all!It has been a while since I have posted on CF. I wanted to update you all with what is going on with me.
First, I seem to be getting a lot better since that guy who dropped me for that other girl has left my life. I found a way of coping with that pain of rejection and the fact I probably will never get a guy, that is through video games on Facebook, my favorite is Candy Crush Saga (as you may have noticed on my profile page
, I play two others on FB as well, one is bake shop drop and the other is farm hero's sago much like Candy Crush. I now have something to get my mind off of that guy I liked so much and the major pain of rejection. So many people say it is a HUGE blessing that he is out of my life that he was a true jerk and treated me horribly, plus if (and I stress IF) I am going to be with a guy I need a man who is totally understanding of me, example one of my best friends, he is a guy, and he understands me, he has shown me not all men are total JERKS like that toxic guy I wasted my life on. My mom and I are still not speaking it has been now about 3 weeks since she we last talked to each other. She seems not to understand my illness and does not want to understand it, instead just degrade me even more.
Well as noted above I have been playing this new Video Game Candy Crush saga but the thing that breaks my heart about it is that the game is a game that I totally see my late daddy playing. OH MY GOSH I can't count the many times I just wanted to pick up the phone and ask my dad for some tips about the game. No he never had FB but he use to play slot games and stuff online or he bought at the store.
I have also opened up my visitor message page on my profile here on CF again after 2 months of having it closed cause of the hurt and rejection, i kind of secluded myself, it is open to my friends here on CF.
Lastly, the fate of my future is coming in a month with my ssd/i hearing. Though the lawyers said they (the lawyers) can cancel at any time if they feel they need to, if that is the case God has a reason and my fate will turn for the worse for my future (I mean horrible) , but I am trying to hold strong on the VS in the Bible that says something like for us not to worry about tomorrow for tomorrow has it's own problems just focus on today.
Well that is it, know that cause I have not been on CF much doesn't mean that I have stop praying for my dear friends here cause I have been praying every day for my dear sweet loving friends here. You all are a huge blessing to me.
God bless you
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