What's on your mind?

[Tink]

He is on my mind. As usual. And I love it!

 

[Touma]

He is on my mind. As usual. And I love it!

I am usually on most people's minds.


Oh wait....you mean its not me?

Darn!

 

[Keri]

Shopping. I need to go shopping. I should do it today. Grrr for Target being a half an hour away.

 

[Blank123]

I remember the first time I heard 21 Guns by Green Day and I really liked it. Now I'm watching the vid on Youtube and its not so great. weird.

 

[Aino]

I'm trying to figure out what I think of this one hymn that has a melody by Jean Sibelius that almost became the Finnish national anthem. Both lyrics are beautiful and there's something nice about having one and the same song about your both home countries, but really? I just have this weird hunch that there's something extremely weird about it as well..

 

[PeculiarTreasure]

I'm thinking how in the world am I gonna get 250 bucks to pay the fee so I can go to school.

 

[Quoth]

The 2011 Pikes Peak Writers Conference, cleaning out my car, my birthday, life, the universe, and everything, my book, how I don't particularly want to be here the last 23 minutes of my shift, and a few other things I'll keep to myself.

 

[Tink]

Thinking about if I should really go back to school, and where. Thinking about how much it's going to cost, and if I should get student aid again.

Also thinking about this dude I've been talking to that I found out his daughter goes to the same school as my daughter, and we see each other nearly everyday.

 

[Im_A]

I am thinking how good song writers Green Day has become. I am not saying this because of you little_tigress. Coincendental with your comment and me listening to 21st Century Breakdown the very same album your song is on. I just like how they have changed from the early days, to the now. Plus I have to admit, well written story in a melodic punk style is quite fab. It is like dancing to a story with fire in your feet. I recommend Volbeat and Social Distortion for more.

Now to the more serious part...I love how when you get closer to 30, it seems by default, your mind goes back and remembers. Thinks, become introspective. I hate introspective thinking. It is the monkey on my back and if anyone wants to buy the chimp, I'll give it away for free. This is brought on because my dad and I. I have him on my facebook page and I gander through his profile off and on as I am sure he does mine. Well I ran into a discussion with his daughter-in-law that really caught me a back. He sounded like a preacher trying to encourage her.

They were talking about porn. I read his messages to her and it just took me a back and I thought in my head, who is this man? I am all fine for someone making monumental changes in their life. I am not necessarily mad at him. I am for sure not mad at the daughter and his step son. Not their fault.

It just took me through amnesia lane. Remembering how he always judged me as 'too philosophical'. Would tell me religion is for later on. He never knew that I used to lead worship for a very, very, very small congregation. He never knew that I went and spoke to FCA at the middle school. He never knew that for a time I dreamed about being a youth minister or start up a ministry that reaches to the sub-culture. He never knew that part of the band thing I was once in, that the reasons were also because I wanted to make Christian music and praise God with it and reach people. Why? Because he never supported that type of thing.

Years later, I am become the non-believer and he goes more towards Christianity. Now he is proud of his step-children for what they have done for their church. He acknowledges it like a good man would in being support for their children.

Parts of me wants to rip him a new one. I am good at ripping people off when they do me wrong. Point the finger at him. Keep it buried deep inside so that when I see him face to face again, we can have it all out verbally and take a chance to either work it out or leave on bad terms with use there is a 100 percent for both.

yet...

Parts of me wants to leave it be. Talking about it won't help. Getting a reason makes it worse. The last thing I am tolerable to hear is, some prodigal son with his heavenly father syndrome as part of his reasoning. Any other reason is just as bad.

So I will strive to keep it inside. There will never be closure...even if forgiveness would be an issue. The years are gone and can't be made up. Only new memories can be made and the years are gone are actually troubling. We have bowling to talk about at least. It does really feel like we are strangers more than ever. That's life.

Food is good, craisins are good, beer and wine is good and music is great. The rest is hush hush.

 

[Im_A]

Then after writing this, I realized he at least deserves a reason why I haven't called after I told him I would.

It is strange how blood becomes strangers and you realize a lot of build up issues just because you get away from your youthful rage and become peaceful and calm. Oh well.

Family and romance are some of the most strangest of things.

 

[Im_A]

For the final note for me, I guess I will be testing the bridge to see if it burns or not.

I can't let it go and I am tired of being that quiet, accepting boy.

Thankfully I have only had one beer. The emotions would have gotten the best of me when now I can control them with ease.

 

[toastface_grillah]

Words With Friends' Android app has more bugs than a Jersey crackhouse. On the bright side, I'm definitely feeling solidarity with the suffering Android users who posted complaints on WWF's Facebook page.

 

[Tink]

Words With Friends' Android app has more bugs than a Jersey crackhouse. On the bright side, I'm definitely feeling solidarity with the suffering Android users who posted complaints on WWF's Facebook page.

You haven't even played in our game FOREVER. So hush.

 

[white dove]

That stupid Usher song. I can't..... get it out.



Also, I want ice cream, but I'm pretty sure the kind in my freezer has freezerburn. Thanks, God. I don't need that.

 

[Thunder Peel]

Foiled by a clip-on tie. It's prom night all over again.

 

[toastface_grillah]

You haven't even played in our game FOREVER. So hush.

Ahh, you make me ROFL. Sadly, after the fifth (or sixth?) force close, I kicked WWF to da curb. Like Snoop once said, "I don't love them [closes]."

 

[Wren]

I wonder if I'm too honest. I mean, I don't want to overly censor myself here (on CF), but I do care what people think. Yet why should I hide certain views/beliefs/whatevers just because they aren't popular? That's not being true to myself and frankly I don't care enough about what other people think to betray myself like that. And if people think less of me because I hold certain views/beliefs/whatevers then maybe that shows more about them than me. I mean, I disagree with some people on a few things (some of them are important to me), yet I still consider us to be friends or at least likable CFers.

 

[BRISH]

Lovin being online at home again.

XX is still cute, and still nice, and I'll get to enjoy his company a bit more this weekend. I'm hoping he hasn't changed much since school. Nice guy.

 

[Tink]

What's on my mind? A man that I care about.

 

[Obzocky]

How to satisfy their needs for this lone working malarkey.
Boo.