GandalfTheWise
In search of lost causes and hopeless battles
- May 27, 2012
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I know of the 'Jesus is my buddy' theology and I used to believe that but I never had an intimate experience with Christ, especially in that way.
What is your viewpoint? I want to know the true way to be closer to the Godhead. I keep failing temptation trials because of my aimlessness in the way I see Christ and my addictions.
Jesus used the terms "friends" and "brothers" to describe his disciples. John 15:15, 20:17, and 21:5.
In a nutshell, my story is this. I grew up going to church and believed in God, but it was a rather nebulous belief that I never much though about. When I was 12, during a wednesday night Lent service, we had a guest speaker. At the end of the service, he asked a couple questions something like, "are you sure God exists?" and "are you sure you are going to heaven?" In that moment, I was struck by a sense that my belief was in reality a vague hope that the stories were true. After the service, I went up to talk with the speaker. He led me in a brief prayer something like "God please forgive me and come into my heart." Now, I'd prayed countless similar prayers during liturgies and other times, I wasn't really expecting anything to happen, but I just started to feel a warm presence inside of me (which is hard to put into words). I went from vaguely hoping God was there and real to feeling His presence in my life.
That was over 40 years ago. Since then, my trust and confidence in God has grown because of what I've seen of His hand in my life and in others. For me, this is what faith is about. For many years, I spent a lot of effort trying to figure out which church had the correct doctrine, and what I was supposed to believe. But over time, I found that faith is about a growing trust and confidence in God because of His consistent presence and faithfulness. It's not like I'm seeing the Red Sea part every day, but I've seen God's providence and working at various times over months, years, and decades and I've had a consistent sense of His presence.
One of the observations I've made over the years is that changes in our lives come about through God's work, not our own efforts and ability to change ourselves. I've noted that changes in people's lives occur because of different things. There are some things we can simply change by making a choice to do so. Spiritual growth and maturity causes some positive things to change in our lives. Such things as the fruit of the Spirit (love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, gentleness, self-control) emerge as characteristics of our lives. Then there are those bondages, addictions, compulsive behaviors, and long-term problems that we struggle with. In my life and others, I've observed that often addictions and compulsive behaviors and the like are often symptoms of deeper root causes. It's when God works in our lives to deal with these root causes that we can be freed from various bondages. Deep spiritual and emotional traumas can cause serious injuries and wounds that remain in us until God works in us to heal those things. In the same way a broken leg prevents us from easily dancing or jumping or running, spiritual and emotional injuries can hobble or cripple us in some ways producing behaviors that we cannot simply overcome. I've heard testimonies of how God has healed people of these things in a prayer meeting, or in miraculous ways. I've also heard testimonies of how God used Christian counselors, or small encounter groups, to bring a slow process of healing over time. I've seen this type of thing in my life and in friends' lives. It's not to say everything is perfect all at once, but that God brings us to deal with particular things in His timing to free us from them.
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