Just wondered what motivates you?
I have asked myself this question multiple times throughout my life. I think this question is one of those human cries for a deeper understanding into the meaning of their lives. You might even call it a Jungian or Freudian pursuit for what lies beneath basically. Victor Frankyl puts in very succinctly in is book "Man's Search for Meaning" when he discovers his own personal meaning for his life in the Auschwitz concentration camp in which all of his family were murdered. I can only surmise that the deepest search for meaning to ones life is found after one sits with him or herself when they are literally in the darkest throes of their existence as human beings.
I guess what motivates me on a very deep level is this innate desire to always seek the truth and to never give up on life no matter what the cost. I believe with all my being that self-awareness is the key to the inner workings of our mind, body, and soul and Christ testifies this when he pleads with us to know ourselves. God knows I have made so many mistakes in my life that I regret to this day, but at the same time, I don't give up trying and trying again even when all the odds are stacked against me.
IMO I suppose that what motivates me to find meaning and purpose in my life is that there is a higher order to things, there is a dimensional, spiritual level of reality that many on the human plane of existence cannot comprehend, or do not wish to confront on some level of their lives. I believe that human beings are always, always confronted with the spiritual plane of existence because it is literally parallel and crosses everything we do in our lives, but at the same time, it is very difficult to acknowledge that this realm of reality exists until we are faced with the great omniscient presence of the Creator and we humbly realize that we are literally just one speck of dust in the great span of the cosmos.
So myself, as one speck of dust, I have to find meaning in all of this life and in this great universe that we exist in. It is very difficult to do on this earth because we as human beings are constantly confronted with this great nature of evil that permeates all of human existence. When you come to the realization that the Evil One truly has ownership of the earth, you also realize that God and Christ Jesus own the KINGDOM. So this gives me tremendous meaning and purpose because I realize fully that despite Semyaza's quest to destroy all of God's creation, God wins, the Light wins, Christ Jesus wins.
So in my life, when I was in many of my darkest moments, and faced with the Serpent on a very real level, I found my purpose in the light, I found my life in the Light, and I found my meaning in the Light. Nothing to me has purpose without love and light.
Anyway, that's my 2 or 3 cents worth.