This is a tangent to my other post made a few minutes earlier, "Salvation and a non-literal view of Genesis." What is meant by belief? I believe that the Earth is round. Why? I've seen pictures. I believe that water will freeze if left in the freezer. Why? I can put a glass of water in the freezer and check on it in an hour. And on and on and on.
At church, when my pastor talks about salvation and puts it into simple terms that everyone can understand, he uses the ABC's. Admit you're a sinner. Believe that God sent his son, Jesus, and that Jesus died on the cross for our sins. Confess that Christ is Lord and that you believe in him and want to be saved. When belief is used in this way, it's almost like a command..."Go to your room," "Eat your breakfast," "Go brush your teeth." So, he's telling me to "Believe in Jesus." Ok, what does that truly mean? Is belief an ingrained, involuntary view, or is it a decision...a mindset that you put yourself in regardless of doubts, fears, etc?
You see, I battle tremendously with science and the Bible. Some things literal, some things allegorical, creation/evolution, radiometric dating, blah, blah, blah. These things produce a level of doubt in my mind that I can not erase. So, do I believe in God? I want to more than anything in the world. How's that for an answer? I guess I'm an agnostic in that I don't know. Now, I can hold the viewpoint that God created the world, he created man, and he sent his son to save us. In other words, I can voluntarily decide that I'm going to hold to this mindset in the face of the many doubts and questions I have. Is that belief? Like in the paragraph above, I'm "commanding" myself to hold these things as true, even though I don't know.
It's odd for me. I say I'm an agnostic, but I go to church, and I live my life like the Bible says a Christian should (as best I can). Now, I don't even feel that I'm a Christian yet because of the things I just wrote above. Yet, I feel remorseful when I have sinned. I consciously make an effort not to curse, not to look at other women (I'm married), to raise my son in a Christian environment, etc. It's as though I'm jumping to part B when I haven't even finished part A.
So, when do I know if I have "belief" in God?
At church, when my pastor talks about salvation and puts it into simple terms that everyone can understand, he uses the ABC's. Admit you're a sinner. Believe that God sent his son, Jesus, and that Jesus died on the cross for our sins. Confess that Christ is Lord and that you believe in him and want to be saved. When belief is used in this way, it's almost like a command..."Go to your room," "Eat your breakfast," "Go brush your teeth." So, he's telling me to "Believe in Jesus." Ok, what does that truly mean? Is belief an ingrained, involuntary view, or is it a decision...a mindset that you put yourself in regardless of doubts, fears, etc?
You see, I battle tremendously with science and the Bible. Some things literal, some things allegorical, creation/evolution, radiometric dating, blah, blah, blah. These things produce a level of doubt in my mind that I can not erase. So, do I believe in God? I want to more than anything in the world. How's that for an answer? I guess I'm an agnostic in that I don't know. Now, I can hold the viewpoint that God created the world, he created man, and he sent his son to save us. In other words, I can voluntarily decide that I'm going to hold to this mindset in the face of the many doubts and questions I have. Is that belief? Like in the paragraph above, I'm "commanding" myself to hold these things as true, even though I don't know.
It's odd for me. I say I'm an agnostic, but I go to church, and I live my life like the Bible says a Christian should (as best I can). Now, I don't even feel that I'm a Christian yet because of the things I just wrote above. Yet, I feel remorseful when I have sinned. I consciously make an effort not to curse, not to look at other women (I'm married), to raise my son in a Christian environment, etc. It's as though I'm jumping to part B when I haven't even finished part A.
So, when do I know if I have "belief" in God?