What is wrong with me?

[SH89]

First of all, it is 12:05 A.M.(my time).

For the last two weeks, i feel that i have been depressed because of school.

I have lost 15 pounds,i am now extremely pale, and i am extremely weak/tired. I saw my doctor and took a blood test, so i am getting the results tomorrow.

Here is my story:For the past three weeks, i have been crying and feeling depressed about school. I am a junior in high school, by the way. I feel like i have to do extremely well, and not mess up. SO far i have been doing decently in high school, yet i am worried that i may slip. I have been absent from school often, as i am just too anxious to go to school. I am partly trying to avoid school, because i want to drop chemistry and take it over the summer. I have been trying to do this, and i will do so.

I am thinking of being home-schooled. I actually have very good grades(my gpa is a 3.66), but my mental/physical health is much important.

I don't think i can handle the pressure anymore, and i feel like I am going to break.

As for my career/college goals:

I want to either,

(a) stay in regular school, and go to a decent/average school and try to get a nrotc(Navy-i want to be an aviator) scholarship

(b) get home-schooled, go to a junior college and

end up at a really good university(UCSD) and try to get a Nrotc scholarship /or apply for OCS after university.

You know,my friends and I are planning to go to a JC anyway, so what is the point of this pressure?
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I am SO worried about tomorrow, as i will tell my mom my decision that i want to be home-schooled for possibly a semester.

But God did say,"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."

 

[Annoula]

Hello dear,

if your anxiety makes you miss school, then i suppose it's "big" anxiety.
would you like to talk to a school teacher or other professional about it? just tell them how you feel...

i wish you all the best,
and ... don't stress yourself so much over school.
school is important but it is not the only important thing in life.

Enjoy your life!

hugs,

Anna

 

[Salvatore Gonzales]

This is one where it would help to talk to someone you trust. There's
something else going on at school that seems to be bothering you.
Is there a person or situation there you're fearful of rather than the
class? Maybe this is what would be good to explore with a trusted
friend, minister, etc, before you make the decision to leave school.
Although it may difficult right now, you'll have to force yourself to
eat so you can stay healthy.