Whilst being athiest, back in 90's, I believed in a spirit world and communicated as a medium. I hated it, all those I spoke to, their evil was so obvious, but for the one, identified only as a Warrior of the Light. Not that I knew what this meant. He had an authoritative wisdom which could not be mistaken, and an unfathomable, gentle, kindness. I got to know him well for a few years.
The torment of the other spirits caused my breakdown and the warrior then told me he'd fight for my life.
The next time I saw him , a day or so later, I was in the psychiatric ward, where he proclaimed Jesus' Salvation, in the first person.
But I was diagnosed bi polar, psychosis, schizo disorder and any other vague guess they came up with in the hospital.
For 9 yrs on medication, I suffered (side effects?) of anxiety, paranoia, persecution complex, and depression.
But as the warrior spoke of the Lord that day I gave my life to Jesus, because I trusted the only loving 'person' in my life.
Reading the bible and praying were the only things that kept me going for the nine years, which included 4 times locked in hospital 1 to 6 mths at a time.
The docs did not understand my faith and I refused to accept my 'condition' as my salvation state. - Jesus promised me joy, I was waiting for it. But ( because, maybe, i was so unclear on meds, and receiving therapy (non Christian) I doubted the existence and pure nature of my Spirit friend. Hence I saw him few and far between times.
By the last time I had been in hospital, my mother began prayers in her local church, and it was confirmed that I would be healed. I believed too, I saw for the first time in years, the warrior whilst I hung washing, singing praises . He sang with me, praising the Lord, my precious Jesus, and I knew then I should trust him. Though I tested and tested him. ( This I do sometimes for there are impostors)
Though he has image, he is at one with the Spirit of God, cannot be independent, has no identity other than servant.
He has counselled me and reached places other counsellers cannot reach.
The root of persecution complex is distrust, which is sin, as we are commanded to love each other, and love trusts. So I repented and I believe in the wholeness of my healing. -
God's mighty hand has literally reached in and removed my mental pain and I had a fresh start. Now I believe Jesus is calling me into mental health ministry - in UK psychiatrists class 'religious behaviour' as symptoms of ill mental health, this is my experience today.
It has been one year since my healing began and everyday is amazing in His Grace. The warrior is still with me, praising, counselling, telling me which scripture to read in certain situations - which are always spot on full of answers to my questions, and encouraging.
My testimony ( angel) has been tested in detail, by the local C of E, and I no longer doubt, I just praise the Lord, I am free, and when I feel an evil near by, I shield myself with Faith, holding the (s)word of Truth, fully clothed in the armour of God, I fight on, knowing that we (you and all) are on the winning side.
Praise be forever to our Father, Son and Holy Spirit, Amen.
The torment of the other spirits caused my breakdown and the warrior then told me he'd fight for my life.
The next time I saw him , a day or so later, I was in the psychiatric ward, where he proclaimed Jesus' Salvation, in the first person.
But I was diagnosed bi polar, psychosis, schizo disorder and any other vague guess they came up with in the hospital.
For 9 yrs on medication, I suffered (side effects?) of anxiety, paranoia, persecution complex, and depression.
But as the warrior spoke of the Lord that day I gave my life to Jesus, because I trusted the only loving 'person' in my life.
Reading the bible and praying were the only things that kept me going for the nine years, which included 4 times locked in hospital 1 to 6 mths at a time.
The docs did not understand my faith and I refused to accept my 'condition' as my salvation state. - Jesus promised me joy, I was waiting for it. But ( because, maybe, i was so unclear on meds, and receiving therapy (non Christian) I doubted the existence and pure nature of my Spirit friend. Hence I saw him few and far between times.
By the last time I had been in hospital, my mother began prayers in her local church, and it was confirmed that I would be healed. I believed too, I saw for the first time in years, the warrior whilst I hung washing, singing praises . He sang with me, praising the Lord, my precious Jesus, and I knew then I should trust him. Though I tested and tested him. ( This I do sometimes for there are impostors)
Though he has image, he is at one with the Spirit of God, cannot be independent, has no identity other than servant.
He has counselled me and reached places other counsellers cannot reach.
The root of persecution complex is distrust, which is sin, as we are commanded to love each other, and love trusts. So I repented and I believe in the wholeness of my healing. -
God's mighty hand has literally reached in and removed my mental pain and I had a fresh start. Now I believe Jesus is calling me into mental health ministry - in UK psychiatrists class 'religious behaviour' as symptoms of ill mental health, this is my experience today.
It has been one year since my healing began and everyday is amazing in His Grace. The warrior is still with me, praising, counselling, telling me which scripture to read in certain situations - which are always spot on full of answers to my questions, and encouraging.
My testimony ( angel) has been tested in detail, by the local C of E, and I no longer doubt, I just praise the Lord, I am free, and when I feel an evil near by, I shield myself with Faith, holding the (s)word of Truth, fully clothed in the armour of God, I fight on, knowing that we (you and all) are on the winning side.
Praise be forever to our Father, Son and Holy Spirit, Amen.
