I'm a 26 yr. old married woman with one son (4) and I feel completely out of control and I need some support immediately. I have no one to call and I feel really ..... crazy. I live in my home town with my parents five blocks away and my husband asleep in bed and my son as well, but I feel so LONELY. I suffered post partum depression with my son and I've never been the same since. To tell the truth I've had emotional issues since I was 19. I used to hurt myself, but I got better for a while and I thought everything was ok!!!!! I thought my life was on track. I'm living the way I was raised to live, and I AM a christian and I go to church regularly and I talk constantly with God, but I feel so alone. I don't feel him in me!!!!!!!!!!!!! My husband son and I went on vacation and I was so distrsessed the entire time trying to keep everything going smoothly and me husband happy(who was stressed out by work) and I've been distressed for a while. My husband and I got tired and began to fight a little and it escalated until we were REALLY fighting.... like we haven't done since my son was an infant... and I completely lost it. I was trying to grab for something and he hit me away and I think that's what triggered me. I started to hit him. I hit and hit and I didn't want to stop! It felt good. And I wanted to hurt him. The thing that has mw so upset is that I'm not sorry!!!! I wanted to hurt him and I wish I could have hit harder. I got hurt when he tried to restrain me and I wanted to get hurt more. I feel so lost right now and my head is going crazy. I feel EVERYTHING right now. I need some help please. I've drank too much wine tonight and it hasn't helped. I want to hurt myself!!!! I am so disgusted with myself!
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The General Mental Health Forum is now a Read Only Forum. As we had two large areas making it difficult for many to find, we decided to combine the Mental Health & the Recovery sections of the forum into Mental Health & Recovery as a whole. Physical Health still remains as it's own area within the entire Recovery area.
If you are having struggles, need support in a particular area that you aren't finding a specific recovery area forum, you may find the General Struggles forum a great place to post. Any any that is related to emotions, self-esteem, insomnia, anger, relationship dynamics due to mental health and recovery and other issues that don't fit better in another forum would be examples of topics that might go there.
If you have spiritual issues related to a mental health and recovery issue, please use the Recovery Related Spiritual Advice forum. This forum is designed to be like Christian Advice, only for recovery type of issues. Recovery being like a family in many ways, allows us to support one another together. May you be blessed today and each day.
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CF has always been a site that welcomes people from different backgrounds and beliefs to participate in discussion and even debate. That is the nature of its ministry. In view of recent events emotions are running very high. We need to remind people of some basic principles in debating on this site. We need to be civil when we express differences in opinion. No personal attacks. Avoid you, your statements. Don't characterize an entire political party with comparisons to Fascism or Communism or other extreme movements that committed atrocities. CF is not the place for broad brush or blanket statements about groups and political parties. Put the broad brushes and blankets away when you come to CF, better yet, put them in the incinerator. Debate had no place for them. We need to remember that people that commit acts of violence represent themselves or a small extreme faction.
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