About your state, I'm sorry to hear that, but that doesnt prove that God doesnt exist.
You need to seek him not because you have no other option, but because you choose him between all the options. I am pretty sure if you can pray from your heart to Jesus and ask his holy spirit to fill you and promising him that you will do some great efforts to get people to him, or in order that you'd get really close to him and confess your sins, you should get an answer. God/Jesus doesnt always respond if the response would be worthless and would change nothing in someone's life.
Btw. It is just too hard to believe that God doesnt exist after many accurate predictions.
Edom and Edomites
The Edomites were the descendants of Esau, who was the brother of Jacob. This nation lived in the land south of the Dead Sea. The prophets foretold their destruction and desolation:
. . . and Edom shall be a desolate wilderness, for the violence against the children of Judah. . . . Joel 3:19 (KJV).
Therefore thus saith the Lord God:
I will also stretch out mine hand upon Edom, and will cut off man and beast from it: and I will make it desolate from Teman Ezekiel 25:13 (KJV). (Before 570 B.C.)
Also Edom shall be a desolation . . .Jeremiah 49:17 (KJV). (Before 540 B.C.)
. . . and there shall not be any remaining of the house of Esau; for the LORD hath spoken it. Obadiah 18 (KJV).
After Jerusalem was taken into Babylonian captivity, Nabataean Arabs took Edom.1 Edomites then lived in southern Judea. In 164 B.C., the Jews defeated them, and in 120 B.C. the Jews conquered these Idumeans.2 In about A.D. 69, an army of 40,000 greatly depopulated them.3 And the Edomites disappeared from history just as the prophets had foretold.
The Romans conquered the Nabataeans in Edom in A.D. 106. They changed the trade route so that it ran through Palmyra instead of Petra (Sela), the capital of Edom. This cut off the country's income, and it lost its importance.4 After the Byzantine period, it became a desolation until this day.
You can visit the land of Edom today. It is desolate from Teman (Maan) in the north on to the south, just as the Old Testament prophets foretold. Tourists visit the remains of the city Petra (Sela). For centuries Edom has been a desolation in fulfillment of the judgment of God. The Edomites have not existed as a people since the time of the New Testament apostles, in fulfillment of the Old Testament prophets.
The Philistines
The Philistines lived in the southwestern part of the land of Canaan, on the plains along the Mediterranean Sea. Their cities were Gaza, Ashkelon, Ashdod, Ekron, Gath, and Gerar. They fought much against Israel. This is recorded in the Bible from the book of Judges to 2 Chronicles. The word of God prophesied against the Philistines that God would destroy them. In about 765 B.C., the prophet Amos recorded:
Amos 1:6-8: Thus says the LORD:
"For three transgressions of Gaza, and for four, I will not turn away its punishment,
Because they took captive the whole captivity
To deliver them up to Edom.
But I will send a fire upon the wall of Gaza,
Which shall devour its palaces.
I will cut off the inhabitant from Ashdod,
And the one who holds the scepter from Ashkelon;
I will turn My hand against Ekron,
And the remnant of the Philistines shall perish,"
Says the Lord GOD. (NKJB)
Also: Zephaniah 2:3-7. Jeremiah 47:4,5. Isaiah 14:28-31.
God used the Babylonians in 604 B.C. to destroy the Philistines. 2 Kings 24:7. The judgment of God came upon the Philistines. They were destroyed, and taken away to punish. (Lawrence Stager, "The Fury of Babylon." Biblical Archaeology Review, Jan./Feb.1996, pp. 56-77.) Today, Arabs live in Gaza, and Israelis live in Askelon and Ashdod. Ekron, Gath and Gerar are ruins. You can visit and see for yourself. The remnant of the Philistines perished, just as foretold by God in Amos.
Tyre
Tyre was a great Phoenician city on the coast just north of Israel. But the people were idol worshipers; their prince called himself God, and they rejoiced over Jerusalem's trouble. God foretold the destruction of Old Tyre:
Therefore thus saith the Lord God; Behold I am against thee, O Tyrus, and will cause many nations to come up against thee, . . . and I will make thee like the top of a rock: thou shalt be built no more; for I the Lord have spoken it, saith the Lord God. Ezekiel 26:3, 14 (KJV).
Nebuchadnezzar besieged Old Tyre for thirteen years before it fell, in about 573 B.C.5 Tyre submitted to the Persians in about 525 B.C.6 Then the prophecies were finally fulfilled in 332 B.C. when Alexander the Great took the island just offshore:
Alexander announced that he would visit their island and sacrifice to their Heracles. They replied that it would be more proper to sacrifice in the ancient temple of Baalmelqart on the mainland at Old Tyre; when he insisted that he must visit the island, they declared that they would admit neither Persian nor Macedonian into their city.7 Possessing no fleet, Alexander demolished Old Tyre, and with the debris built a mole 200 feet in breadth across the straits, and erected tower and war engines at its further end.8
Alexander the Great made Old Tyre like the top of a rock when he cleared it to build his roadway out to the island. Since that time, Old Tyre has not been rebuilt, just as the prophet of God had foretold.
Old Tyre has been like the top of the rock since the time of Alexander the Great. The fishermen dry their nets there. You can visit there and see for yourself the literal fulfillment of the prophecies of the Bible. For 2,300 years, Old Tyre has not been rebuilt, just as the judgment of God said.
Babylon
Babylon was a great city on the Euphrates River. Under Nebuchadnezzar, the Babylonians destroyed Jerusalem and took the people captive to Babylon in 586 B.C. Isaiah and Jeremiah foretold the desolation of Babylon:
And Babylon, the glory of kingdoms, the beauty of the Chaldees excellency, shall be as when God overthrew Sodom and Gomorrah. It shall never be inhabited, neither shall it be dwelt in from generation to generation neither shall the Arabian pitch tent there; neither shall the shepherds make their fold there. Isaiah 13:19-20 (KJV). (Before 680 B.C.)
Because of the wrath of the Lord it shall not be inhabited, but it shall be wholly desolate: every one that goeth by Babylon shall be astonished, and hiss at all her plagues. Jeremiah 50:13 (KJV).
In 539 B.C., Babylon fell to the Medes and the Persians. Its decline was gradual. The Parthians destroyed much of the city. In about A.D. 75 the merchants moved.
With the departure of the merchants, Babylon was left to its doom. Shortly afterwards the Latin author Pliny stated that the temple of Marduk was still standing but that in every other respect the place had become a desert. In A.D. 116 the Roman emperor Trajan wintered in the city during his campaign against the Parthians. Attracted to it by its widespread fame, he found nothing but mounds and stones and ruins.9
The Germans excavated Babylon's ruins. Their maps show the desolation.10 Arab villages are outside of what was Babylon. For 1900 years Babylon has been uninhabited. You can visit the ruins of Babylon in order to see the literal fulfillment of the Bible prophecies.
Egypt
At one time the Egyptian Empire included Canaan, Syria and Lebanon, reaching to the upper Euphrates. The future of Egypt was foretold in detail:
It shall be the lowliest of the kingdoms; it shall never again exalt itself above the nations, for I will diminish them so that they will not rule over the nations any more. Ezekiel 29:15 (NKJV).
. . . and there shall be no more a prince of the land of Egypt: and I will put fear in the land of Egypt. Ezekiel 30:13 (KJV).
History shows the fulfillment of these prophecies. Egypt has not ruled over the nations since the time of the prophet Ezekiel. Egypt has been ruled by the Persians, the Greeks, the Romans, Constantinople, the Saracen Arabs, the Mamelukes, the Turks, the French, and the English. In recent years, Egypt has not had princes.11
For 2,500 years Egypt has been a lowly nation, just as the prophet foretold. You can visit Egypt and see that Egypt is truly one of the lowliest of nations.
Israel
The destruction of Jerusalem by the Romans was foretold in Deuteronomy 29:49-68, and Daniel 9:26-27. These prophecies were fulfilled in A.D. 70. Josephus recorded the detailed fulfillment of the siege and destruction of Jerusalem including the mother eating her child.12 The scattering of Israel among the nations, if they disobeyed God, was foretold:
And I will scatter you among the heathen, and will draw out a sword after you: . . . Leviticus 26:33 (KJV).
And the LORD shall scatter thee among all people, from the one end of the earth even unto the other: . . . and among these nations shalt thou find no ease, . . . Deuteronomy 28:64-65 (KJV).
Israel ceased to exist as a nation from A.D. 70 until 1948. The Jews have truly been scattered among all people, from one end of the earth even to the other during 1900 years. Among the nations they have found no ease, but have been persecuted, just as the scriptures foretold. The nations of the world have persecuted them and killed them. During World War II, Hitler had six million Jews killed.
The amazing thing is that the Jews have survived. This was foretold in Jeremiah:
For I am with thee, saith the Lord, to save thee: though I make a full end of all nations whither I have scattered thee, yet I will not make a full end of thee: but I will correct thee in measure, and will not leave thee altogether unpunished. Jeremiah 30:11 (KJV).
The Babylonians, Philistines and Edomites do not now exist. But the Jews still exist in spite of dispersion and persecution, just as was foretold.
Babylon, Nineveh, Old Tyre and Petra are desolate. They have not been rebuilt. But Jerusalem now stands. Here is empirical evidence!
You can see the fulfillment of prophecy with your own eyes. The Old Testament was written before Christ. It was translated into Greek before Christ. 1900 years of history and conditions which can be seen today testify to the supernatural inspiration of the writers of the Bible. They claimed that they wrote the word which the one living God gave to them. That is demonstrated.
The Return to Israel
Israel became a nation again in 1948. From A.D. 70 on, the Jews were scattered among the nations, and Israel ceased to be a nation. However, in our time, the Jews have been returning to Israel, and Israel has again become a nation after 1878 years. The Bible prophets foretold all this in detail, hundreds of years before it happened.
The prophet Isaiah foretold that God would gather His people, Israel, a second time during the time of Messiah, the root of Jesse. Let us read this prophecy which was given about 700 B.C., about 2700 years ago.
Isaiah 11:10-12:
Then it will come about in that day
That the nations will resort to the root of Jesse,
Who will stand as a signal for the peoples;
And His resting place will be glorious.
Then it will happen on that day that the Lord
Will again recover the second time with His hand
The remnant of His people, who will remain,
From Assyria, Egypt, Pathros, Cush, Elam, Shinar, Hamath,
And from the islands of the sea.
And He will lift up a standard for the nations,
And will assemble the banished ones of Israel,
And will gather the dispersed of Judah
From the four corners of the earth.
You will notice that after the nations have resorted to the root of Jesse, a branch from his roots, Messiah (Isa.11:1), then the Lord will a second time recover and assemble the people of Israel and Judah from all over the world. This has happened and is happening right now. (See also Joel 3:1,2, 7. Amos 9:14, 15. Hosea 3:4, 5. Jeremiah 23:5-8. Zechariah 10:6-10. Ezekiel 39:25-29.)
Jesus was a prophet of God. In Luke, chapter 21, Jesus foretold the destruction of Jerusalem by the Romans, which happened in A.D. 70. Let us read one important verse of what Jesus said about the Jews:
Luke 21:24: and they will fall by the edge of the sword, and will be led captive into all the nations; and Jerusalem will be trampled under foot by the Gentiles until the times of the Gentiles be fulfilled.
Notice: Jesus foretold that the Jews would be led captive into all nations. That happened and the Jews have continued to be in all nations even until our time. Jesus foretold that Jerusalem would be trampled under foot of the Gentiles. That was fulfilled in history. How long did Jesus say that the Gentiles would have Jerusalem? "Until the times of the Gentiles be fulfilled." By this statement, Jesus showed that the Jews would get Jerusalem back. When was this fulfilled? On June 7, 1967, Israel took back Jerusalem; Jewish soldiers stormed into the city. The prophecies of Jesus were fulfilled in detail. Here is empirical data, historical proof that God exists, that God has spoken through His prophets and that Jesus is a prophet of God. They are proof that God has revealed Himself to man. They are proof that God rules in history and judges mankind.
For no prophecy ever came by the will of man: but men spake from God, being moved by the Holy Spirit. 2 Peter 1:21 (ASV).
And so we have the prophetic word made more sure, to which you do well to pay attention as to a lamp shining in a dark place, until the day dawns and the morning star arises in your hearts. 2 Peter 1:19.
So, after such facts, it is just impossible to believe that this God isnt real. We wouldnt waste our time believing in a God whom we arent sure of his presence.
