Oh mama Dory, God truly is Good, God truly is merciful and God truly does love her. I made the same choice

We should never be allowed this choice

. Immediately after I knew I was a murderer though my mouth would speak the lies I'd been told about a baby not being a baby right away. Deep in my innermost being I knew I was a murderer.
God forgave me this and so much more and made me as white a snow. In that instant of forgiveness I came face to face with the glory & righteousness of God and He said "YOUR FORGIVEN". Still satan threw my past in my face alot in the first 10 years as a Christian. I now forgive myself for this choice. If she is online I'd be happy to share my email address with you and talk to her via email.
I still have tears in my eyes when I think of what could have been. Regret lasts a lifetime I'm sorry she made that choice just as sorry as I am that I did. My child would now be 25.