What to do with myself....

Oh yeah...like my INFANT grandchild deicded oh well i'm going to get myself killed! HAHA! Sure he exercised his free will....Yeah Right.

Last time I heard Gawd had free will to, and if he listend to prayers my grandchild would be 3 years old now.

Sorry but that's how I feel.

God does hear prayers, his answers are not always what we want. We are to pray for his will to be done. I prayed when my sister was dying of cancer but it was not His will that she live. God is the author of life.

Over the past year as I have prayed I have found God amazingly responsive to my prayers. Twenty years ago it was like trying to knock on a concrete wall through gates of brass and bars of iron. I needed Him so desperately and was so distraught back then as my life was being taken away from me against my will. Why? Why did He seem to ignore me then when I wanted to serve Him and needed Him so bad? I'd have never left Him if only He would have answered, reached out to me, but as far as I could tell, He didn't. And why now, after all these years, start answering me and sending me His blessings?

I honestly have no clue.

But there you have it.

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Wasting away 1/3 of my life doing mediocre jobs all my life does not give me much reason to want to keep living. I understand that there are things I will have to do that I do not like in my life, but to live half of my waking life for someone else? No thanks, not for me.

But thats not a problem anymore. I found a job that I can support myself on, I would enjoy doing, and can help people all at once. Plus, I only need 1 year of community college. It probably sounds like something a little kid would say, but I'd like to be a firefighter. I wanted to be one as a kid, but unlike most people, it never really left me. True, it is a 56 hour work week instead of a 40 hour workweek, and its not a whole lot of money, but if I enjoy it, that makes it all worth it.

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Thats cool man, I was reading your OP and it sounded to me like you'd be into something like that. I think its great you want more out of life than just the normal routine.

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Oh really he listend when? When my grandchild was on life support? When he was being lowered into the ground in his casket? When my daughter slashed her wrists??

I don't think so.

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Everyone looks for someone to blame, a million tragedies occur worldwide. This is a classic case against God that gets nowhere fast, you might wanna try General Apologetics if you're here to debate/argue, but I don't think this is the place... .

what's up psyched?

First off, it's okay to feel this way. We all go through periods in which we're standing still looking blankly at the future without the slightest idea about what we want that future to turn out like.

I strongly advice that you finish your high school education. I regret telling anyone this as much as I regret the action I took of dropping out of high school on my first year. I didn't even finish the first year! At the time, I thought I'd be fine, but the years of nothingness and cluelessness have made me realize that that step was not a good one. Finish high school to leave possible decisions open... nowadays without atleast a high school diploma, you cannot get a job.

About not knowing what you want to do... well, I'm at that same place too. I do know however that I want to make money doing something that is of great benefit for both me and others in the world, I just don't know what that something is yet. But I feel that God will soon reveal what it is to me.

I know what you mean about not wanting to work doing something you don't like. I am doing that right now. I work in retail, because there is nothing else for me out there until I can get my GED and maybe go to college. Retail is NOT my dream job, and my mistake of leaving high school has caused me to be obligated to do things at this job for money that I don't want to do.

So, all in all, I advice that you do not leave school until you're done. If going out on a trip is something you think might help you, go for it! Fill your mind with positive things, and start looking around for things that you enjoy. Sometimes even things that we think we cannot get anything out of turn out to be the things that are the most fruitful in our lives.

Put God in the #1 place in your life and ask Him to tell you where to go, and bet your money that if you put all of your trust in Him, He will get you to that place you should be.

Blessings!

I dropped out at 16 and got a GED but I made a mess of my life for the most part as I got into partying and I would work a job for a while get bored and not work for a while and get another one so on and so on and now that I am 30 I wish so bad that I had of stayed in school or at least went to College and got a degree because I come to realize I am good at every job I have done and some looking back I did enjoy for a while but all I really needed was something challenging and maybe the 9 to 5 thing is not for you but you need to find something that interests you and look at that and like one said since this is a Christian forum praying and asking God what he has planned for your life is the best thing to do but answers dont always come right away and you need to do some searching as well have you taking an assesment test to see what you would be good at or where you might find more of an interest they can be helpful and most schools have them. Dropping out of school and not going to college was a big mistake for me and I found without a degree its hard to get a job that pays much more than minimum wage and believe me you will work a lot harder for a lot less money than what your parents do if they have degrees. If your going to take a trip I would suggest using some of that time to evaluate yourself and your descisions because they will effect the rest of your life and working is just a part of life and the bible says that a man who doesnt work doesnt eat and it warns against being lazy so seek God about what to do

psychedelicist said:

I'm gonna graduate(or drop out of) high school soon, and I guess I gotta start looking towards my future. It doesn't really look too promising, really. Having to shave and cut my hair, get a 40 hour job doing something I don't really want to do, all to pay off my apartment/car/whatever.

Some may say, "it doesn't have to be like that", but I'm not so sure. I have no hobbies that I can make a career out of, and I can't really convince myself that I'm happy with a job that I really don't like.

College is probably not an option, for financial reasons, as well as the fact that I don't really need a college education to be happy, I know of a couple of my friends who are only HS grads, and they seem fine.

I look at my parents, sister, and the vast majority of my friends who have a full time job(except the ones mentioned above), and quite frankly it scares me. They claim to be so happy with their jobs, but when they come home, they are irritable, and too tired to do anything but veg out in front of the TV. Nothing scares me more than ending up like that. I'd like to think that I won't end up like that, but I have seen very little to convince me otherwise.

I think I will be taking a trip soon. Don't really know where, but me and my girlfriend think we just need to get away for a while. Probably we will be hiking around, seeing stuff, living out of our backpacks, doing odd jobs for money, for a little while until we decide to come back and do the whole college/job thing.

Anyone have any suggestions or questions for me, the would be appreciated.

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Hi and welcome to the human race,what you are feeling is something we have all gone through at times in our lives.My advice is the following.

Get as much education as you can,check on financial aid you can apply online.education gives you options and it never hurts no matter what field you choose.

Do not contemplate marriage or children until you have resolved these issues,while you are unencumbered you can change jobs freely and try out new paths but once you add responsibilities you are no longer free to change paths.

Never get yourself into debt any more than is absolutely necessary,debt takes a heavy toll on us mentally and spiritually.Live within your means always.

Trust in God to lead you to the right path,I took my current job around 15 years ago as a temporary job to pay the bills and thank God for leading me to it.You never know what you may like you may just fall into it.

Happiness is something we can create with our own attitude,if you choose to be happy and put a smile on your face and do whatever job you have heartily you will not only raise your spirits but others will want to be around you.

finally relax,your young and the world is there for your taking.Enjoy being in High School and being young,take each day as it comes and live it well as once it is gone it never comes back.Accept your failures and remember the son will rise the next day and you can try again.

Best of Luck