Venting!- It's Ridiculous.

[aca_rev55]

I feel ridiculous, I feel disgusting, and I feel like I need to lose this weight. It's stupid. I've always been thin, always. Over the past year, I've gained weight, and my thoughts are Obsessive. All I can think about is the weight, and it's ridiculous.

I guess this post is pointless, but I've been keeping it to myself and I suppose I just wanted to get it out. I don't feel in control, and I feel guilty everytime I'm eating something. I don't want to, and I can stop until my stomach wretches in pain. Then I give in, eventually, and continue to feel guilty about it.

I've never been diagnosed with an eating disorder, so I guess I don't even know if this qualifies... but it's been on my mind and it's driving me insane! Guess I just needed to vent...

 

[bumblebee62331]

If you are feeling guilty every time you eat and if you are obsessing over food then yes, you might have an eating disorder. Have you got someone you can talk to about it? A counsellor? A trusted friend? You need to let these thoughts out, it's not good to keep them inside because one day they will just come out.

Posting here is a great idea because there are so many loving people in this forum who are here to listen to you and to help you out and give you some support.

 

[WhoeverLovesGod01]

I gained weight after I stopped excercising and I felt uncomfortable, but doing something about it definately makes me feel better.

That's why I recommend jogging.

 

[Soulwings]

Try to do something proactive about the weight gain, if it is indeed an unhealthy gain. But be healthy about it. Try to cut down on what you eat - have your mum or dad or friends help you eat smaller portions - and exercise several times a week.

If you don't feel in control, feel exceedingly guilty about eating, and have obsessive thoughts about weight and food, then like Katie said, it's possible that you may have disordered eating. Best thing to do is ask a professional about it. We can offer all the advice in the world, but we can't see you in person, and we aren't qualified docs or counselors.

 

[aca_rev55]

Thank you for the replies... I really wasn't expecting as many in just like 9 hours.

I do exercise, a lot. I've been working really, really hard to get in shape. You see, I'm joining the Air Force, and I need to be in shape by next summer for Basic Training. I run a lot, 2 to, at times, up to 4 miles a day. It doesn't feel like it's working.

And no, Byootaful, I don't talk to any of my friends. I don't think I can. I've gotten over all my other "issues"... it's too late for another one to come up. If I do end up having some sort of "problem," it could jeopardize my chances of getting into the Air Force. My determination and motivation for basically just living revolves around the Air Force. I'm not screwing this up. If I do, I won't have anything else to work for, ergo my life will lack meaning.

 

[Soulwings]

If you aren't losing weight with that much exercise, sweetie, then I doubt you've got anything to worry about.

I do think, though, that you should talk to someone in real life about this.

 

[aca_rev55]

If you aren't losing weight with that much exercise, sweetie, then I doubt you've got anything to worry about.

I do think, though, that you should talk to someone in real life about this.

It does help. Just not enough. And as previously stated... I can't talk to someone in real life about this. I don't want to get myself into trouble. They'll blow it out of proportion like they do everything else.