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Does one have to be totally certain that God is in charge and that one's salvation is certain through Jesus Christ? Or is a "wait and see" attitude sufficient?
I just don't have that certainty. I call myself a "Christian" only because I make the choice to join God's side and follow the commandments. I find the worldliness, pride, self-aggrandizement, and brutality of "the world" to be deeply repulsive.
The issue is that I still see nothing but chaos everywhere. Nothing in nature or in human affairs seems to be aimed at an ultimate grand plan or any form of conceivable order. Even the "order" also has many elements of randomness. There is no greater example than the flaws in mind and body that cause some people to choose God and most other people to reject him. The "order" in living matter is severely overstated. It takes a certain dose of genetically inherited stupidity and insanity to choose Satan's world because it is pure destruction. It also takes a severe lack of natural imagination to choose the life of a brutal selfish animal and to enjoy it. There needs to be a first cause to free will unless it's caused by some kind of magical ethereal essence. I'm still not sure if God exists at all. All I know is that the world is a hellhole and I'm sticking to his side. I'm not even sure if Christ rose from the dead. All I know is that he is the only hope. If he isn't real than there is no hope at all.
I also do not notice God working in anything in my own life despite near constant prayer. I've only proclaimed to be a Christian for 4 years now so maybe it's too early to notice anything?
I just don't have that certainty. I call myself a "Christian" only because I make the choice to join God's side and follow the commandments. I find the worldliness, pride, self-aggrandizement, and brutality of "the world" to be deeply repulsive.
The issue is that I still see nothing but chaos everywhere. Nothing in nature or in human affairs seems to be aimed at an ultimate grand plan or any form of conceivable order. Even the "order" also has many elements of randomness. There is no greater example than the flaws in mind and body that cause some people to choose God and most other people to reject him. The "order" in living matter is severely overstated. It takes a certain dose of genetically inherited stupidity and insanity to choose Satan's world because it is pure destruction. It also takes a severe lack of natural imagination to choose the life of a brutal selfish animal and to enjoy it. There needs to be a first cause to free will unless it's caused by some kind of magical ethereal essence. I'm still not sure if God exists at all. All I know is that the world is a hellhole and I'm sticking to his side. I'm not even sure if Christ rose from the dead. All I know is that he is the only hope. If he isn't real than there is no hope at all.
I also do not notice God working in anything in my own life despite near constant prayer. I've only proclaimed to be a Christian for 4 years now so maybe it's too early to notice anything?