get it together so they can go.

T doesn't move, instead he hangs his head, and when he looks up again, I can see tears slowly forming...and I can tell he's trying to fight it off. He puts his head in his arms on the table and I go over to him, try to see what's wrong, he simply tells me he doesn't want to go. Well, I can't do anything about that sigh, so I just give him a hug and tell him he has to go, but I can't wait to see him tomorrow.

Finally, he gets up, and walks after his mom and brother..and then looks back at me, with the tears still in his eyes..


UGH!!!!!! Why adopt a precious boy like him if you aren't going to give him the love he, especially, needs?!


Oh, I so wish I could take him home with me instead...

and I really just needed to get that out....

I'm in tears.

Does he happen to ever mention or hint towards why he is anxious about his dad?

 

[Rhye]

When the kids get scared, its so easy for me to be strong for them, to talk them through their fears. When I get scared, I want someone to do it for me too.

 

[white dove]

There are times when I think about going back to the clubbing scene, if only for one night... to dance dance dance like a fool, with the energy of those surrounding me, the lights or lack thereof (helpful in making me not feel self-conscious -- or self-aware), the drinks with bite, the sweat from the hours of work put into a not-so-thought out evening....

But, then I'll come across a Britney Spears video -- on accident, as what had happened this week a couple times... and I just think.... Guh... I don't want to be that. I've been hearing that new song lately and yeah even though I do like a few of Britney Spears' songs (no shame), I am ashamed of that new song. It's terrible and I find myself horribly offended by it. I mean... it's not that I don't appreciate honesty in confronting sexual matters or openness and it's not that I don't like more provocative songs already, but dang woman, you have kids to think of. I would hate to think that I would do something that would embarress my son. Or like, can he be proud of this? I mean sure, I still have my interests and things. I will never stop dancing. I will never stop loving music and dance. I don't think I could ever stop loving the atmosphere of people dancing together - although separately sometimes - to the same music... but I mean, my boozing days are gone. I've got all the stories I could ever want in that dept. I can no longer do more "risque" things in public. Even privately lol. LOL nevermind! That sounds like I meant something else.... anyway. What am I saying? Probably nothing. And I don't mean to sound so judgmental over B. Spears. I probably would be the same way if I got pregnant when I was younger. I mean, I'm this way thinking about things and I'm how old. So yeah, I do understand younger moms might have some more settling issues.

 

[Nom De Guerre]

The job interview I have in the morning I am fine now but I know my nerves are going to be running a muck in the morning and I just want to make a good impression .I know its something I could do I just want whats best I know even getting this interview was a god send its so hard here to even get one .

Praying for you! Hope you all the best

 

[peacechild4]

When the kids get scared, its so easy for me to be strong for them, to talk them through their fears. When I get scared, I want someone to do it for me too.

Of course you do..

 

[MehTeh]

Shame is on my mind. You'd think I'd put more effort into caring about those who are important to me. That I should be putting their needs first.

Alas, it appears that I am too wrapped up in me, worrying about my feelings and my wants. Because that's exactly what it is, wants, not needs. I want a companion, a partner. I want someone who will look out for me. I want someone who I can flip head over heels for.

What I need is to love God. What I need is to put others before myself. What I need is to accept and love myself and not seek others to do that for me.

I have too much pride, too much arrogance and too much anger. Even writing on here is my ego saying 'Look at me and how humble I am.'

Bah humbug!

 

[Quintus Poppaedius]

Really frustrated and upset whenever I pay too much attention to US politics anymore. Need to remember to change my party affiliation on my voter registration form. (GOP to AIP)

 

[Marycita]

I'm in tears.

Does he happen to ever mention or hint towards why he is anxious about his dad?

Well, it probably has to do with the fact that both his parents give way more attention and time to the other two

...though, I've never seen his dad even smile at him....I've seen him scowl, yell, spank, etc...but never a smile...

ugh...


ETA - his anxiety problems existed before his adopted dad, though

 

[BRISH]

Well, it probably has to do with the fact that both his parents give way more attention and time to the other two

...though, I've never seen his dad even smile at him....I've seen him scowl, yell, spank, etc...but never a smile...

ugh...


ETA - his anxiety problems existed before his adopted dad, though

Oh I'm sure. There's no telling what they've been through. I was just curious as the pinpointed focus on him. I have him and the adoptive parents in prayer. That just ugh...tugs really hard.




At the moment, I'm trying to figure out what this "unite with Israel" or "christians for Israel" is about. I'm starting to feel really out of a loop. Where've I been that I didn't know soo much of what's going on? I'm a bit obsessed with it.