ok. let me see if I'm able to explain this.
I'm single since I can remember and I really enjoy it. I hate compromises and I like it so much to have my freedom. I stand on my own feet, I have many real good friends and I don't miss anything. (I fell in love before and I had dates, but it never ended in a relationship of this kind)
about 1 year ago, I met this guy at work. he stopped by at my office once in a while and I enjoyed our weekly-minute-talk without any ulterior motives. Now he doesn't work here anymore, but I often see him when I go out. One day we agreed to go out for a drink, but he canceled a few minutes before we were supposed to meet. I was quite disappointed, but only for that evening. then I kinda forgot about him. now lately our ways cross a lot and I couldn't help but think a lot about him. I guess I had a crush on him! I started to fall for him! But that was the last thing I wanted. I didn't want to fall for anybody, I didn't want a relationship or anything.
out of the blue I called him and he called me back and we talked for almost an hour (that's pretty long for me, even when I call my female friends). we agreed to meet "again" on monday. he invited me over to his house to show me how the construction work is going on. so I went over to his place and when I arrived... he wasn't there. (is it possible that I'm attracted to his unsteadiness?) I called his cell phone and he arrived within three minutes. it turned out to be a really nice evening. Though we only talked about not-important things, it was like we both tried to avoid something.
Although it was a nice evening and I enjoyed his company I'm not sure if I'm in love with him (what would be a good thing, because I don't want a relationship). But I'm here with this feeling, longing for somebody or something. I bet you all know what I mean. Now he is kindalike the target of these feelings. Maybe it sounds worse then it is, I'm not deperate or anything. But maybe you know what to do now.
any comments? advice? ideas? ever experienced like this? what happend? how turned it out?
I'm single since I can remember and I really enjoy it. I hate compromises and I like it so much to have my freedom. I stand on my own feet, I have many real good friends and I don't miss anything. (I fell in love before and I had dates, but it never ended in a relationship of this kind)
about 1 year ago, I met this guy at work. he stopped by at my office once in a while and I enjoyed our weekly-minute-talk without any ulterior motives. Now he doesn't work here anymore, but I often see him when I go out. One day we agreed to go out for a drink, but he canceled a few minutes before we were supposed to meet. I was quite disappointed, but only for that evening. then I kinda forgot about him. now lately our ways cross a lot and I couldn't help but think a lot about him. I guess I had a crush on him! I started to fall for him! But that was the last thing I wanted. I didn't want to fall for anybody, I didn't want a relationship or anything.
out of the blue I called him and he called me back and we talked for almost an hour (that's pretty long for me, even when I call my female friends). we agreed to meet "again" on monday. he invited me over to his house to show me how the construction work is going on. so I went over to his place and when I arrived... he wasn't there. (is it possible that I'm attracted to his unsteadiness?) I called his cell phone and he arrived within three minutes. it turned out to be a really nice evening. Though we only talked about not-important things, it was like we both tried to avoid something.
Although it was a nice evening and I enjoyed his company I'm not sure if I'm in love with him (what would be a good thing, because I don't want a relationship). But I'm here with this feeling, longing for somebody or something. I bet you all know what I mean. Now he is kindalike the target of these feelings. Maybe it sounds worse then it is, I'm not deperate or anything. But maybe you know what to do now.
any comments? advice? ideas? ever experienced like this? what happend? how turned it out?
But I was yet not looking for someone. 
big hug to all of you!
