Was this OCD or me?

[flowerforever7]

Hi,

I struggle with intruisive blasphemous thoughts, and want to know if part of a situation this morning was ocd or me.

This morning I was waking up and thought about something that is supposed to arrive in the mail any day now. I thought about checking the tracking number to see where it was. After I thought this, I felt convicted that I am feening on this too much. And decided not to track the package. But after the convicted feeling I felt frusterated about not being able to track it and this phrase came to my head "I'm not greedy like you are." and thought of the Holy Spirit. I did not mean the phrase, this stupid phrase pops into my head occasionally. It did this morning, but what I am concerned about is the frusteration I felt behind the phrase. Even though I did not mean those words, could it have been a form of railing at God's Spirit because of frusteration? Now I feel like I may not be able to use what is coming in the mail because it is tainted because I had that thought (mainly feeling). I don't want to by using it approve that feeling of frusteration and any railing against God's Spirit by using it, at the same time part of my OCD (I think) is backing away from tainted things because of blasphemous thoughts.... What is your HONEST opinion, (not what would necessarily may make me feel good)? Thanks.

 

[SoldierOfSoul]

What is your HONEST opinion, (not what would necessarily may make me feel good)?

My honest opinion is that you have OCD, these thoughts come because you hate them and try to stop them from coming. The fact is: when you try and stop those thoughts they will come even faster. Try and not to focus on blasphemous thoughts when they come, just let them pass by so to speak. Know that they are not from you but from the enemy and OCD. Even if a part of you seems to want the thoughts, know that your inner being, your heart, hates the thoughts and wants only to please God. Trust that the Lord sees your heart and know that He does not condemn you for thoughts you cannot control.

 

[babegirl111]

Honestly it sound like a huge case of OCD. Your packages are not tainted and you wanting to track them (there is nothing wrong with that at all). What ever is coming in the mail...USE IT, it is not tainted!! Believe me I used to be just like you feeling like I couldnt do something because of a thought or having to wait days to do it. It is your OCD, and I have also noticed that when I get frustrated or angry my OCD is the worst. Basically like I said in another post "I feel like I can't get mad like a normal person, because the thoughts basically attack me when I get frustrated", its all apart of Ocd!!

 

[dabro]

It's OCD trusr me. You analyzing to see whether it was or not and inturn that tells you that your obsessing. It's a hard battle we go thru but we can get thru it with each other.

 

[tripletiger1200]

I've done this before. It's just the ocd.