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[soalone]

at the age of 14
an older male befriended me and led me to believe he cared
he placed his hands on my breasts and up the back of my shirt
a few times he tryed to kiss me. it was at that time i realised what was happening.
i still feel ashamed and angry about this
is it ok to feel like this?

 

[GodDoesListen55]

welcome to christian forums! first, what almost started to happen was NOT YOUR FAULT at all. second, yes, it is absolutely 100% okay to feel the way you do!

 

[BigToe]

Someone took advantage of you, of COURSE you can feel bad about that. You did nothing wrong, that boy did.

 

[soalone]

the way this threads looking its not important
forget about it

 

[soalone]

the way this threads looking its not important
forget about it

im sorry if that sounds mean

 

[goldenviolet]

what do you mean sweetheart you can talk to us about anything you want to. i'm dee. recovery staff.
i want to tell you that preditor type people can be very good at cultivating a trust so when they do something; we are confused and don't know what to do. it sounds like he tricked you into submitting to what he did.

it is not your fault. unfortunately sometimes we learn by exsperiances that shake us up. like this. you just give yourself permission to feel anyway you do. then work at sorting it out for your health and benifet. bless your heart! continue to reach out for support. this is what the family of Christ is for.

 

[soalone]

im sorry im just screwed up
i have depression now cuz of everything that happens
ok so im screwed up
and dont deserve ur time

 

[soalone]

im sorry im just screwed up
i have depression now cuz of everything that happens
ok so im screwed up
and dont deserve ur time

look guys im a waste of space and time
ignore me

 

[Johnnz]

You don't need ignoring. You need to be able to tell your story to someone who is safe and really cares about you.

Sexual abuse distorts a lot of things and most often breaks trust in people. But not everyone is bad, and there are many who really will care.

Bless you
John
NZ

 

[soalone]

many may care but every one well everyone that are not online dont care

many people dont talk to me
my bestfriends are online
im a screwed up freak

 

[Bianca01]

Hi soalone,

You have every right to be angry. It was very wrong for this older guy to touch you inappropriately. I'm sure it has caused you to be guarded and put up walls. So no wonder you feel safer with on-line friends then up close and personal ones.

I would suggest working through the anger. Maybe write a letter (you won't be sending it) to this person. Say whatever you want in it. Tell him how he hurt you, how mad you are, etc., etc. Then rip the letter up into tiny pieces.

Do things for yourself. Take good care of you. Reclaim your power!

I believe God has a lot of good things in store for your life. Don't give up hope.

 

[Johnnz]

You do have pain, but you are not a freak. God has dreams for you which he wants you to understand and live out. He has never stopped loving you.

John
NZ

 

[CarleneB]

I have been there to.

I understand the feeling of being lonely. I've been blamed for what happened. I have lost friends as well.

I was raped numerous times when I was 14 years old for about a year.

You have every right to be angry at this piece of trash for hurting you.

((((hugs))) if ok

--- Carlene

 

[soalone]

Hi soalone,

You have every right to be angry. It was very wrong for this older guy to touch you inappropriately. I'm sure it has caused you to be guarded and put up walls. So no wonder you feel safer with on-line friends then up close and personal ones.

I would suggest working through the anger. Maybe write a letter (you won't be sending it) to this person. Say whatever you want in it. Tell him how he hurt you, how mad you are, etc., etc. Then rip the letter up into tiny pieces.

Do things for yourself. Take good care of you. Reclaim your power!

I believe God has a lot of good things in store for your life. Don't give up hope.

i have walls up still i only took them down a little cuz i made a sock

yes this is a sock accout i just dont feel up to posting it under my normal account

look i hate my self
and u guys dont have to worry
i shouldt have started this in the first place

 

[Nobility]

Aww hun... it is ok.. I'm not going to say much here, but I'd really appreciate it if you'd PM me cos I'd love to talk with you about it. I understand you using a sock account That's what this account was originally for before it became my main account

 

[Bianca01]

i have walls up still i only took them down a little cuz i made a sock

yes this is a sock accout i just dont feel up to posting it under my normal account

look i hate my self
and u guys dont have to worry
i shouldt have started this in the first place

Hi soalone,


I pray that you will realize you did nothing wrong. This guy molested you. If you wanted to, you could press charges. It's that serious. The blame and the shame are all his. Not yours. You have every reason to be angry.


Have you been in therapy? It would probably help you work through these issues and learn to love yourself. The more you love yourself, the stronger you become and the more likely you can protect yourself from future abuse.


I know you are in need of help for yourself, and, I've got to say... this post will help many others who are too scared to post themselves. So, thank you.


Take care