Unwillingness..

[Anwar]

I put this in my journal but i think it should be here also jus hear me out if you remember me from months back id appreciate the help also .

I dont know what has happened to me in the past 9 years since ive been playing sports. When I was younger, I felt like i had something to prove. It seems like now I had more direction when i was younger than i do know. At least I had some goals, of being a pro athlete, making money to help poor people and being a better man than my father was when he was my age. But the older ive got, it seems that im becoming more like him than not being like him for example, he was very promiscuous at my age.

It seems the deal with me, is that I talk to alot of women, I havent had sex with a girl in 2yrs that doesnt mean. That I am being a good man, Im not being a good stewart over the little i have, Im not being a good christian man, Im not being what god wants me to be. Im having such a hard time, making this transition into manhood. Even at this moment, im having a hard time getting up and going to work early, my body doesnt want to, but i want to. Right now, im very overweight, ive got my mind made up to lose it but my body doesnt want to get up and move.

The person i was sum 9yrs ago, was a hard worker when i played sports, I never sat home not 1 day. I always got up and went to play basketball even if i didnt want to. I knew I had to improve to get better. So, right now im completely a reverse of who i used to be and im not proud of it. I need to be a better man and not turn out like my father, i want to work hard to get outta debt so i can move out my moms house. I want to treat my nieces better, I wanna be a better man, but i have time. I dont know how much time i have but would it be worth the effort to at least try and be better and get healthier.

 

[sandman]

Do things for the right reasons………. become a better person spiritually and physically because you want to, because it’s the right thing to do, not because you don’t want to be like your dad, because then your only focusing on the negative to bring about a positive change; that will work for a while but it won’t last………..
I forget who came up with the 4 D’s but they outline the pattern of change …
Decision – make the decision
Desire – decision builds desire
Details – desire will help develop the details to your action
Deliverance –action will bring deliverance.

Remember see yourself {vivid mind picture} of where you want to be…… don’t make it an obsession, but make it real. Once it becomes real everything you say and do will be focused in that direction.