Very sad tonight

[mylittlelambs]

Ok I am very down tonight. I just dropped my best dearest friend off at the bus station so she can go back to PA to take care of her family.

I dont know how I made it home since I was crying the whole way. She has been here in my life for almost 4 years and I feel so lost without her. I truely do not understand God sometimes. All was going well and then BAM we are hit with this. I hope that it all makes sense to me soon. My kids are very sad but are doing ok. They went right to bed when we got home.

I was so happy and now this happens and I am trying to find a reason to go on, other than my kids. I have never lived alone and not sure how I will handle it. I know I already hate it. It is so quiet here, noone to talk to, noone to laugh with. I dont even want to watch tv, whats the point? Cant hear anyone laugh cant discuss what the movie is about or how I like or dislike it.

How do I keep this from turning into full blown Depression. I am scared that I really dont want to do this.
Well goodnight for now.

 

[Everglaze]

I've been alone for 8 years. I know how that feels. But, it's a feeling that will pass. You can either make new friends while still keeping in touch with the old or you can get used to being alone. The latter is not something I recommend to anyone unless they WANT to be alone. But, let me tell you this. You are NOT alone, because God is always there with you. He feels your pain and he wants you to spend time with him. Feeling a loss is temporary, although the consequences may seem lifelong, but that's up to you. Parting ways with people you've known for a long time is a very difficult thing to do, why? Because you miss all the good times you got to share with them. Nobody likes a 'goodbye.' However, be thankful that you even have kids. Tons of people out there don't even have a social life to begin with. Try to put your focus away from this situation, and turn it towards God in prayer. After all, he is the God of comfort.

 

[lostndown]

i'll keep u in my prayers.

i am pretty down - depressed too, but it won't go away!!! i have depression and have since 2003. i need to cry, but i can't. i usually can, but it's alright. i am ok, just a bit down. i am thankful for all my friends, for thanksgiving.

~michelle~

 

[mylittlelambs]

Sending you a great big hug. Hope things get better

 

[lostndown]

thanks!!! i hope things get better with u too. *hugs*