victim

[blessestohonorGod]

i am a victim of sexual abuse. i say victim because i am still feeling the affects of this abuse even now. its hard to know what to write here because i dont know how much i can share. is it open or what?
i wont say more until i really know.

blessestohonorgod

 

[The4Rs]

I am a victim as well of Sexual and other abuses. I am feeling the effects of it now almost 30 yrs later b/c I have repressed memories. I am now experiencing Post Traumatic Stress as well as a personality disorder. When I first came to this site I was very leary about posting. Wondering if anyone wanted to hear what I have to say or if I would say the right thing. I feel that this is a safe place to post and get advice. Everyone here is very loving and caring. I have not had any bad experiences here and feel safe here.

Make sure you read the guidelines to posting and then feel free to share. We are all here to share and help each other. This is a great site. I was needing to share b/c I felt so alone. Like I was the only person going through this.

I hope that things will get easier for you and you feel comfortable sharing.

God Bless!

 

[blessestohonorGod]

i dont know if i'll post though even though you say its safe to do so

blessestohonorgod

 

[UnitynLove]

The Scars Of Child Abuse
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vNyuIfodc7k

go to youtube.com/togetherinworship to hear the rest.

just type in the video search box "Abuse" and it should come up.

 

[blessestohonorGod]

i think that my abuse has stolen so much of my life from me. i wish i had started earlier to deal with it. it seems like a huge mountain that i am walking up but the top of the mountain is so high i can see the clouds. i dont know why people say 'time heals all wounds'. what if the wound heals and get infected or it doesnt heal properly. my co worker recently had surgery and she recuperated very quickly and is on the way to healing. she said that the doctor told her that she didnt have any infection from the surgery so the healing process was not interrupted. well, when we have wounds even from abuse it hurts but we dont always want to do the things to get well because its too painful. i put this abuse on the shelf, took it out and looked at it once in a while, then put it back. i wouldnt even allow God to touch it or make me look at it. even though i thought i would die from the pain, i still wouldnt allow anyone to touch it or look at it. i thought of it as my own pain, and since God didnt choose to help me, i wouldnt allow him to look at it either or talk to me about it.
but since i have opened the door just a little to allow some light to get in there, and for the dust to start flying around, i find that i am ready to let God in too. how can i honor god? by staying in my own pain or allowing him to release me of it?

blessestohonorgod

 

[blessestohonorGod]

interesting again, this issue of abuse on that web site of Joyce Meyers. Actually to be honest I dont think i ever really liked her message in the past, or watched her maybe because i wasnt ready to deal with my own heart issues. i actually thought she wasnt really deep enough and that she wouldnt understand. strange how we think certain things about people.

thanks again for sharing that.
blesses

 

[Linda1010]

Have you ever heard about Celebrate Recovery meetings ? In these meetings you can share without being afraid of sharing, 100% confidential. God wants to heal you, to find a meeting in your area go to www.celebraterecovery.com
God bless!

 

[blessestohonorGod]

no i never heard of them before. i cant tell you how much i am grateful for finding this web site. sometimes though, i get to a point in my own 'healing' where it seems like i bottom out a lot. i go through these times when things look pretty good and i dont Think i have a care in the world or anything to work on, but then i get hit over the head in one of those blind spots, where what i neglected. i dont know whether i get to where i feel like i get used to being what i am a victim, instead of working towards meshing my identity in God's or christs.

blessestohonorgod