In following up on my efforts in repenting to God concerning my interest in occult things I am finding many of the old video games and entertainment which I have always loved, to not be fun.
RPGs and stories being my favorite. In these there are always all sorts of wizards, and the main emphasis is on slaying enemies and becoming stronger. Gaining new kinds of magics, some games even present actual occult notions and ideas (Wild Arms 3 comes to mind.)
I was a great lover of such things, and of the imagination. Of all fantasy, science fiction, D&D, etc. Such things did not exist in the days of the Bible. It troubles me that Jesus and his apostles do little more then say "very few will be saved in those days."
MMORPGs are even worse. Here you play all day and night slaughtering thousands of creatures just to gain a level. There is a barely no story and PVP is little more then glorified mass slaughter. I played World of Warcraft for like 4 years, had tons of different characters. Kill kill kill is all you ever do.
It's all well and good to say these are just games, but when played often they subtly demoralize and desensitize us. Then if we become deeply repentant it becomes hard to bother with them at all.
I suppose that like wine, a little can be good for the soul, but using often leads to drunkenness. I find it hard to balance fun and the spirit, in my case one must be sacrificed to a great extent. Just as the alchoholic will have to stay away from drink completely, another person can do it responsibly.
So I have cut down on these activities quite a bit. They are often not even fun anymore, as I see the so called heroes for what they really are: glorified killers, sorcerers, and warmongers. The stories are almost always concerning princes, kings, princesses, or other prominent worldly figures.
Aside from loving God and praising the beauty of his creation and good family values, I guess I am having to rediscover what it means to have fun.
So deeply have I had that mystical flare, I always thoughts sports were stupid and uninspired, but loved martial arts, sword fighting, wizardry. What child doesn't?
How much is sinful? How much must I repent for? Just because I don't actually go out and do these things, but is it any better then looking at a woman lustfully and thereby committing adultery in my heart?
If I allow myself to have fun with these things does it mean my heart is sinful, war loving, corrupt, sorcerous, and wrong?
I tend to either take things too seriously or I don't take them serious at all. Now that I am so very serious about God and repenting I no longer even enjoy these things.
Completely renouncing myself for God is no small and easy task. He knows I am giving up a lot, and he knows I have a lot to make up for. A whole life spent not getting a job, not pursuing God, just staying home and watching tv or playing video games all day. Now I am sick of them.
I guess the church seemed so unfun, and the message of eternal damnation so terrible, that psychologically I just couldn't face it. For about 2 years I was completely certain there had to be some other medium. That attitude only lead me farther away from the Bible, and now I have to repent.
So I don't know anymore. I'm becoming a new creature in Christ so everything is changing.
What do real Christians do for fun?
RPGs and stories being my favorite. In these there are always all sorts of wizards, and the main emphasis is on slaying enemies and becoming stronger. Gaining new kinds of magics, some games even present actual occult notions and ideas (Wild Arms 3 comes to mind.)
I was a great lover of such things, and of the imagination. Of all fantasy, science fiction, D&D, etc. Such things did not exist in the days of the Bible. It troubles me that Jesus and his apostles do little more then say "very few will be saved in those days."
MMORPGs are even worse. Here you play all day and night slaughtering thousands of creatures just to gain a level. There is a barely no story and PVP is little more then glorified mass slaughter. I played World of Warcraft for like 4 years, had tons of different characters. Kill kill kill is all you ever do.
It's all well and good to say these are just games, but when played often they subtly demoralize and desensitize us. Then if we become deeply repentant it becomes hard to bother with them at all.
I suppose that like wine, a little can be good for the soul, but using often leads to drunkenness. I find it hard to balance fun and the spirit, in my case one must be sacrificed to a great extent. Just as the alchoholic will have to stay away from drink completely, another person can do it responsibly.
So I have cut down on these activities quite a bit. They are often not even fun anymore, as I see the so called heroes for what they really are: glorified killers, sorcerers, and warmongers. The stories are almost always concerning princes, kings, princesses, or other prominent worldly figures.
Aside from loving God and praising the beauty of his creation and good family values, I guess I am having to rediscover what it means to have fun.
So deeply have I had that mystical flare, I always thoughts sports were stupid and uninspired, but loved martial arts, sword fighting, wizardry. What child doesn't?
How much is sinful? How much must I repent for? Just because I don't actually go out and do these things, but is it any better then looking at a woman lustfully and thereby committing adultery in my heart?
If I allow myself to have fun with these things does it mean my heart is sinful, war loving, corrupt, sorcerous, and wrong?
I tend to either take things too seriously or I don't take them serious at all. Now that I am so very serious about God and repenting I no longer even enjoy these things.
Completely renouncing myself for God is no small and easy task. He knows I am giving up a lot, and he knows I have a lot to make up for. A whole life spent not getting a job, not pursuing God, just staying home and watching tv or playing video games all day. Now I am sick of them.
I guess the church seemed so unfun, and the message of eternal damnation so terrible, that psychologically I just couldn't face it. For about 2 years I was completely certain there had to be some other medium. That attitude only lead me farther away from the Bible, and now I have to repent.
So I don't know anymore. I'm becoming a new creature in Christ so everything is changing.
What do real Christians do for fun?