(always said i'd write about this when it was resolved)
"the lack of a literary journal and the agonies that ensue"
no one answered the phone
so i knew that the package had not yet arrived
and wouldn't arrive in time.
i sank into bed,
falling prostrate unto my sheets
with my eyes filled with tears that i refused to cry
i had everything riding on this arrival
since i had a release party to attend in a few hours
and without it, nothing would be there to release
shame and sadness threatened to overcome me
as i had tried to get this settled weeks in advance,
but problems kept on occuring -- and this was my third try.
first, i had sat there with them as the order was made
everything went by me and i thought it'd be okay
but for some reason, that order just disappeared.
i realized how blasé i had been and tried to apply myself more
but the second order came, and much to my surprize,
it was half right, half wrong.
i laughed through those tears since i had half believed
and half feared, and realized i need to have faith wholeheartedly
... that's all it would take
so i prayed, and i smiled, and that Day drew near
and i called the director personally,
who personally oversaw the printing
as the hours drew near, i kept on a-calling
and the promises kept on coming,
because, after all, hadn't she been there?
yet despite the work she saw done,
the office had closed and no package had come
and now i had an hour or so to get dressed to go with nothing to show
frustrated and overwhelmed
i got myself dressed and collected the things i would need
and decided to just go
and as i walked outside, my eyes rose from that grey concrete
to contemplate the sky,
which was awash with the tail end of a sunset.
i saw the blues and the greens dominate the horizon
as they gradually gave way to a black sky and a canopy of stars
and i just continued to stand and stare.
i realized that the God who had painted that majestic sky
was in charge of my life, loving me,
guiding me
so i hopped on that bus and went to the release party
and by the grace of God,
the fact that we had nothing to release was a non-issue
the package did come, though
a weekend late
with a major discount.
thank-you God.
"the lack of a literary journal and the agonies that ensue"
no one answered the phone
so i knew that the package had not yet arrived
and wouldn't arrive in time.
i sank into bed,
falling prostrate unto my sheets
with my eyes filled with tears that i refused to cry
i had everything riding on this arrival
since i had a release party to attend in a few hours
and without it, nothing would be there to release
shame and sadness threatened to overcome me
as i had tried to get this settled weeks in advance,
but problems kept on occuring -- and this was my third try.
first, i had sat there with them as the order was made
everything went by me and i thought it'd be okay
but for some reason, that order just disappeared.
i realized how blasé i had been and tried to apply myself more
but the second order came, and much to my surprize,
it was half right, half wrong.
i laughed through those tears since i had half believed
and half feared, and realized i need to have faith wholeheartedly
... that's all it would take
so i prayed, and i smiled, and that Day drew near
and i called the director personally,
who personally oversaw the printing
as the hours drew near, i kept on a-calling
and the promises kept on coming,
because, after all, hadn't she been there?
yet despite the work she saw done,
the office had closed and no package had come
and now i had an hour or so to get dressed to go with nothing to show
frustrated and overwhelmed
i got myself dressed and collected the things i would need
and decided to just go
and as i walked outside, my eyes rose from that grey concrete
to contemplate the sky,
which was awash with the tail end of a sunset.
i saw the blues and the greens dominate the horizon
as they gradually gave way to a black sky and a canopy of stars
and i just continued to stand and stare.
i realized that the God who had painted that majestic sky
was in charge of my life, loving me,
guiding me
so i hopped on that bus and went to the release party
and by the grace of God,
the fact that we had nothing to release was a non-issue
the package did come, though
a weekend late
with a major discount.
thank-you God.
