I'm a living testimony of the Lord's goodness. I have been through storm after storm, trial after trial. I'm 17 now, but it started back when I was around 5. My parents were separated so I had to bounce between homes. By about five years old my dad left me and never came back. That left my heart broken as a child. I was an extreme daddy's girl who loved him sooo much. I adored my father. The rejection from him turned my life upsidedown and I still wait for him to return to this day. Later on at about six I was molested by someone close to me and told my mother about it. I struggled with forgiveness because I biterlyvheld onto it from that age on.
Leaving my mom a single parent, we had to get on welfare and struggle as a family financially. I had a few half brothers and a sister. I showed signed of OCD around this time period. I ignored the signs though and thought it went away. Boy was i wrong..
In about fourth grade I became exceedingly shy and didn't fit in. My family moved almost every year and I began to stop making as many friends until eventually I had only a couple or so (if I consider them friends). I developed a personality disorder called AvPD and a condition called hyperhidrosis. Not having close friends and being an outcast made me depressed. All my sicknesses and rejection from my peers left me suicidal. It was at the lowest point in my life, high school that Lord poured His love on me.
My off had turned into scrupulocity (look it up) which was hard to handle. I constantly had doubts, blasphemous thoughts, pain, condemnation, and anxiety all day everyday almost. I felt so bad that I asked God to let me die. But He came to me with mercy, completely changing my life and healing me, showing me forgiveness, and allowing me to be in a relationship with Him. It was the best thing that ever happened to me.
I'm here to tell you that no matter what, trust in God. he is a good God. He loves you more than you could ever comprehend.
Leaving my mom a single parent, we had to get on welfare and struggle as a family financially. I had a few half brothers and a sister. I showed signed of OCD around this time period. I ignored the signs though and thought it went away. Boy was i wrong..
In about fourth grade I became exceedingly shy and didn't fit in. My family moved almost every year and I began to stop making as many friends until eventually I had only a couple or so (if I consider them friends). I developed a personality disorder called AvPD and a condition called hyperhidrosis. Not having close friends and being an outcast made me depressed. All my sicknesses and rejection from my peers left me suicidal. It was at the lowest point in my life, high school that Lord poured His love on me.
My off had turned into scrupulocity (look it up) which was hard to handle. I constantly had doubts, blasphemous thoughts, pain, condemnation, and anxiety all day everyday almost. I felt so bad that I asked God to let me die. But He came to me with mercy, completely changing my life and healing me, showing me forgiveness, and allowing me to be in a relationship with Him. It was the best thing that ever happened to me.
I'm here to tell you that no matter what, trust in God. he is a good God. He loves you more than you could ever comprehend.
