I'm new to the forum and I'm posting here because after looking around the internet a bit I haven't found any one addressing a problem that I have had with trying to stop masturbating.
I was not raised Christian and consequently masturbated freely beginning in my teen years, but since becoming religious I've wanted to stop. This has been a struggle, but more recently my willpower has been strong enough that I can stop for as long as I want. That is, I will not lapse from self-control, touch, and then regret it.
Of course while not masturbating I have had wet dreams, but apparently that is not sufficient release. After going without masturbation for a few months, some odd things started to happen. First of all, I would go to bed with pajamas on, but wake up naked. I was undressing myself in my sleep. Then I started masturbating in my sleep. I wasn't having wet dreams, I was masturbating in my sleep. It's hard to describe, but it is like I'm performing "sleepwalking masturbation." I'm conscious of it, but only in a shadowy, uncontrollable way. My higher mental faculties are absent, as is ethical judgment.
After this happened a few times, the strangest part of the story transpired. I not only undressed myself in my sleep, but I got up, completely naked, left my bedroom and walked out into the hall and into the living room. Not until I was in the living room did I wake up, snap out of it, and go back to my bedroom. I'm very thankful that my house mate did not happen to see me. I'm also very thankful that I did not walk outside my front door which is in the living room. Afterwards I did some research on sleepwalking, and found that some people have sleepwalked outside while naked.
I have never had sleepwalking issues before, ever. Not the slightest hint. In the end I decided to start masturbating again, once every few weeks, just to put an end to my sleepwalking problems, which has been effective. I very strongly desire to cease masturbating completely, and save my next (waking) [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse] for my wedding night, but I am having a great deal of trouble. Any thoughts or suggestions would be most welcome.
I was not raised Christian and consequently masturbated freely beginning in my teen years, but since becoming religious I've wanted to stop. This has been a struggle, but more recently my willpower has been strong enough that I can stop for as long as I want. That is, I will not lapse from self-control, touch, and then regret it.
Of course while not masturbating I have had wet dreams, but apparently that is not sufficient release. After going without masturbation for a few months, some odd things started to happen. First of all, I would go to bed with pajamas on, but wake up naked. I was undressing myself in my sleep. Then I started masturbating in my sleep. I wasn't having wet dreams, I was masturbating in my sleep. It's hard to describe, but it is like I'm performing "sleepwalking masturbation." I'm conscious of it, but only in a shadowy, uncontrollable way. My higher mental faculties are absent, as is ethical judgment.
After this happened a few times, the strangest part of the story transpired. I not only undressed myself in my sleep, but I got up, completely naked, left my bedroom and walked out into the hall and into the living room. Not until I was in the living room did I wake up, snap out of it, and go back to my bedroom. I'm very thankful that my house mate did not happen to see me. I'm also very thankful that I did not walk outside my front door which is in the living room. Afterwards I did some research on sleepwalking, and found that some people have sleepwalked outside while naked.
I have never had sleepwalking issues before, ever. Not the slightest hint. In the end I decided to start masturbating again, once every few weeks, just to put an end to my sleepwalking problems, which has been effective. I very strongly desire to cease masturbating completely, and save my next (waking) [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse] for my wedding night, but I am having a great deal of trouble. Any thoughts or suggestions would be most welcome.