Understanding My Deliverance And My Intentions To Warn, Not Judge.

[jarshwoo]

Since I am being called self-righteous I will try my best to refrain from posting scriptures and arguing. Everyone has made their mind up about my intentions so I will let Jesus take over from here. I just explained here a little about my past life. I censored it the best that I could but after reading this you might have a better understanding of why I tried to warn others and why I come off as zealot. This isn't a pity party either for I am not mad at all and I am not depressed at all. Jesus continues to fill we with the fruits of the spirit. I do get frustrated but I haven't gotten angry yet. This isn't entirely about music but talks about the demonic oppression I went through because of music. Good luck to everyone.

I know plenty about self injury but the things I used to do were to graphic to be discussed here. I never said anyone was possessed. I wasn't possessed either because I came to salvation by myself. I got into pure blasphemous SECULAR Death metal. I am 6'7" tall and weigh 350 pounds and I used to be a Satanic Skinhead and if you want to know about violence, hate and the degree of self-mutilation I went through thanks to demonic forces then put on your seatbelt and be prepared for the ride. Once again my original post was taken off because it was to graphic and they didn't want others to see what I used to do to myself.

I was into cutting, gouging, drawing pentagrams on my arms and legs, I carved Slayer on my arm, I was into burning myself, and my favorite was smashing beer cans, doors, metal chairs, bottles, and bricks on my head amongst other things. I did it when I was drunk and sober and would often do it in public more then in private. I have a permanent callice and scars on my head from pounding it over the years and have burn scars on my arms. I have a tattoo of Slayer on my left forearm and I burned the letter Y off with a match. I am also covered in other Satanic tattoos, and racial tattoos as well.

Besides self-mutilation Jesus also delivered me from paranoid shcizophrenia, anxiety attacks, split personality disorder, bi-polar, and severe depression. I was so out of it from medication and then drinking and doing drugs on the Psych Meds made me into a walking time bomb. I endured spiritual hauntings from the devil and his demons for 5 years. I went through mental and physical attack as well as seeing, feeling, and hearing unexplained things in the house.

So before you go jumping down my throat because you didn't like my posts here in the Secular Music section and now you know why I was speaking out about secular heavy metal because I lived that life and am fortunate to be here today all because of Jesus Christ. Fortunately all sins are forgiven and they don't have any value.

I don't mean to attack anyone but I know what self-mutilation is about and in my old life I had taken it to the extreme. I was under severe demonic oppression and was being influenced by demons. Who in their right mind would do these things. I don't get how everyone will acknowledge good spirits which are good and change our lives for the positive but when it comes to the bad spirits (demons) nobody believes in them or they don't think they can do anything to humans. (especially non-christians)

How do you think Jefferey Dahmer or Ted Bundy could kill with no remorse? How do you think Richard Ramirez could rape an old lady? You might not have experienced severe demonic oppression and Praise the Lord for that but I would be careful in your selection of Secular music especially Secular heavy metal.



When 1/3 of the angels got cast out of heaven where do you think they went. Do you think they went to fantasy Land.

If you don't believe me that's fine but if you continue to play with fire you may get burned. When people get burned by the spiritual realm it is a life long battle. Fortunately I now have Jesus protection and can call on him for help but the demons let me know their around from time to time. If you think its a big joke then keep laughing but if you open a gateway you will remember this post. I will pray for you to see the warning without judging the poster.

If you still dont believe me I have two Slayer tattoos, a Six Feet Under tattoo, a giant Pantera tattoo, and other negative tattoos that I can't explain. I can't afford to remove them but I was able to throw out all my cd's, shirts, and thoughts by renewing my mind in the spirit.

I used to listen to Slayer, Pantera, Cannibal Corpse, Six Feet Under, Nile, Sepultura, Mortician, Exhumed, Cryptopsy, Incantation, Deicide and so on.

I am sorry if you think I am self-righteous by the former posts in the secular site but if you really knew what that music can do to you then you would be thanking me for this warning. If you are still mad I apologize for creatin strife here. It is just really hard for me to read posts by others when I used to say the same things.

Everyone here are all at the age where they know about Jesus and Satan. Everyone needs to know why they are having these urges to harm themselves as far as cursing, other sinful thoughts, and sexual lusts and it isn't being encouraged from the Spirit of Life. It is being influenced from the Spriit of Death and we all know who that is. Listening to Secular Heavy Metal and Rap is like sending an invitation to the devil to come into your life. I wish you the best in your walk but please take into consideration what I am saying even though everyone has already judged me.

I wish I could meet some of you face to face so that you could see that I am not trying to push things on you but that I don't want to see anyone else, especially a fellow brother open a gateway. As others have stated their is nothing else I can do here since I have already been classified as self-righteous.

I am sure alot of you will make fun of me for having mental illness but it has been quite a struggle over the past 3 years before I decided to turn my entire life over to Jesus. He can cure us and we all have different gifts. Thanks to the Holy Spirit he has helped me memorize scriptures and recite them out loud. This is good when you have to resist. I know all 21 verses of romans chapter 12 and about 25 other scriptures by heart. I am not bragging for it was the work of the Holy Spirit. Someone did call me a zealot and they are right. That is probably why I come off as self-righteous. It wasn't in my heart to hurt your feelings but I don't know how to sugarcoat the evil spiritual realm. They are what they are and they just want us taken out by any means necessary.

Some will respect this post and some will laugh but remember who is listening in heaven.

Peace, Love, and Joy to all.

 

[mark53]

Thanks for your heart felt reply. It must have been horrible what you went through.

Many people feel or get troubled (whether by demons or by their own selves) by many different things. Some get opressed by various types of music, some by rock, some death metal, some classical, some opera, etc. Others get opressed by certain various TV shows, books, various people e.g. Hitler, even Bush and other political leaders! Some also by various countries with various things that have happened in the past and currently. And other things or events have triggered off opression also, like drugs, alcohol, even family difficulties, work place etc.

So in taking one particular thing out of all these opression triggers and to imply that then on to all other people is dangerous.

What is real to you is real to you, alone!

Try not to "force" this 'what is real to you' onto others. But, off course, warn other people of YOUR EXPERIENCE. Remember what is your experience IS your experience.

I hope and pray that this is of some help to you. I, myself, cannot listen to death metal and also many operas because of Satanic or evil messages that come across to me. But I gave up trying to tell others about that because some find that this does not effect them, and others don't want to listen anyway so in pushing them one only pushes them more down the line that I feel is dangerous to them. So, instead, I try to encourage them as individuals and SHOW them the Love of God in what ever way I can.

God bless you!

(I don't mind if you email me privately if it is of any help!)

 

[mark53]

P.S.
It is much easier to read if you keep your posts down to what fills one screen.

At least that applies to me. 90% of longer posts I DO NOT READ. I don't know about others, but I feel others act similarly.

So break up your posts into smaller themes and ideas and it will come easier to read and to respond to.

 

[The Theory]

i agree with mark.

 

[ps139]

Jarshwoo, thank you for your post. There has been some strife in the past week but you have opened your heart to us here and I see you as a man who loves the Lord and as someone who is concerned about others falling into the same pit you were once in.
Praise the Lord for he has delivered you!! What would we do without Him? We could do nothing. Your heartfelt honesty here has gained my respect.

 

[LondonsBurning]

I still don't know why you needed to personally attack PhilN and tell everyone he was going to lead others away from the Lord.

Shed some light on that please.

 

[JMRE5150]

I still don't know why you needed to personally attack PhilN and tell everyone he was going to lead others away from the Lord.

Shed some light on that please.

Huh? I'm confused...is this reference pertaining to this thread? Please clarify.

 

[philN]

Jarshwoo-
It sounds like you've been on quite a journey.

I understand your concerns about people not wanting to go down similar paths. But I don't think that it was just the music you listened to that led to some of the stuff you were involved in. There had to have been a conscious decision to do this stuff. Whether or not it was some sort of imbalance or not is irrelevant because at some point you had to have reasoned with yourself that you should do this stuff.

I appreciate that you posted this to put some things into context. And I praise the Lord that you are no longer bound to that life. But at the same time, I do not think it is fair to assume that your convictions are the same as everyone else's. If one person turns violent at the sight of a turtle, must we all refrain from looking at turtles? No. I think it is important that we know our boundaries and we stick to our convictions, all the while realizing that others may have different convictions and we must not impose our own on them.

God bless,

Phil

 

[Im_A]

jarshwoo

i have read your posts on here. i haven't read the ones that you mention yourself getting called self-righteous, or whatever you said to someone else. from what i have seen, i wouldn't call you self-righteous. like others have said, and from what i've read of your posts, it does seem you have been on a rough journey in your life, as many of us here and more have. i just hope you realize one thing. you may have a lot of concern and love, and that is very admirable and respectable, but at the same time, things that affect you, may affect someone else differently. Paul said, "Do not burden your brother with your freedom." that is why i really don't try to get people agreeing with me on this certain topic. there are people that for some reason, this music brings up a very bad time, rough time in their life. with that, they should not listen to it. if someone like that ever listens to whatever music style that brings up their bad past, it should be when they are COMPLETELY over it, meaning beyond changing their ways. that's my personal opinion, take it or leave it.
if you ask me, all that matters is, your life is better now. music is a big thing, but it's pointless in the long run of life, and pointless in matters of salvation. just remember if you don't get the reaction that your expecting with your warning, it doesn't mean your wrong or that the other side is wrong. just two different ideas and nothing more

 

[Maynard Keenan]

I think the problem is that you assume that the music is at fault and inherantly evil, and that it will do the same and draw in everyone who listens to it. I don't think its the music that is evil. I think evil only exists within us and we all let it out in our own ways.

 

[JesusWasn'tWhite]

I think the problem is that you assume that the music is at fault and inherantly evil, and that it will do the same and draw in everyone who listens to it.

That's a good point.
It's shaky ground putting one genre or subgenre in the cauldron, saying that it does horrible things to (insert plural amounts of people).
I'm glad you have posted what you did here, to explain what perspective you're coming from.
I think too often, I am guilty of this too, people expect certain music to have the same affect (good or bad) on other people as it does to the individual.
So many times I have given people music that speaks to MY heart and MY soul, hoping and sometimes expecting them to come back to me with their metaphorical knees weakened, eyes watery and minds full of new thoughts.
Then I remember that music is a wonderful thing in that regardless of the intention of the artist, it can speak in bounds to you and in ways that other people may never fully understand.

All that being said, your leery attitude towards certain music, obviously founded in your past experiences, may not be worth more than a grain of salt to someone who finds beauty in the things you denounce.


2 cents... maybe I'll get some change back.

 

[cygnusx1]

a Christian can detect / discern what is patently of Satan , I went to a Rock concert just recently (a week ago) , The Scorpions were excellent , however the next band on had me heading for the exit doors , I heared 3 songs and just had to get out of there , I have never left a gig ever before , but the band ....Judas Priest .... were very sinister........... if you can sit through that then that is your buisness , but there was a horrible vibe in the air and one I will not forget.


Cygnus