Unsure about What to Do

[Spunkn]

Thanks again everyone for your replies, it really does mean a lot to me.
To answer your question Sojourner, I can, and do. As of my last post I've learnt so much and am able to understand so much more than I did. Though I don't have doubt that I believe, In my heart, in Jesus Christ, it's the "extent of my belief". I would gladly give up my life before renouncing my faith, but, perhaps that's just wishful thinking. In easier terms (I think): I don't doubt my faith, I doubt my heart. I believe, ive finally reached the stage of having trust in Jesus, but there's still a part of me that says "hah that's just wishful thinking, you have no faith".

That's perfectly normal. And you will go through phases where you feel like you've "lost" your faith and that it's gone. But it is still there, and if you've accepted Christ you are still saved. Don't get too discouraged when that happens. Just seek the advice of others when it does, and we (on these forums) or they (someone you know) can help you through it.

 

[razzelflabben]

Thanks again everyone for your replies, it really does mean a lot to me.
To answer your question Sojourner, I can, and do. As of my last post I've learnt so much and am able to understand so much more than I did. Though I don't have doubt that I believe, In my heart, in Jesus Christ, it's the "extent of my belief". I would gladly give up my life before renouncing my faith, but, perhaps that's just wishful thinking. In easier terms (I think): I don't doubt my faith, I doubt my heart. I believe, ive finally reached the stage of having trust in Jesus, but there's still a part of me that says "hah that's just wishful thinking, you have no faith".

testing of that faith is coming, and it will be a sweet aroma to God, if you can persevere through it, be obedient in the midst of it, and praise Him no matter how difficult the journey.

 

[lilmissmontana]

Hello everyone!

This is my first time posting, but I have been reading these forums for a while now. I've never had the courage to make a post, since I've never been sure about what I believe. I hope this is the right subsection; I'm just reaching out to a community that I feel could perhaps help me out a bit.

A little about me: I've grown up in an entirely non-religious family. I've never attended church (except for the church camp when I was about 7) and I don't have the ability to yet; my driving skills are pretty bad right now For no reason recently I've started to think about religion, specifically thinking about God and Jesus and everthing like that (hence the reading of practically every thread on these forums ), and for one reason or another it's just "appealing" to me. Something seems right about it. I guess that's not the best way to put it, but it's something like that. It has an attraction that I just can't shake no matter how hard I try. Another weird fact is that I've never prayed in a "conventional" sense. Recently I've just started talking out loud to God, usually just before bed, as if I were talking to a best friend. It just works for me, and I don't feel as insecure as I would conventionally praying. But I'm new and I really don't know how to do things.

Here's my issue: I THINK I believe in God and that Jesus is our saviour, and I WANT to believe. I really do want to. But looking on from another thread, I've seen that most of you think that "Trying" to have faith isn't the right way to go about doing it. I've tried. I have. But my capacity to try really isn't anything to be proud of. So what I've seen is that you think people like me should just have pure and plain "Faith". I mean, I have faith in God and Jesus. Well, that's the other big thing. I only THINK I have faith. I don't know if I do. I've always second-guessed myself about everythng, and apparently right now, this is no different. It's unsettling for me; I really do want to have undying faith in God, it's just hard when you don't know how.

But then I doubt myself even further. Why would I be important to anyone? I probably cause more trouble than most people you know, and having the honor of having faith in God is just... too "amazing", for someone like me. It's sort of like the bad kid in school who gets the "best student of the month award", and knows that they shouldn't get it based on who've they've been.

I guess my question to anyone who feels like answering is:

"What do you think I should do? Should I keep trying and wanting it, or stop trying to make myself believe?"

I know I haven't explained it well, but currently I have 1001 thoughts just flying through my mind with no hint of slowing down.

Kindest regards,

Cyp

hi

i want to start with the trying to have faith thin ... it just annoys me when i hear people tell others that ... we don't get faith or muster it up on our own ... we ask Him for the faith we need ... it's His faith in believing that what He was going to do on that cross was what would save us ... His love ... it's not anything we do ...

and then the word faith, itself ... in our limited scope vocabulary we give no justice to the word faith ... it is not a passive word ... it requires a step of action ... bring something to the plate, so to speak ... i'll try to be brief ...

in the Hebrew they had 3 words for faith ... hasda ... patach ... Amen. i.e. hasa ... babe ... stays in the tent with their faith as they are afraid of others opinions or whatever ... just not styrong yet ... patach ... stronger ... leaves the tent ... but with a crutch ... for instance, a friend who is stronger in faith ... but runs back to the safety of the tent when it gets too rough ... and then as the walk goes by over time there is Amen. it's called the state of Amen. ... where ... you know that you know what you know ... and walk in confidence ...

so, anyway ... it's pretty harsh to say to someone ... just have faith ... in my life it's like when you're world is falling apart and someone comes along and says 'oh, it'll be alright' ... really! and how! is how it makes me feel ... what a shine on answer is how it feels ... i hope this guide you a little more to what you are asking ...

it's simple ... ask Him for what You need ... Heis the one who fills our needs

as to it sounds appealing ... well, i do believe you're being called ... many are called ... but few come ... what will you do seems to be the question ... but if you're waiting to be ready or something ... well, you'll be waiting until who knows when ... when we're called, it's time ...

may He bless you on the Way ...