What I want out of life might not be His will for me. Does that make sense? I though that what WE want in life is somewhat a selfish mindset. I don't know, I'm asking. But I do see your point.
My original post was meant to understand how to find our calling and I don't see what that would be a negative thing. God knows past, present and future so don't you think He has a plan for every single person and expects us to come to know Him in order for us to follow His direction?
I think your two posts previous to this one were on the right track. You need to follow your interests and eventually you will discover your ultimate purposes in Him. But here's the thing. To find your
spiritual calling you need to follow your
spiritual interests primarily (prophecy, gifts, helps ministry, teaching, preaching, deliverance, healing, etc). Nothing wrong with photography, and maybe that will play into your particular call in some way eventually. But keep pursuing your spiritual interests especially.
Also, just because you may not make a living at what your spiritual interests direct you to does not mean it is not your calling. I have been following my calling for decades and will be doing so for the rest of my life, yet I'll probably never make a dime from it. I work to make a living, but the rest of my life is devoted in service to the Lord.
So keep pursuing your spiritual interests first and foremost, regardless of whether there appears to be a living in it or not. And as
@OldWiseGuy shared, what we are ultimately created for may take many years or even decades to fully discover. It's just part of the process of "filling out" into discovering everything you were created to be.
Lastly, keep in mind also that the church is in many respects NOT where she is supposed to be either, and this makes things harder to figure out with regard to your specific calling and purpose. You could be called to operate in very strong supernatural gifts, but without tutors on the subject, and without those around you in a church who would allow you to flow in what you were created to function in, how will you be able to? As he stated, things are not as simple in our day and age as they should be.
But keep seeking God. Eventually you will know for certain and be able to walk in it to the very best of your ability, regardless of the circumstances you might be surrounded by.