Understanding Fighting

[Philip1993]

Good evening.

Sitting in a motel with two nights paid by my current roommates. After being punched in the face and this and that after what happened before this room I currently rest in, I need someone to talk to. I refuse to ever, ever use violence. Today, I started raising my voice in my house. Boom, out comes my stepdad that I barely know nor talk to much. He asked “Why are you yelling?! Why are you yelling??”. As I yelled again and again “What is happening?! What is wrong with asking me about my life?”. He ignores me and continues to take hold of the fact that I’m simply yelling. With assertive voice of what is indeed his he tells me “Stop yelling! Why are you still yelling”. With calm unstable voiced snaps I started to tell him with my present day experiences “YOU DON’T ASK ME ABOUT MY LIFE! Instead you simply tell me this and that about something else.”. Pointing out that he has brought up new ideas over a person yelling about something that is worse than he may ever know. New ideas. Something I refuse to follow as I obviously have made great experiences with what may be underneath. Loving everything about it. Believing in much more and making myself who I am. Knowingly disregarding with risk that must be sought and taken. Without a doubt taken with sanity and held together with self control. As he continues his side of the yells he said “YOUR LIFE IS [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse]!” as my disbelief was stricken with much more than expected. He didn’t control himself. He wasn’t after an object such as “a table is [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse]” nor after an idea of the “walls are [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse]”. He was after me and my life calling it something much worse as my yell has taken over his aggression and turned it into whatever. I pushed him backwards as he found the kitchen countertop for balance. Fire in his eyes took over and he struck me with his fist full of anger. Whether he knew what he was doing or not he lost control of the matter and refused to take action upon peace and love. Tension and energy rose without care for anything other than me. Me! A person who refused to hit him back. I continue after 27 years or so without a solid punch in my adulthood. My memory is distorted and I may have hit someone before.. but not during something like this. Never. As my mom tried to break us up his single punch also hit her as well as my right cheek. I pushed him away again and he tried to choke me with two hands around my neck. Being dominate in size, weight, height and age.. I managed to take his hands with the best grip I had down back to himself upon their rightful place by his front side. Leaving red marks around his wrists I left the house and walked straight over to the county jail. Located directly across the street from the front door. I have no idea what hitting someone means. I have no idea behind the law. I seriously don’t know anyone that well and the people I would talk to were in the kitchen either full of “discipline” or breaking up an argument. As I walked over and told the only thing that came to mind about my side of this life occurrence I believe more and more about peace and self control. Patting myself on the back yet confused about where it has taken me. Disregarding my heart and brain for new ideas or reasons my instinct and nature for what I follow, forever, brought me into this motel room. I need someone to help me.

What happens to me after I get punched in the face by another brother in Christ?

This has happened without much to follow. Can anyone help me seriously understand what comes into my life? What was taken from me? What I have done? What we have done with belief in a Lord who does see my doings?

I am righteous, blessed with much more than my Lord tries to give. Loving me to continue my journey into what I bare and carry for all of His creation. Understanding the seriousness of my past and how my life is full of experience and doing that I have yet to see anyone else do. Providing my Lord grace upon not mystery but doings in the name of beauty and nature. What happens with another believer in Christ punches and chokes me as I a brother to another in light.

Are my doings that are impossible and called miracles at stake?

What do I do?

God is not going to be pleased with this. Someone help before I go to Him.
Again.

 

[Wolfgang85]

I'm not sure if i understand everything of your post succesfully.

But you may want to think about whether the person treating you this way, hitting you, is indeed a Christian, Brother in Christ, or he is not. I'm not saying he is or is not. I'm saying You should think about it, or ask God about it.

Matthew 7:16-20
16 Ye shall know them by their fruits. Do men gather grapes of thorns, or figs of thistles?
17 Even so every good tree bringeth forth good fruit; but a corrupt tree bringeth forth evil fruit.
18 A good tree cannot bring forth evil fruit, neither can a corrupt tree bring forth good fruit.
19 Every tree that bringeth not forth good fruit is hewn down, and cast into the fire.
20 Wherefore by their fruits ye shall know them.