I want to bring your attention to Galatians 5:13-6:10
Specifically in verse 14 it tells us if we have the Spirit we're not under the law, but that isn't really the point I want to make here...
If we're still under the law and just have to obey it why has Paul listed the attributes of the Spirit and flesh? Have you ever considered it? If we're just supposed to be obedient to the letter then he can just keep hammering it home, there is no need to make this distinction at all. He does it to notice in our own behavior what is towards God and what is not outside any law because this matters more.
There are important statements like we are not free to do what we want because the Spirit does not want what the flesh wants, so it is not license for a free for all... we are still to be righteousness, but now it is explicitly about better expressing love in our lives not merely doing what we're told to get a reward. When we find love itself all the reward God has is given immediately, now it is for us to integrate and apply it... but you don't seem to have it yet at all so your conclusions are misguided.
That's not so bad but you also refuse to see the error despite Scripture you say is written by God telling you your approach is wrong.
Lets be clear about that too, I am not asserting my opinion but telling you what the bible says.
You say you're forced to obey it, but it says the Torah hardens us and veils our heart and I'm telling you that's what it has done in you.
I am saying Jesus wants our perfection and the Torah doesn't provide it, but you point at what Scripture says is a lesser covenant whose glory has become nothing due to how much ours surpasses it.
You need to really comprehend all of this, spend at least as much time as you do on Moses' writings reading the gospel because currently you're far short... you are alienated from Christ and fallen from grace yet think you're his disciple.