What is your anti-cut?

[Moana]

Today I was feelling like Si-ing but, I remebered how my friend Addie would feel if she knew. I used to SI and I had this teacher, she was the nicest lady I ever knew. One day she asked me what happened to my arm I saw that she was concered that I was injured so I quit for a few days.

I think this sounds alot like the anti-drug campain but, it makes alot of sence to me. So, What is your anti-cut?

 

[LazeyWinde]

Right now it's burying myself in books. I visit at least two libraries a week to keep me supplied.

 

[restlesslilly]

My boyfriend and the pain it causes him when I cut. And God, for the pain I cause Him as well.

 

[BigToe]

*snuggles* you guys are all so precious. Thanks for sharing what helps you.

 

[flying_kiwifruit]

Don't have one at the mo

 

[secretx]

I want to visit Europe in the summer with my friend, but I can't go if I keep cutting. My friend doesn't know about the cutting, so I know how disappointed she'll be if I suddenly announce I have to cancel the trip.

 

[texannurse]

The knowledge that I will lose someone very important to me and my recovery. I just won't let that go for the momentary satisfaction of a cut.

 

[rowena]

Short sleeves.

For the first time in a few years my arms are clear enough that I don't have to wear long sleeves all the time and I'm looking forward to a St. Louis summer that I can actually go out and enjoy.

 

[HolyOne87]

my anti-SI= a priest in my parish..
-I made a promise to him I wouldn't. And I know if i gave in, he'd be crushed. And seeing a best friend crushed is the last thing i want to see.

 

[kathleenmary]

my older friend Lex

 

[ChristInAction]

yea, sometimes I think about how I hurt God when I cut. my body is his temple & i distory it. but that also sometimes makes me want to cut more to punnish myself. its a crazy mixed up cycle.
Rachael is often the person on earth I dont want to hurt, she's helped me so much through stuff & I know it hurts her to see me like this.

 

[Everlasting33]

My anti-cut: I was tired of the way I was living and I pledged to God I wouldn't cut again. I haven't since Dec, 2001.

 

[rasis]

It was my dreamjob...
Now it is my sport... (I am forced to wear a short jersey and) and the fear of also loosing my future "job".

 

[Aredhel]

Mine isnt so much a goal, as a way of not cutting
I play my guitar until it goes away (which takes several hours, but I enjoy guitar, so it works)

 

[mahalia]

mmmmmh... i have different ones...

but one is a teacher, just like Moana. she was my english teacher in grade 8, she's my debating coach (has been for four years now) and was my history teacher last year. she's the most amazing, most dynamic woman i've ever known (for a wise quote from her, read my siggie ), she's like, so awesome.]

and she means a lot to me, and knows about my cutting, and she never resents me for it. she's just so real, she doesn't beat around the bush, and treats me as grownup as i feel, and i respect her so much.

and the thought of her life (she hasn't got it easy) gives me strength to push forward.

and God. he is my LIFESAVER.

and my debating!!! it's my passion. lol.

 

[Moana]

One of my most important anti-cuts is also how I got me screen name. I have this cute vampire plushie named Moana. (she is in my profile if you would like to look at her) I have her sitting on the pillow beside mine as you all know, the nights can be the worst. This little friend of mine gives me someone to hug and I can;t hurt myself with that cute litte eye peeking at me. It's enough to make me stop myself from SI-ing.

Sometimes I think God meant for me to have Moana. At the time I had no friends, so God gave me a little stuffed friend. I got around when I started SI-ing. Everyone thought she looked weird and no one bought her. She was left alone untill I saw her and decided that this one eyed vampire dolly was so cute I had to take her home.

 

[mahalia]

^ awwwwwwww!

 

[Moana]

Today I was in art class and I almost stole a knife but, I was thinking of this thread and of Moana and I literally dropped the knife where I stood.

 

[Star_Flower21]

Good for you Moana

I don't have one except--if my husband ever found out that I cut it would kill him, so I keep them small and hidden in places where he never looks. But I feel like I have to.

 

[Coder]

Hmm-- I have never considered this. I guess I have not developed an anti-cut routine.

I may self-mutilate only twice a year and the feeling comes on unexpectedly. When it comes I find myself facing the blade and preparing to perform the ritual (the same "ritual" each time).

I am aware that it is unhealthy and related to other, deeper issues but the feeling gives me an instant, momentary high (about 3-seconds) before an instant come-down crash where I feel I will vomit.

I think the meds I take, my relationship with Jesus (healing: body, mind, soul), and my great girlfriend all help to keep me away from the dangers of self-mutilation and on the middle, narrow path.

I have not cut in 6-weeks.

Matty D