We are 9

[vlinder]

To Life Immortal

Hello. We are multiple and most of us know about Lord Jesus. Phyllis, myself and Lennie are Christian. People have told me I should witness and tell the others about Lord Jesus, but I just don't know how.

I was diagnosed with DID this January and I'm still sorting things out. I believe that I will go to heaven if I do good and be nice and go to church. I want to be Lord Jesus' friend, but it is hard.

Some may know me as epiphany; i am same person. I would like the people who answered epiphany's post to let me PM them. I need advice and prayers and I think there are other multiples/dissociatives here.

How do you live with the others? and Mary is crying again for Mommy but Mommy is dead. Phyllis tries to take care of the littles.

Peace and Long Life
** the Pascha Family **

 

[puppy]

hi vlinder

i hope your well and pleased to meet you

forgive me for making this post and tell me to go away if you want but i dont know much about your disorder, only what ive read or seen on various television programmes but could you tell me more about how you cope on a day to day basis now you know what youve been diagnosed as, what was your reaction when you found out ?

sorry ive never actually spoken to someone with DID before and im interested to know more about you

*hugs*


xxx

 

[vlinder]

To Life Immortal

could you tell me more about how you cope on a day to day basis now you know what youve been diagnosed as, what was your reaction when you found out ?

sorry ive never actually spoken to someone with DID before and im interested to know more about you

I hear the others in my head. It sounds like a family of people. I have huge memory gaps and dont remember things too well. I can see when the others are out and aware most of the time.

There are nine of us:
Mary is a toddler. She cries a lot and asks for Mommy. She is beginning to talk more.

Hannah is 4 and very shy. She hold her hands in an odd way. She like to draw, especially cats.

Lennie is 8 and very intelligent and friendly. She knows more about the others than I do. Lennie likes computers and graphic art. Lennie will come out when I dont know what to say or do around strangers. She is better with people than I.

Kit is around 14 or so. He never comes out and he is very hurt and injured.

Thomas is 17 and angry. He doesn't like older children and teens and will curse and say mean things. Thomas defends the littles.

Phyllis is 35 and a twin. She is a mother figure to the others.

Phillip is Phyllis' brother. He loves sports and has an earthy sense of humour. He is playful and silly.

I am Vlinder. I am the main person. I am a web designer and have one cat.

Roger is the oldest. He is the organizer and advisor.

I am learning how to live with this. I knew for a long time that something was wrong, but I was afriad to tell anyone. I thought I would be put away if I told anyone. My lawyer was the first one I told about this. I had to resign my job because I had an angina attack and I was trying to get disability. I told the lawyer about what was happening and then told Bette the therapist. Bette saw Lennie Mary and Phyllis and told me how they acted.

I was scared when I first told someone, but I feel better about it now. Bette says it is a response to trauma/abuse. I was hunted down for 3 years as a child and isolated from others for a long time. I never felt quite human; I didn't belong anywhere. Now I have some answers I can work with.

The hard part about being DID is the lost time. I cant remember much of childhood or adolescence (sp?). My memory isn't good. I am afraid of losing control and that an alter may come out at the wrong time. I have no friends except online. Friendships and relationships are very hard for me.

Becoming Christian is a challenge in the sense that people say Christianity is a relationship, not a religion. How can I have a relationship with God when I cant have one with people? I go to an Eastern Orthodox church I like very much. The littles like it too. I chant/sing during Divine Liturgy and enjoy receiving the sacraments. I hope to learn more about relationships and being Lord Jesus' friend. I lost so much time and I hope that God will give me time to learn.

Peace and Long Life
** The Pascha Family **

 

[puppy]

well i admire you greatly for being so open n sharing this with me, i wish i had your courage ! this shows you to be more human than alot of people, more intouch with yourself which is great

it is good that you are able to talk about it as im sure many others out there will never be able to which is a great shame

web design is a great career and i wish i had the intelligence and patience to learn more about it, my boyfriend is very good at it though, right now i work in retail and its given me alot of confidence and i really enjoy it so i think its my niche !

im helen by the way, im 31 (32 next month) and ive been living in scotland for the past 2 years although im born and bred in england, i havent been diagnosed with anything although i have in the past taken medication for depression but now im coping without any meds and working part time and enjoying life

you, yourself vlinder seem to be a very lovely person and deserve gods love as well as friends love too which im sure you will find some day soon

many blessings to you all

*and hugs*


helen xxx

 

[I'ddie4him]

I hope this isn't the wrong thing to say, But, Is this like a multiple personality ?
I would like to help anyway I can, Just contact me if you would like to talk.

 

[TheThirdLink]

WOW! You're a very special person. Sometimes I have NO ONE to talk to.





Hi! My name is Deane (pronounced "Dee-Ann") Renata. I recently turned 17...female.....an adolescent. I'm an Independent Baptist. Like Hannah, I love to draw...especially cats.

PM me any time.

 

[sr. scholls]

DID is disassociative identity disorder, also referred to as multiple personality disorder (please correct me if I'm wrong Vlinder..) I found a few articles on it online and added a few links if that's alright.

http://www.sidran.org/didbr.html

http://www.cmhawrb.on.ca/disassociation.htm

 

[PuNkChIcK]

in the medical community, it is no longer refered to as MPD....a few years ago, can't remember the exact date, it was changed in the DSM-IV from MPD-DID....but many people that aren't doctors still refer to it as MPD

 

[Mr.Cheese]

I spoke to a multiple on MSN the othre day. There were 17 of him. I got a book to read up on DID, and dissociation in general.
Nice to meet you guys.

 

[EbonNelumbo]

Hello there Vlinder. Yes thank you for your honesty indeed. I have been diagnosed with a couple other things and know how hard it can be to open up. Dont be afraid, we are all here to help you and love you. Feel free to PM me if you wanna chat

 

[bnkessler]

This is a very tough thing to deal with. I have a few friends who have this and I have seen how it effects them. If there is anything I can do to help you, please let me know. Other than that, here's a hug (((HUG)))
xx,
Briana

 

[TheMainException]

Hey Vlinder, you can PM me if you would like...I love to hear what other people have to say and will listen if you need someone to vent to.

There is more to going to heaven than being good, nice and going to church...like you mentioned in your next post, it's about a relationship...Vlinder, if you, just you, not the littles or Phyllis or Phillip or Thomas, only YOU take the time to learn of God and repent of your sins, accept that you are a sinner like the rest of us, need Christ, and speak out with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, you will be saved, tell the rest of the Pascha family that too...don't let them go to hell, that would not be cool...at least warn them.

I want to mention something to you that you may not agree with, but could be possible, just POSSIBLE, I'm not saying that it is true...those other 8 could be demons living inside of you...that might be why you have so many people in one body. It's just a suggestion, but even at this moment I'm doubting it...so, just say hi to them for me and let them know that God loves them...bye!

 

[hischildsindik]

Vlinder,
It is very nice to meet you and the others. I've know a couple of people with DID/MPD in the last 8 years or so. I understand what can cause it, and for that I am sorry for what you and the others when threw to have this happen.

I can understand that christianity could be hard for you. Just do what you can to read God's Word, the bible and get to know God that way. And pray and talk to him. You might be able to get some childrens bible story books to read to the little ones you have, teach them about God that way. God allowed you to become a multiple/DID so you could have a way to cope with what happened to you. It was sad for God to allow the abuse, but he knows all of you and loves all of you. Just remind the others that. God loves you and them, Vlinder.

God bless you and if you care to pm me, please do so.
Cindy

 

[vlinder]

To Life Immortal

Thank you all very much. I will talk with you all later.

Peace and Long Life
~*~ Vlinder ~*~

 

[vlinder]

Hello I am Lennie

I would like to have books about Lord Jesus and read. Vlinder will buy us toys soon and I saw a bible colouring book i want. Hannah likes to draw and colour stuff too.

We go to church in Upper Darby and we like going there. I like to sing and we take bus and train to go.

People here are nice and understand. We know about Lord Jesus from going to church and we read what people say about Him online too. Mary too little and Hannah I don't know, but I understand. Tommy i don't know but Phyllis Christian too and Vlinder.

Vlinder and Phyllis say its ok for me to pm people. Just so they know I'm little and they can see what i type.

 

[vlinder]

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Good evening. This is Phyllis. I care for the young ones. Thank you for speaking with us and showing your concern. It makes us happy that people care. LaWise and Cindy, we will tell the others. We are mostly Orthodox, but some of us dont really think about God much. Thomas is too angry and Kit is too hurt. Roger is quiet about the subject and my brother, well, he is a nice person and I think he does care about spiritual things even though he can be quite silly at times.

I think God does care, but Vlinder has problems believing that God and people do care about her. Love is hard for her to understand and scary. She is doing better since she became a Christian. It is a hard long road, but we will not travel alone.

Peace and Long Life
~*~ The Pascha Family ~*~

 

[Debbi]

I've been diagnosed with DID too. But I don't have the big time gaps though. I have several alters though. No, they aren't demons. I go to church alot, a pentecostal church and they would know if someone had demons. I used to go to a church that thought it was demons but they couldn't cast them out and i got seriously hurt instead. I read on the internet that sometimes only God knows the difference in alters and demons, so send them to Jesus and he will take care of them. The littles would love Jesus, demons don't. I have been diagnosed with other mental illnesses too, though. I was bad about cutting or burning though, didn't always remember why though. I don't fit in anywhere and is feel like a reject. People don't know enough about DID and don't know what to say, so I don't tell people much that I have DID.

 

[vlinder]

To Life Immortal

If you need someone to speak with, you can PM me anytime.

All of us need support now and then.

You are right about not telling people about DID; people don't understand. I only tell when necessary, like the doctor or my lawyer or the therapist. My family really doesn't know and I didnot tell my priest either.

It is a real challenge dealing with this. I believe that God will help us.

Peace and Long Life
~*~ Vlinder ~*~

 

[vlinder]

To Life Immortal

Hi i'm Lennie and I drew a kitty for a friend's cat was sick.

http://ca.geocities.com/ibisxara/pix/kitty.gif

Peace and Long Life
Lennie

 

[vlinder]

To Life Immortal

Great news!!!! We are now 8. Roger left us yesterday. He was the oldest and we are glad he left because he had bad thoughts about sex and stuff. He was homosexual and had bad dreams. It made us not feel good . I am so happy that he is gone. We will be able to get much closer to God now and that Holy Spirit will help us fight against bad sex thoughts. I will continue to receive sacraments and pray.

Peace and Long Life
~*~ Vlinder/Balafenn ~*~