Under attack

[silentpoet]

I am very tired of these attacks. I am down again for a number of reasons. At my new job today I made a few mistakes. Nothing that I can't improve or work on, but still that got the downhill run started. I am in real need of uplifting. With a job in sales I can't be down like this and succeed. At least not for very long. I need it to go better tommorow. This job is a real blessing and I want to do it well for I feel God gave it to me and I have messed up so much of what He has given me in the past.

My job is not the only thing I am down about. I would say I am under attack from many different directions. I recognize it for what it is, an attack, but fighting it feels so pointless. My heart continues to be worn down. I continue to pray to God for the desires of my heart and also for others. I feel like my words are falling on deaf ears. The feeling of pointlessness grows, and that is surely part of the attack. Not every moment is this bad, but at this very moment I am very low. I await the Lord's answer to my plea, and am doing as Jesus commanded to constantly bring the request up(Luke 18:1-5 or 7). Some times I have great faith He will answer, other times such as now I do not. I wish only to be a good and faithful servent, yet I also have longings in my heart. I just do not not understand God's will in all of this. What I do know is that I cannot cease praying until His will is fulfilled.

 

[++Forgiven_One++]

I am very tired of these attacks. I am down again for a number of reasons. At my new job today I made a few mistakes. Nothing that I can't improve or work on, but still that got the downhill run started. I am in real need of uplifting. With a job in sales I can't be down like this and succeed. At least not for very long. I need it to go better tommorow. This job is a real blessing and I want to do it well for I feel God gave it to me and I have messed up so much of what He has given me in the past.

My job is not the only thing I am down about. I would say I am under attack from many different directions. I recognize it for what it is, an attack, but fighting it feels so pointless. My heart continues to be worn down. I continue to pray to God for the desires of my heart and also for others. I feel like my words are falling on deaf ears. The feeling of pointlessness grows, and that is surely part of the attack. Not every moment is this bad, but at this very moment I am very low. I await the Lord's answer to my plea, and am doing as Jesus commanded to constantly bring the request up(Luke 18:1-5 or 7). Some times I have great faith He will answer, other times such as now I do not. I wish only to be a good and faithful servent, yet I also have longings in my heart. I just do not not understand God's will in all of this. What I do know is that I cannot cease praying until His will is fulfilled.

I will pray with you and for you brother...we seem to share the same struggles in this life somewhat, so I feel drawn to your pain...stay strong brother...Satan only has as much power as you allow him...I will be searching my scriptures tonight, as I need clarity on things as well...

God Bless and be strong silentpoet...

Michael

 

[inthetwinklingofaneye]

You know the enemy knows that his time is soon going to end and he seems to be working over time lately on attacking christians. My cousin is going thru a real attack also and I have had my share and so many others are and have been thru this. I learned from the Lord that we have to praise him in all things no matter how bad they may look at the time praise God for all the blessings and thank him no matter what is going on in our lives. When you praise him thru it all you grow stronger and he brings you thru. He won't leave your side he won't forsake you just keep your eyes on him.
Keep your trust in him. Resist the enemy when he comes in trying to depress you or tell you there is no hope because there is hope in our Lord Jesus. I am sure you know all this already but sometimes we have to hear things again when we are under attack.










Heavenly Father
I thank you for all the blessings that you have given to this person. I thank you that your their Lord and Savior and I thank you Father that you will not leave them or forskake them in their time of need. Lord I thank you that they know and love you and know that there is hope in you. I thank you that they can praise your holy name at all times even thru the bad times. I thank you for all you have done in their life and all your about to do. Lord you are so awesome in all your ways.
In Jesus name
Amen

Heavenly Father

 

[njcl]

its natural to have good days and bad days,times of faith and time of doubts,id say not to put too much emphasis on it being satan but more that its your own doubts creeping in,i pray for renewed strength and vigour for you and that you work to serve your master in heaven

 

[++Forgiven_One++]

still praying for you brother...

Michael

 

[JPPT1974]

Heavenly Father
I thank you for all the blessings that you have given to this person. I thank you that your their Lord and Savior and I thank you Father that you will not leave them or forskake them in their time of need. Lord I thank you that they know and love you and know that there is hope in you. I thank you that they can praise your holy name at all times even thru the bad times. I thank you for all you have done in their life and all your about to do. Lord you are so awesome in all your ways.
In Jesus name
Amen

Heavenly Father

Heavenly Father, bless and keep this person and that they will accept you into their hearts and lives as Savior & Lord and that you will not forsake nor leave them in their time of need. That you will love and car for them. In your holy name, amen.

 

[silentpoet]

I know that yesterday I felt really uplifted. At least when I needed it for my job I was up and full of life. At night when I go on my long drive home I pray alot and think alot. My doubts really grow then.

But if I show a lack of faith, I have good company in the Twelve. When Jesus was put on the cross they scattered and did not trust Jesus when He said "I'll rise in three days" they showed a lack of belief in His promises. These men had seen Lazarus come out of the tomb and still did not believe Jesus. So I have a confidence that even though I cannot trust, that God can be faithful. But doubt weighs heavily on me now. I have seen and done amazing things through God, but one good thing I lack. And that is the one thing I have wanted all my life. I suppose it could be the foolishness of man, but even in my doubt and sorrow I lift up constant prayer in the hopes of God's grace, mercy, and miracles. For I do know that only God can deliver me.

I just get tired in the waiting, and the devil attacks me through this. Tonight I woke because of a nightmare. It was my worst nightmare, it really spoke to my fears. It was a very powerful attack. I recognize it for what it was, but still it just reinforces all the bad stuff going on in my head(doubts and sorrows).

I believe our God is a God of second chances, how else could you describe His grace and our redemption. I also believe He is mighty and able to deliver the hopeless and broken people. Jesus spoke mostly to them. And later sent Paul to us gentiles to give us Hope. But I see little enough of that now. Only God can deliver me. I can know this in my head, that God is faithful, but my heart is weary and weak. I have piled sorrows. I believe God can do what I request, if I am a righteous man. I don't know for sure how to delight in the Lord, but I seek to serve even with the bad things I am given. I have grown so much in faith, but cannot overcome this sorrow. All I can do is pray and await His mercy. Maybe I am a Psalm to others, hopefully it is like psalm 6 where God hears my voice of weeping and delivers me. I only want to be a light to others. And I want the good things I want to happen so that people may know God is at work in the world still. I want my miracle to be a light to others as well as me.