Waste of Life

[FlaviusAetius]

In 23 years I've just existed...not lived. I've never dated or had any real friends, the last time I had people I could call my friend was a neighbor from middle school who still moved away a year later.

Choosing to believe in Christianity also feels like a mistake. I look around and all the godless are so happy, friends, with active sex lives and no moral issues. Nothing about change bothers them and issues like killing the unborn doesnt even phase them. As a reward they're free to kill off defective children while Christians are guilt tripped by God to raise these subhuman or go to he'll. Then there is me no social bonds outside family, shut in and don't even have God who'll send me to he'll when I die.

All I feel is hate, I have nothing worthwhile about myself. Truth be told I'm so worthless and the years that are supposed to be happiest are empty.

I'm 23, from here life just gets worse. I'm dead inside.

 

[Jeshu]

In 23 years I've just existed...not lived. I've never dated or had any real friends, the last time I had people I could call my friend was a neighbor from middle school who still moved away a year later.

Choosing to believe in Christianity also feels like a mistake. I look around and all the godless are so happy, friends, with active sex lives and no moral issues. Nothing about change bothers them and issues like killing the unborn doesnt even phase them. As a reward they're free to kill off defective children while Christians are guilt tripped by God to raise these subhuman or go to he'll. Then there is me no social bonds outside family, shut in and don't even have God who'll send me to he'll when I die.

All I feel is hate, I have nothing worthwhile about myself. Truth be told I'm so worthless and the years that are supposed to be happiest are empty.

I'm 23, from here life just gets worse. I'm dead inside.

Christianity as a religion doesn't add up but faith in God's love - Jesus Christ - is so life changing. He got me away from my misery. What you sow you shall harvest the good book says. That is not all it is the only book in the world that knows how to get your good life back.

I advise you to die to hate and learn to hate the real culprit behind the misery that we experience down here - the devil. Hate is an unholy fire that consumes good things within our hearts but hate evil and you are at par with God Himself.

Instead of hating, learn to love God, yourself because God does, and your neighbour as yourself. Practise compassion, kindness, and gentleness, such things pleases God and robs the devil of his chance to rip you off and leave you with nothing but the stench of death in your nostrils.

Praying for you

 

[orangeness365]

This is an age old question, about why do the wicked prosper? The bible talks about it a lot. You have to think about things in terms of eternity, and not just this life.

Try reading all of Jeremiah 12, as it asks the same question and contains the Lord's answer. There is also Psalm 37 especially Psalm 37:16
16Better is the little that the righteous has
than the abundance of many wicked.

Also Psalm 73. All those passages are about how the wicked prosper, but ultimately the message is that it is better to go to heaven with God than to become wicked and gain much on the earth because of it.

Feeling hate all the time is the opposite of love, and I think you really need to pray for God's peace and love to enter your heart instead, so that you aren't so miserable all of the time. You say that you're dead on the inside, maybe try dying to the flesh and being alive in Christ?
Romans 6:11
Even so consider yourselves to be dead to sin, but alive to God in Christ Jesus. - See more at: http://bible.knowing-jesus.com/topics/Death-To-Self#sthash.3eJJFRob.dpuf

http://bible.knowing-jesus.com/topics/Death-To-Self

It sucks that you haven't had any relationships or friendships. It's really hard to not fit in for some people. Currently I don't have any friends or a relationship either in real life. I mostly blame myself now for that, and have grown weary of trying to make friendships, since they are so hard to build and so easy to break. You say that you have not lived, just existed. I'm guessing that is because you only have relationships with your family? What would it take for you to feel like you have lived? Don't be so certain that you are going to hell. We aren't as Christians supposed to predict who goes to heaven and who goes to hell, although it is tempting. I often wonder if I'm going to hell when I die, and if so, what it is going to be like? How can I possibly endure that if I can't even endure an easy life in this life?

Romans 10:6-9
6But the righteousness based on faith says, “Do not say in your heart, ‘Who will ascend into heaven?’” (that is, to bring Christ down) 7“or ‘Who will descend into the abyss?’” (that is, to bring Christ up from the dead). 8But what does it say? “The word is near you, in your mouth and in your heart” (that is, the word of faith that we proclaim); 9because, if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.

 

[Tigger45]

May the Lord's face shine upon you.

 

[Tigger45]

May the Lord's face shine upon you.

 

[Noxot]

In 23 years I've just existed...not lived. I've never dated or had any real friends, the last time I had people I could call my friend was a neighbor from middle school who still moved away a year later.

Choosing to believe in Christianity also feels like a mistake. I look around and all the godless are so happy, friends, with active sex lives and no moral issues. Nothing about change bothers them and issues like killing the unborn doesnt even phase them. As a reward they're free to kill off defective children while Christians are guilt tripped by God to raise these subhuman or go to he'll. Then there is me no social bonds outside family, shut in and don't even have God who'll send me to he'll when I die.

All I feel is hate, I have nothing worthwhile about myself. Truth be told I'm so worthless and the years that are supposed to be happiest are empty.

I'm 23, from here life just gets worse. I'm dead inside.

better to be honest than fake. how could one even find the truth if they lie to themselves and lie about how they feel? why care about anything if God does not matter? why care about God? why ask questions? why value happiness over sorrow? so many questions to ask. why are unborn children called "subhumans"? why are people not phased by things that matter? why do people feel they have nothing worthwhile of themselves? why does a person consider themselves to be worthless? what makes a person dead inside? how can believing in Christianity be a mistake? what does "living" mean? why does sex matter so much to people?

 

[Poster0]

Its normal for you to feel the darkness in this world, because it is indeed dark. I feel it and see it all the time both in myself and in everything else. I often get weary from it. All i can say is thank God for His light in this dark world. This light shines into this world but it doesn't come from this world, it reminds me of the sun shining from above, and we can focus our attention on that instead of this world. This scripture guides my attention.


2 Corinthians 4:18 while we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal.

 

[zippy2]

Son, you have got to get a new perspective. As I was reading these posts, I glanced at brother Tiger's tag line which talks abut our brothers and sisters in Christ in Syria and other places who are DYING in the Name of Jesus. Son, the world is starting to fall apart around us, and we need you to be strong. We need your witness. We need all of us. Do not despair. God is with us and He loves us. You can witness to folks online. You can encourage...you are needed. Please allow the Lord to use you.

Your sister in Him.
Zippy2