Venting again

[Chococat]

I know a lot of you are probably sick of hearing about the exfriend that hurt me so much in the past so apologies in advance if that is the case. However both of us used to post regularly on this other Christian message board until she stopped posting for several months. Well a couple of days ago she returned and from what I can see of her posts she is still as narcissistic as ever if not worse. However many of the other board members, including the Mods are falling over themselves to welcome her back. I can't help feeling hurt about this as one Mod in particular knows something of the issues I had with her in the past yet he, like so many of the others told her how WONDERFUL it was that she was back etc. In a way I can understand that as they have no quarrel with her (they don't know her like I do) yet I can't help feeling like I've been stabbed in the back. I know that is irrational and I wish I didn't feel that way. It also annoys me the way I am often ignored on the board yet as soon as this woman returns she is treated like a VIP. Moreover it now means I have to stop posting there as I just don't have the strength to deal with her again. I know I should be "bigger" than all this but I'm not. I feel angry and hurt partly because of the way everyone is treating her and partly because I am now being, albeit unintentionally "chased" off this board.

 

[aflower4God]

((((((((BIG HUGS)))))))))))
Totally know the feeling my dear sweet loving sister, PLEASE post here as much as you would like. I know that I was going to leave CF a few days ago for good but I am glad that I returned cause of people LIKE YOU. You have so many friends here, I hope that you will continue to stay here and come back more often, when you are gone you are totally missed. (((BIG HUGS)))
In the mean time I WILL pray for you and healing. I KNOW how it feels my dear sweet loving sister.
God bless you and LOTS OF LOVE to you (((BIG HUGS)))

 

[lasthope]

Hi

I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling upset at this person's return to the forum and feel like you won't be able to post there anymore. I don't know what happened, etc. but i hear your fear of being driven out and being alone, which seems unjust as you haven't done anything wrong.

I hope you will take care of yourself and post here if you need to.

Take care

x

 

[Chococat]

Lasthope basically when I first became friends with this girl she was really sweet to me but she gradually changed and started putting me down and manipulating me and generally making me feel like a worthless piece of you know what. In the end I cut ties with her but I am still getting over it. Seeing her on that board brought back so much of the hurt and anger and it's got to the stage where I can't even look at the board because it makes me feel so angry and upset. I know in a way it is not the fault of the others as they didn't know what was going on, though a few of them knew something of it because I confided some of it to one of the Mods. Now he was one of them who welcomed her back with open arms. On top of this the discussion got round to this singer she is obsessed with and a TV series he was on and she joked that her fave line was when one character made a joke to the jist of if you've never heard of this singer you should kill yourself. Now I don't think this is remotely funny. No one should joke about suicide but she obviously found it hilarious (she's cold like that) yet to the best of my knowledge NO ONE CORRECTED HER FOR IT!!! It's like she's being treated like royalty and it stinks!!!

 

[Winter]

I understand that feeling Chococat. Been there before. Its terribly frustrating to see people who are full of themselves or are real meanies and people treat them like they're God's gift to humanity.

But its their fault. They have the blinders on. Its their own insecurities that makes them compelled to want to kiss their narcisistic but smelly feet.

Look at it this way: you know better. Be glad you are not part of that kissing her feet crowd. You're your own person. You get strength from within. You have truth on your side and can see through the facade.

In the meanwhile, here's a hug to make you feel better ---->

 

[Winter]

No one should joke about suicide but she obviously found it hilarious (she's cold like that) yet to the best of my knowledge NO ONE CORRECTED HER FOR IT!!! It's like she's being treated like royalty and it stinks!!!

You gotta pity her, the mods, and those who found it hilarious. And I'll tell you - God is not one bit pleased. Stay away from that forum. In fact, don't go there anymore. You're too good for all of them.

 

[Chococat]

I do pity this girl in a way as I know that she, like all narcissists, is riddled with insecurities and has very low self esteem. I also think she is troubled with demon issues. It's such a pity that she won't get help for her problems instead of taking them out on others. The thing is if you were to meet her she'd seem like a lovely person, maybe much nicer than I am, until you really got to know her

 

[aflower4God]

((((((((((((((Chococat)))))))))))))))
I want you to know that you are a very special person, very dear! I can totally understand your hurt my dear sweet loving sister. PLEASE KNOW that I am going to continue to pray for you. GOD BLESS YOU and lots of love to you.

 

[lasthope]

Thank you for explaining the situation, it helps to understand a little better and I'm just sorry that you're struggling with this still.. it does sound difficult. Sorry i don't have the words tonight but just wanted to let you know that i read and hear what you're saying.. keep 'talking' here if it helps x

 

[Chococat]

Thanks to all who replied. It's sad that I don't feel able to go to that board though hopefully I will be able to return when I feel stronger but at the moment it's a no no especially now her friend who I also have issues with, mainly because she told me it was my fault that the first girl was mean to me (apparently I "drove her to it") is also posting there. The crazy thing is I keep checking on this board to see if these 2 girls are still there (they are) and it hurts me so much the way everyone loves on them.

 

[aflower4God]

Thanks to all who replied. It's sad that I don't feel able to go to that board though hopefully I will be able to return when I feel stronger but at the moment it's a no no especially now her friend who I also have issues with, mainly because she told me it was my fault that the first girl was mean to me (apparently I "drove her to it") is also posting there. The crazy thing is I keep checking on this board to see if these 2 girls are still there (they are) and it hurts me so much the way everyone loves on them.

((((((((((((BIG HUGS sweet loving sister)))))))))))))))))
I know EXACTLY how you feel, I did the same before cause of hurt. You are not crazy at all, you are a loving friend and really they are missing out on a joyful fun loving helpful caring wise friend like you. PLEASE KNOW how much you mean to me and the rest of the family here on CF. You are such a treasure. GOD BLESS YOU and LOTS OF LOVE TO YOU PRAYING FOR YOU!