Wanting to give up and tired of life

[derpytia]

Every year that passes it seems I acquire a new chronic health problem or invisible illness/condition.

Why does God continue to allow me to have increased suffering. I really don't want to live anymore. I keep praying and asking for strength and forgiveness. I try to wait on the Lord and trust in Him. But nothing ever gets better. It only gets worse and worse and worse. I'm so tired of suffering. What is the point to my existence? In no way do I glorify God.

No one on the face of this earth looks at me or interacts with me and thinks of God. They either know I'm suffering and pity me or they don't know I'm suffering and expect me to carry on like a normal person.

I have prayed and prayed and prayed for something, ANYTHING to help. Anything to make a lasting impact on me or to help me in a big way. As a child of God this shouldn't be too big of a thing to ask of Him. What father doesn't want to give good things to his children. There is no earthly good father that would withhold these sorts of things from their children if it were within their power to grant. Since God is infinitely better than any earthly father we could have, why does He not grant good gifts to his children? Surely I do not ask for much. I am not asking to cheat death or become rich. I am only asking to be healed. And surely this is not too much for God.

Haven't I been bought with the blood of Christ? Should I then not be allowed to ask for such a thing? There is no point to Him withholding this from me. I have been made stronger my whole life by all these illnesses and conditions. But even I have my limits as a human being. There is only so much strength I can obtain.

I am so tired of this life where there is so much suffering. There is joy in it too but it is always overshadowed by suffering. There is no amount of joy that makes it worthwhile.

Sorry for this pity party and rant, everyone. I know I'll never understand God or His ways but that's what makes it so painful. The fact that I will never receive an answer or explanation.

 

[Larry Yoder]

Sounds like you are not living for GOD. You have to start anew, ask for forgiveness, repent your sins, confess by mouth that Jesus is Lord of Lords. Love the Lord GOD with all your heart, soul and mind. Pray often, Acquire a personal relationship with Jesus, he is with you always.

 

[Larry Yoder]

Ask GOD for Holy Spirit to come and live in your heart! Ask him to provide works to Glorify God.

 

[derpytia]

Sounds like you are not living for GOD. You have to start anew, ask for forgiveness, repent your sins, confess by mouth that Jesus is Lord of Lords. Love the Lord GOD with all your heart, soul and mind. Pray often, Acquire a personal relationship with Jesus, he is with you always.

I don't think that's going to help me much. I do have a relationship with Jesus. I know He loves me. But He has still allowed me to suffer with no relief. I'm sure He has a reason but I'll never know it in this life. He is a Father who doesn't share His reasoning with his children. He will listen to my prayers and knows my suffering but will not stretch out His hand to heal me.

 

[Apologetic_Warrior]

Often God uses pain and suffering in the way a blacksmith refines gold, or another analogy the way diamonds are formed and harvested from the earth, mined from coal and cut with precision.

I remember listening to a lecture and hearing the following verse: "And the Lord said unto Satan, The Lord rebuke thee, O Satan; yea, theLord that hath chosen Jerusalem rebuke thee: is not this a brand plucked out of the fire?"—Zechariah 3:1-2

We are as brands plucked out of the fire, and that by God. Sometimes when I think about those before me who have suffered, I think about Job, about Paul in prison, I think about the Puritan John Bunyan in prison writing his lovely poems and portions of his writings that are cherished by many, even hundreds of years later today. God is so much greater than our suffering that He can use it to bring about amazing results that would not have otherwise come about.

 

[Hearingheart]

Carrie Ten Boom was taken to a concentration camp and at the hand of others suffered much, Helen Keller lost both her sight and hearing at a young age due to illness, Dale Evan and Roy Rogers had a child that was born with Down Syndrome, I know a missionary family that has a child with Spina Bifida, the wife has had cancer, one of their children was killed in a freak accident....I could go on and on. There are many people who have sorrow and suffering.

I lost the vision in one eye, I have MS, I have been the victim of a stabbing, I grew up with extreme verbal abuse, I've dealt with major depression and seasonal depression, right now we have a horrible neighbor......I'm sure given more time I could come up with more, but to what end? There are many who have far greater struggles than I have and there are many who have been healed or have had no struggles in their lives.

There are some things that I rejoice in; the change of seasons, indoor plumbing, being able to swim, nature, my dog, music, drawing, a good joke, God's presence. (just some)

I don't mean to sound harsh. There comes a time when you determine to not allow your suffering define you life. You have a purpose and reason for being alive and you need to find out what that is. God's Spirit will direct you.

While you are waiting on the Lord, here are some practical things you can do:

1: Get blood work done to check for any underlying physical conditions
2: Eat in a healthy manner and drink lots of water
3: Take supplements if you need them (vitamin D and fish oil might be a good place to start)
4: Do some form of exercise or physical activity
5: Go do something for someone else - find a way to volunteer and look outside of yourself
6: Get some notecards and write down positive, encouraging scripture. Look at these when you are feeling down or discouraged
7: Whatever you are interested in or whatever brings peace and smiles, take time to do these things.
8: Ask God to bring people across your path that to be shown love and then listen carefully as He directs you.

If you need someone who to walk with you during your struggles, find a mature believer who understands and exhibits the fruit of the Spirit to act as sounding board and godly example to follow.

This life is not always easy and what we see as prayers not being answered may really be doors being opened for ways to minister to others, but you need to look up and outside of yourself. Try to see the bigger picture.

You are loved and you are a child of God. There is much in this life to rejoice about. Look for it, it's there.

 

[FutureAndAHope]

Every year that passes it seems I acquire a new chronic health problem or invisible illness/condition.

Why does God continue to allow me to have increased suffering. I really don't want to live anymore. I keep praying and asking for strength and forgiveness. I try to wait on the Lord and trust in Him. But nothing ever gets better. It only gets worse and worse and worse. I'm so tired of suffering. What is the point to my existence? In no way do I glorify God.

No one on the face of this earth looks at me or interacts with me and thinks of God. They either know I'm suffering and pity me or they don't know I'm suffering and expect me to carry on like a normal person.

I have prayed and prayed and prayed for something, ANYTHING to help. Anything to make a lasting impact on me or to help me in a big way. As a child of God this shouldn't be too big of a thing to ask of Him. What father doesn't want to give good things to his children. There is no earthly good father that would withhold these sorts of things from their children if it were within their power to grant. Since God is infinitely better than any earthly father we could have, why does He not grant good gifts to his children? Surely I do not ask for much. I am not asking to cheat death or become rich. I am only asking to be healed. And surely this is not too much for God.

Haven't I been bought with the blood of Christ? Should I then not be allowed to ask for such a thing? There is no point to Him withholding this from me. I have been made stronger my whole life by all these illnesses and conditions. But even I have my limits as a human being. There is only so much strength I can obtain.

I am so tired of this life where there is so much suffering. There is joy in it too but it is always overshadowed by suffering. There is no amount of joy that makes it worthwhile.

Sorry for this pity party and rant, everyone. I know I'll never understand God or His ways but that's what makes it so painful. The fact that I will never receive an answer or explanation.

It is good to see that you hang on to God in your troubles. I have a list of people that I pray for, not that it means that much, but I will add your situation to that list, to pray for God's blessing and healing for you.

You may struggle with feelings that God does not see, or care, and I can't really offer any explanation as to why you are suffering. Job in the bible suffered horrible illness, not because he was a bad person, no rather the opposite, he was a good man. If God is allowing this situation at this time know God sees you as a person of good, not bad character. Others may fall away under such stress, you at least hold on.

All that said, healing would be of great benefit to you, and I will certainly be praying for your healing.

 

[discipler7]

Every year that passes it seems I acquire a new chronic health problem or invisible illness/condition.

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The cause could be Hydatid disease ... Hydatid Disease. Medical information about Hydatid Disease , eg a tumour-like cyst lodged in the brain. Infection can happen by eating after handling worm-infested dogs or eating worm-egg-infected raw/half-cooked meat/seafood, eg rare steak, sushi, etc.

There was a medical case of an Asian man getting Hydatid disease by eating raw cow liver. He experienced eyesight problems, headaches and dizziness. The hospital discovered various tapeworm-cysts in his brain, spine, etc. He had to undergo 7 surgeries to fully recover.

Another similar disease caused by worm infection through eating raw/undercooked meat is toxoplasmosis. If the cyst ends up in the brain, it results in risky or suicidal behaviour by the patient, eg engage in extreme sports like rock climbing.

Remember God's Food Law in the Old Testament, eg Jews are prohibited from having dogs as pets and eating raw meat or blood.

 

[longwait]

Every year that passes it seems I acquire a new chronic health problem or invisible illness/condition.

Why does God continue to allow me to have increased suffering. I really don't want to live anymore. I keep praying and asking for strength and forgiveness. I try to wait on the Lord and trust in Him. But nothing ever gets better. It only gets worse and worse and worse. I'm so tired of suffering. What is the point to my existence? In no way do I glorify God.

No one on the face of this earth looks at me or interacts with me and thinks of God. They either know I'm suffering and pity me or they don't know I'm suffering and expect me to carry on like a normal person.

I have prayed and prayed and prayed for something, ANYTHING to help. Anything to make a lasting impact on me or to help me in a big way. As a child of God this shouldn't be too big of a thing to ask of Him. What father doesn't want to give good things to his children. There is no earthly good father that would withhold these sorts of things from their children if it were within their power to grant. Since God is infinitely better than any earthly father we could have, why does He not grant good gifts to his children? Surely I do not ask for much. I am not asking to cheat death or become rich. I am only asking to be healed. And surely this is not too much for God.

Haven't I been bought with the blood of Christ? Should I then not be allowed to ask for such a thing? There is no point to Him withholding this from me. I have been made stronger my whole life by all these illnesses and conditions. But even I have my limits as a human being. There is only so much strength I can obtain.

I am so tired of this life where there is so much suffering. There is joy in it too but it is always overshadowed by suffering. There is no amount of joy that makes it worthwhile.

Sorry for this pity party and rant, everyone. I know I'll never understand God or His ways but that's what makes it so painful. The fact that I will never receive an answer or explanation.

I heard this teaching lately that God is using all of our various sufferings as a sacrifice. That's how His kingdom operates. He takes our sufferings and relieves others of horrible things so that the sufferings of others are minimised. That's His economy. You suffer physically. Some carry emotional pain. So rejoice that you can partake of this suffering. You are indeed glorifying God this way. You are of great value to God's kingdom. You don't have to put yourself in the limelight and be a T.v evangelist or mega church pastor to glorify God. Your sufferings in secret have exalted you above those being glorified in the limelight. Next time you dwell on thoughts of your illnesses just let out a sacrifice of praise. I know it is hard to do when suffering. That's why its called sacrifice. Anyway, hang on in there. The end is almost here and the return of Christ is so very close.

But rejoice inasmuch as you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed. 1 Peter 4:13

And if we are children, then we are heirs: heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ--if indeed we suffer with Him, so that we may also be glorified with Him.I consider that our present sufferings are not comparable to the glory that will be revealed in us. Romans 8:17-18

2 Corinthians 1:5
For just as the sufferings of Christ overflow to us, so also through Christ our comfort overflows.

2 Corinthians 4:10
We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body.

Philippians 3:10
I want to know Christ and the power of His resurrection and the fellowship of His sufferings, being conformed to Him in His death,

2 Timothy 2:12
if we endure, we will also reign with Him; if we deny Him, He will also deny us;

1 Peter 1:5
who through faith are protected by God's power for the salvation that is ready to be revealed in the last time.

1 Peter 1:7
so that the authenticity of your faith--more precious than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire--may result in praise, glory, and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ.

1 Peter 2:21
For to this you were called, because Christ also suffered for you, leaving you an example, that you should follow in His footsteps:

 

[Larry Yoder]

Remember; GOD will never give you anything that you cannot handle. Pray that He sends Angles to chase the demons that are tormenting you, away. Pray for a shield of protection so evil entities cannot get to you, especially important now that GOD’s veil of protection is now open. Christian Love!

 

[dreadnought]

Every year that passes it seems I acquire a new chronic health problem or invisible illness/condition.

Why does God continue to allow me to have increased suffering. I really don't want to live anymore. I keep praying and asking for strength and forgiveness. I try to wait on the Lord and trust in Him. But nothing ever gets better. It only gets worse and worse and worse. I'm so tired of suffering. What is the point to my existence? In no way do I glorify God.

No one on the face of this earth looks at me or interacts with me and thinks of God. They either know I'm suffering and pity me or they don't know I'm suffering and expect me to carry on like a normal person.

I have prayed and prayed and prayed for something, ANYTHING to help. Anything to make a lasting impact on me or to help me in a big way. As a child of God this shouldn't be too big of a thing to ask of Him. What father doesn't want to give good things to his children. There is no earthly good father that would withhold these sorts of things from their children if it were within their power to grant. Since God is infinitely better than any earthly father we could have, why does He not grant good gifts to his children? Surely I do not ask for much. I am not asking to cheat death or become rich. I am only asking to be healed. And surely this is not too much for God.

Haven't I been bought with the blood of Christ? Should I then not be allowed to ask for such a thing? There is no point to Him withholding this from me. I have been made stronger my whole life by all these illnesses and conditions. But even I have my limits as a human being. There is only so much strength I can obtain.

I am so tired of this life where there is so much suffering. There is joy in it too but it is always overshadowed by suffering. There is no amount of joy that makes it worthwhile.

Sorry for this pity party and rant, everyone. I know I'll never understand God or His ways but that's what makes it so painful. The fact that I will never receive an answer or explanation.

Perhaps the Lord wants you to make a lifestyle change.

 

[blossom15]

After having an illness for 24 years, and then getting chronically ill due to the medication I was given, I can understand somewhat although our situations are different and I wasn't a Christian all that time.

I'm still processing things, but along this journey I've found having some counsel helpful, being really honest with God about how I am feeling (sometimes just saying Lord, I feel .....xyz ...... whether there's a reason I'm aware of or not) and then if its low or cross or grief etc I can ask for His help and perhaps turn to His word or speak to a friend or listen to a song or if possible, go for a walk etc.

Occasionally I have spent prayertime (and probably could much more) focussing on being thankful for simple blessings or things that I might normally take for granted, which perhaps other people might not have. Also, praying for others, perhaps those who I don't know personally but whose circumstances I am aware of.

When I have felt down, others have also counselled me to think of someone I could be helpful or encouraging to as well. But I do not think it is wrong to acknowledge that sometimes we need encouragement ourselves.

Also I think it is good to have some kind interest that helps you relax or you find enjoyable - I've only just recently rediscovered one.

that's not to say that I haven't struggled and made wrong choices, but above are things that I've felt have helped.

 

[GTW27]

Every year that passes it seems I acquire a new chronic health problem or invisible illness/condition.

Why does God continue to allow me to have increased suffering. I really don't want to live anymore. I keep praying and asking for strength and forgiveness. I try to wait on the Lord and trust in Him. But nothing ever gets better. It only gets worse and worse and worse. I'm so tired of suffering. What is the point to my existence? In no way do I glorify God.

No one on the face of this earth looks at me or interacts with me and thinks of God. They either know I'm suffering and pity me or they don't know I'm suffering and expect me to carry on like a normal person.

I have prayed and prayed and prayed for something, ANYTHING to help. Anything to make a lasting impact on me or to help me in a big way. As a child of God this shouldn't be too big of a thing to ask of Him. What father doesn't want to give good things to his children. There is no earthly good father that would withhold these sorts of things from their children if it were within their power to grant. Since God is infinitely better than any earthly father we could have, why does He not grant good gifts to his children? Surely I do not ask for much. I am not asking to cheat death or become rich. I am only asking to be healed. And surely this is not too much for God.

Haven't I been bought with the blood of Christ? Should I then not be allowed to ask for such a thing? There is no point to Him withholding this from me. I have been made stronger my whole life by all these illnesses and conditions. But even I have my limits as a human being. There is only so much strength I can obtain.

I am so tired of this life where there is so much suffering. There is joy in it too but it is always overshadowed by suffering. There is no amount of joy that makes it worthwhile.

Sorry for this pity party and rant, everyone. I know I'll never understand God or His ways but that's what makes it so painful. The fact that I will never receive an answer or explanation.

Blessings in Christ Jesus! There is a season for all things under the sun. He has not with held any good thing from you. To remind you who you are is written on your post. As a child of God you have the power of life and death on your tongue. When Jesus cursed the fig tree it immediately started to wither. When Jesus said "Come Forth" To Lazarus he had to come forth. In other words perhaps it is time to stand up and use The Power and Authority given you as a child of God. Speak life(The word of God) over your life. If your sufferings are from the enemy, speak and use The Power and Authority that are in The Name of Jesus. All that are truly His must be refined by the fire. In this time we must hold onto Him tight and have faith and believe all of His promises. This is but a season but after the season if you look back you will understand why you had to walk through it. To encourage you I tell you truly, sometimes when I have been out in public I have said" If all these people around could feel this joy(His joy) for only a minute they would all turn to Him to be Healed." So you see there is a season for suffering and a season for great joy.In the mean time speak "Life"

 

[blossom15]

Blessings in Christ Jesus! There is a season for all things under the sun. He has not with held any good thing from you. To remind you who you are is written on your post. As a child of God you have the power of life and death on your tongue. When Jesus cursed the fig tree it immediately started to wither. When Jesus said "Come Forth" To Lazarus he had to come forth. In other words perhaps it is time to stand up and use The Power and Authority given you as a child of God. Speak life(The word of God) over your life. If your sufferings are from the enemy, speak and use The Power and Authority that are in The Name of Jesus. All that are truly His must be refined by the fire. In this time we must hold onto Him tight and have faith and believe all of His promises. This is but a season but after the season if you look back you will understand why you had to walk through it. To encourage you I tell you truly, sometimes when I have been out in public I have said" If all these people around could feel this joy(His joy) for only a minute they would all turn to Him to be Healed." So you see there is a season for suffering and a season for great joy.In the mean time speak "Life"

I don't want to derail the thread, but I would really like to know more about how practically to walk more positively by standing on God's promises....... can you recommend further reading or listening somewhere? I am aware of WoF, but as something to be avoided.

 

[miss-a]

I understand your feelings and have had them myself. I would be happy to share some nutritional and lifestyle methods that helped me and many others. If you are interested in taking that route, please let me know. Prayers for you, a

 

[GTW27]

Long ago, these words came to," Put not your trust in man, for he will fail you.Put your trust only in The Lord(Jesus) for He will never leave you nor forsake you, nor will He Fail you" From the beginning I read only one book(The Holy Bible), sometimes a couple versions of it. I had no idea back then that what I was reading would flow out of me later in life. I know that The Word of God is The Living and Eternal Word of God.I know that what He said, or promised, (as written) is settled in heaven and on earth and beneath the earth. So when He said, "let their be light" there was light. And when He said "greater things than these will you do", means greater things than this will you do. For those that are truly born from above, all the words written in The Word of God are the same words within the believer in Him(The Holy Spirit) in us and us in Him.When I preach, it is like when The Wind Blows. There is no preperation, it just flows like a river just as promised. So to answer your question, When negativity (the enemy) comes, just say no and speak(and stand on it for it is already settled) the promise(Word of God) and watch it come to pass. It is The Faith and innocence of a little child, that pleases The Lord, not The reading of many books and the following after man made doctrines. So the next time you pray, know who's kneeling with you(The Holy Spirit) and believe.