Vow

[Fowler]

Hey all.

I didnt mas*** for a long time. I am really glad and pure. Week ago I vowed to God that I will never mas*** again in my life coz I know that It will ruin me. If I mas*** I asked God to burn me in the Hell. But Lastnight I experienced dreadful pain in oyu know what organ. I even cudnt eliminate urine. It was painful and I even cudnt sleep. I felt kind of wall which was disturbing there. I though If I mas*** It will go. I WAS RLY CONFUSED. IT WAS AWFUL. I asked God to forgive me. coz it was in medical purpose. I thought that kind of you kknow what(sem***) will sunder it AND WHen I did it I felt relief there. PAIN was gone. I cud normally eliminate urine. In the morning we went to the Doctor and he said that everything is ok there are no probs. But I feel rly confused now. I asked God to forgive me coz I dont want to mas*** now and I didnt lust that time. It was just medical. Will he forgive me? I still remember my vow.
Guys plz I need your help.

 

[Ariel]

God forgives you the moment you ask.

You will not burn in hell. You belong to God, and He loves you. Just as a dad doesn't disown his little son if he falls down, God doesn't disown you either, He will never leave you or forsake you, Heb. 13:5.

Just ask for forgiveness and go on. Instead of making such a stringent vow, may I suggest? Just ask God to help you. Sometimes you'll fall, but that's okay. Eventually you will be able to avoid this temptation, and it won't torment you so much. I don't think stringent vows like that count anyway.

Be blessed!

 

[Saucy]

I've told this to God several times in my life. That I promise to never do this or do that again. Or I would even try to negotiate with God and say, "if you give me this, I'll stop doing that." It never, NEVER works. We are all sinners. We can't stop sinning. We try and try and try and keep failing because that's our nature. And God knows we can't stop sinning, so He sent us His Son to die on a cross. We are now living in a period of grace.

What grace means is that all of your sins are wiped away. You can't earn salvation. It is a gift from God. So stop worrying so much about this sin or that. You can try to stop a certain sin, but you can't vow or promise God that you'll never do this sin again, because you will fail. Instead, ask Him to help you stop and give it time. And if you fail, don't sweat it. You won't go to hell.

 

[Fowler]

Thanks for your help!
I thought over it alot...about sins and mas*** as a sin.(Mas at teenagers)I read some different opinions... Is a long to tell. I got really doubtfull on what I do struggle. Something changed in me. I looked at my friends who do mas*** and lol their life is good. Everything is ok at them. Then looked at myself and ... Doubts swallowed me... I started to think its a natural. Guys before it mas*** and actually sex these things were like kind of strange?!Yay strange. Even my friends offered me help like to find gf and maybe in the end sex...I said NO TY! They were shocked.
When My daddy asked me errrr how is your gf?( I didnt tell them thay I was dumped) I said I dont have gf...and dont want now... AFter these words he wanted to take me to psychologist...
All that stuff pressed rly i felt myself like... I did mas***. I felt relief. I even started to think faster. B4 it Mas was burden for me. But know I feel how burden is gone. But my vow... I cant forget it. I asked God to forgive me. I tried to explain Him. Tried to talk... Tried to say that its a part on nature...
Will I be forgiven? I also ask in vow to ruin everything I have in my life...I feel rly confused now. Will God forgive me? But now everything seems to be ok in my life. Nothing rly changed.
There will be great event in our family... Sorry but i cant tell it here I am sorry Its too personal. In vow I said if I mas*** It will proove real unbeliever and sinner in me. And asked to ruin that up-coming event. I feel myself guilty now.
When I asked to forgive me I cut my hand as a sing of my guilt...
Will God forgive me?
p.s. Ia m sorry that You have to read all that stuff but.. These forumus is only place where I can ask about it. I really hesitate to talk about it with my parents. Thank You!

 

[Fowler]

I have to add more stuff( Sorry for a new post)

After it I thought. Byt still i can continue this struggle. Even after i understood that it(mas***)-might-be-not-that-bad. Its still a challenge for me. I have decided that I will use! It can make my character better. All doubts are gone for me now. I ahve decided that I will start diary. I will make notes about it. It will be my book of this great battle with myself. I will put down everything. That I mustnt mas*** I will read every morning and evening... I do want this battle!