I also have another huge problem. I am 15 years old. I go to a public high school. I am a coward. I used to have a big problem last year and the beginning of this school year with all that nazi/dictatorship junk. I fell for that alot because I was so tired of people, so even though I have changed people still see me as just the fascist. Thats not who I am anymore. I am in debate class and have been working on a philosophy project recently, someone asked me who my role model was because I didnt care for any of the philosophers. When the person asked me this I said nothing. I said nothing!, of course he put words in my mouth saying "Hitler, Stalin?" It used to be funny but now its serious to me. I didnt stand up for what I believe. Today I said I didnt like the philosopher I was working on. Someone said "You dont like anyone, you say you love jesus but then you dont like anyone, you dont make any sense". They are right I do not make any sense. I am weak in my faith, a fool, and a coward to not stand up for him who died for me. It really makes me depressed, I just dont know how to change things. Sometimes I will just get a spirtual "high" and then fall down deeper then what I was before. Anyone have any advice or have anything they feel GOD is pressing them to say? I feel my purpose is to help bring a revival to the church and help bring it away from sin, how ridicoulous is that with how pathetic I am now.